i always thought that love would fix everything but it turns out that even with the idea of a happy future in front of me im still a worthless miserable useless piece of shit. i should starve myself to death and die in the mountains, and free him of me
>>85862130If you are a foid, kill yourself, I do not care about you. I'm assuming you're just some faggot, which alright, fair enough. Why are you worthless and useless? providing love and care for someone is an incredibly important thing. Your boyfriend could really use that. You could also get a job.
>>85862199am woman, will just kill myself
hope i can get some cuddles later from him, maybe ill feel better
>>85862313well, hes not coming over. even tho me, him and my mum had plans for halloween, hes now spending it with his mum. itll be good for him to spend halloween with his mum instead because hes never gotten that growing up, but im sad, i wanted cuddles, and now i dont want to do shit with my mum
perhaps you feel that way now because you likely are but you are litterally born with worth unless youre sterile. Gaining worth as a women is as simple as learning to cook and sexually gratify your bf/husband. bonus point if you have children and put in the effort to raise them well>>85862677youre becoming alpha widowed in real time
>>85862712im an absolutely fantastic cook but anyone can be that, therefore worthless.>youre becoming alpha widowed in real timei dont think youre using that term correctly, by its definition it doesnt fit anything said here, anon
>>85862746>im an absolutely fantastic cook but anyone can be that, therefore worthless.anyone CAN be but the majority arent and never will bother to learn>i dont think youre using that term correctly, by its definition it doesnt fit anything said here, anonI was joking but if youve fucked him its possible
>>85862779yeah well thats their fault for not trying. its a good skill to have>I was joking but if youve fucked him its possibleah ok, cant tell on here.i still dont see how thatd have anything to do with the definition. i dont have previous partners (romantic or sexual) to compare to, hes my first bf, i was a khhv before him. im just a clingy depressed cow who wants his cuddles right now
>>85862804yeah, most people are too lazy to learn or dont understand the that a way to a mans heart is through his stomache. I understand youre feeling shityy right now but dont downplay yourself like thatwhy is he choosing to spend halloween with his mother instead of you? could he not have atleast invited you? I hate to say it but it sounds like he's not as invested in the relationship as you, tread carefully
>>85862130Whats this? me, agreeing with a foid thread? Jeez...Seriously, I feel exactly the same. I thought getting a gf would give me purpose and a goal. Now I'm just paranoid and anxious because I don't think I'm good enough. I just want her to break up with me so she doesn't get hurt.
>>85862845man, you have to work on not OCD spiralling like that, it will actively bring what you're fearing so much. There's always the risk of heartbreak its just the reality of relationships. Appreaciate what you have
>>85862842>I understand youre feeling shityy right now but dont downplay yourself like thati cant help it, thats just what my brain does unfortunately >why is he choosing to spend halloween with his mother instead of you?he probably forgot we had plans, to be fair we've spent many halloweens together (as friends, i only started dating him this year but ive known him for 6-7 years) but hes never in his life gotten to spend one with his mum, plus it sounds like she needs the help (hes helping her try to get some of her bunnies adopted)>could he not have atleast invited you?not sure, his mum probably wouldve been sad cause she wants time with her son for the first time in like, 2 decades. besides im not really interested in doing all that lol.juggling a new relationship while also getting to know his mum and also getting to spend much needed family time after being isolated from them, while ALSO getting over a previous abusive relationship would be hard as fuck to juggle. i dont mind much. besides if he knew how depressed i am he'd be here but im not gonna do that to him>>85862845why do our brains do this to us, do these types of thought ever actually end or do they end when we self destruct? seriously, its frustrating. i want to live that happy future i can see down the road but at the same time, in this moment, i want to die.>I just want her to break up with me so she doesn't get hurti sometimes think that too but hes made it clear hes not leaving and that i dont hurt him which fucks me up, cause no matter how much reassurance i get my brain screams otherwise. have you told her your feelings anon?
>>85862864I can't help it. I start thinking about the future, and I just break down. Moment to moment I'm ok.>>85862889>why do our brains do this to usI think because I was denied/denied myself love for so long, I don't know how to process it when she tells me she loves me.>have you told her your feelings anon?not so blatantly. I've told her I have intimacy issues, I'm slow trusting, feelings of inadequacy etc. But not "I don't feel good enough you should dump me." And her reassurances just make it worse.
>>85862937i dont recommend just saying that to her outright for sure, but with the way youre going about it, i think thats good and healthy. cause if she can (i guess) help with those, slowly, you might start to feel better? hopefully?i havent been so indirect (i havent told him to leave me but ive told him im not good enough/worthy of his love) and im worried of scaring him off in the end, which is funny considering my other thoughts. being neurotic is so annoying, man
