i am abysmally unhappy, what am i supposed to do? i hate my life, i hate my job, i hate where i live, i hate being alone, distractions don’t help, manga, movies, games, hobbies ugh shinji ikari life is not worth living. I don’t wanna die but how long am I going to continue the cycle of endless torment suicidal idealizations of slicing my neck open after any minor inconvenience and yes the thing that sets me off the most right now is that a incel broke my heart like seriously??? I guess maybe a volcel either way im fucked in the head my ego is way bigger than it should be? the fuck does that even mean i hope making me feel small makes you feel better about yourself i wanna throw up at the thought of you anyone would be lucky to be with me i guess not everyone just leaves in the end anyways all my relationships have said the exact same thing when breaking up with me “you’re too much to handle” and then this guy i tried not being too much and still it was too much how can people just do so much damage to a person and not even bat an eye i still think about the men whose hearts I’ve broken
>>13002633i still think about dubs i've gotten
>>13002633
Love is destructive
>>13002655dubs!Your fortune: You will meet a dark handsome stranger
>>13002633take it slowtry to focus on small things you can do to improve your moodlittle by little theyll snowball into being happier and getting your mind off things<3
>>13002633Smoke flube and play vidya games>>13002672This
>>13003144revel in blood and fire
become the starbucks fish
>>13003144Dubs
>>13002633heal from your damage, if you can manage. I'm not sure just how you do that. some people say therapy. some people say therapy just made it worse because they found only invalidation or exploitation there. I guess I'd suggest self-help, even though it never helped me much, because at least it didn't harm me much either.
>>13003660self care
