saw a bunch of girls in cute and sexy outfits and two of three chads accompanying them going to a halloween party apparentlyfeel like shit. how can i cope with the feel that I won't ever experience this? the youth, the partying, the feel when you pick up a cute girl, dance with her, and then you go home and have drunk sext. almost 30yo short fat autist
my cope is that even if I could make it I would never truly be happy humoring all these people. ive always been uncomfortable around other people.
Early thirties is still young. Diet + gym starting tomorrow and you will have a couple years of unwanted youth to enjoy.