All i can think about every moment of every day is how much i miss my late girlfriendNothing really brings me any enjoy or distracts me for long, i feel completely hollowed out by the pain of her absence, she was everything to me, i have no life without herThe only thing that makes me feel briefly better is thinking of how i can join her eventually and don't need to be alive like this for that longSorry for blogposting idk what the point of it was really, i just feel so alone
Okay? Just think about something else. Completely made up problem.
>>85854998damn, how'd she die? did you kill her? did you kill her anon? was it your fault that she died? you did it to her, didn't you?
>>85854998I find that nothing eases sorrow like mentally romanticizing it so you feel more like a figure in a literary tragedy than just a mundane depressed person.
Keep going, every day it will hurt a bit less, at first you won't notice it, but gradually the pain will lessen.
>>85855015She took her own life yes>>85855019I have tried thinking like this but it doesn't help very much, in some ways it makes it worse>>85855021Everyone says that but i don't think it's true, it's been almost 9 months now and i actually feel even worse The state is currently looking into putting me into basically early retirement because they seem to consider me permanently unemployable now
>>85855066Just hang in there man, I can't lie to you and promise you it will get better, but it's more likely than not.
>>85855066What was your girlfriend like? Personality, appearance, interests- that kind of stuff.
>>85855098Imagine like a really beautiful 5'7 german/slavic girl with pale skin, gray-blue eyes, a cute nose and really lovely lipsShe liked to knit, cosplay, bake, watch anime and read VNs and for a brief while she got into gunpla, we also had a lot of fun playing games and TCGs together and i think our personalities were pretty similar as like awkward, shy people with mild agoraphobiaShe was a very vulnerable person who carried a lot of trauma and insecurity with her, but despite that she was really loving and sweet, not just to me but also animals and nature, she made me appreciate those things a lot more and we also adopted a cat togetherShe was also really funny and like a very curious person, always interested in my thoughts on things or learning about new topics or getting into new hobbies together, i really loved when she would get like super fixated on something for a few weeks/months and it would just like be her thing that she wanted to do or think about all dayI also really loved how she would be very blunt about her opinions with me, like if she thought badly of something i or anyone else did i would hear it, but it also meant that i could really believe the positive things she had to say and it actually ended up giving me a lot more confidence in myself and making me improve myself in some ways, it felt really wonderful to be so loved and appreciated by her even though she knew of all my flaws and insecurities
>>85855245ah that sucks, sorry anon
>>85855245Wow how did you get to meet her? She sounds ideal.
>>85855274On 4chan actually, we added each other, really liked talking and then realized that we only lived like 4 hours apart so she took a train to visit me literally the next day
>>85855306Damn, you were so lucky. It's a shame that it had to end this way.
>>85855336Mhm it really felt surreal, we were together for two years and the whole time i felt like in disbelief that i got to be that happy
>>85855245Have you ever flown a drone for an advertisement? This is sounding a little too familiar
>>85855371No i've never had a job actually
>>85855066>I have tried thinking like this but it doesn't help very much, in some ways it makes it worseI suppose this only works when you are already prone to internal melodrama. How long as it been, by the way? From my own experience time has a way of making you forget certain feeling, even if you feel like it's something that you shouldn't forget.
>>85855373No job? Based. I knew someone like that who died in the same way. This world breaks good people. Not sure I have much to say besides that.
>>85855306What board?organs
>>85855382It'll be 9 months soon but i really don't feel like time helpsI actually have started feeling more in pain as it started sinking in that i'll really never get to see her ever again >>85855407soc
>>85855245Was she a khhv?
>>85854998>this normalfag complaining about his normalfag struggles on r9kNobody gatekeeps anyone here anymore? God damn it.
>>85855451>socYou won the fucking lottery to find a non-whore soulless BPDemon female off /soc/, damn.
>>85855535it's a noble thought. to kill yourself to join your dead girlfriend. who can argue against? life sucks anyway. what else are you gonna do? live long enough to meet another girl? then it's all meaningless.
>>85855606>it's a noble thoughtAbsolutely.>who can argue against?I wouldn't dare doing so. I'm rooting for him.
>>85855574I know, it really felt like fate>>85855606That's kinda how i feelI'm sadly not religious but i cling to the idea that maybe there is something after death anyway, the thought that she's really gone completely is just too terribleI plan on writing in my will that i want to be on the same cemetery as her, i want to be with her there at least
>>85855518I take it she wasn't. Then there's no point in crying over her.
>>85855656>I know, it really felt like fateYou should have impregnated her, really.
