Hello its me again, I'm sorry for this rantI have no oneI have no friends in real life, I do not speak to anyone online and I find no interest in anythingI have no expectations, because it is better to have no one rather than people you worry will leave you, yet it is all so miserable and painfulsometimes I feel like giving up, like killing myself, but I'm not depressed enough for that, the medication has neutralized every single thing in my brain yet after some timethe unbearable urge to cry keeps coming backI cannot speak to anyone about thislast time I did I was told to "get over it" which, I do, I got over many things, I always had an ignorance is bliss mindset, an accepting mindseta "there's nothing I can really do" mindsetI'm driven to the point of insanity day by daythe people I used to interact with only made me feel like a complete bother and an idiot, they would put me down and use me as a stool, like a winners podiumEverytime I opened my mouth I was left with shaky lips and an urge to cry, I wish I wasn't such an idiot anon, it really hurts to have people questioning why you said what you said, look at you as if you arent human, and having to explain yourself no matter whatThe waves of sadness and loneliness keep coming back, no matter how many times I have convinced myself I was at peace with itbut It really does affect me, it's painful, I feel it in my teeth, in my throat, chest and armssometimes I faint from what I assume is misery, and wake up cryingIn school no one noticed me, nobody sat next to me, my teacher wouldn't acknowledge my existence, sometimes telling me she didn't even notice I was here, and greeting me at the end of the dayAll I do is lay down and withdraw from everything lately I'm so lonely!!! I will drown in misery, and I'm very scared of drowning!!!
>>13075088but u have us and always will ^3^ also nice dubse
>>13075091thank u so much anon,, this is why I turn to this board always!!
Your fortune: Better not tell you now
>>13075096me i do
>>13075096ok
>>13075088i would die for you and **** for you
>>13075088i can relate anon... people who just say "get over it" don't understand what you are going through. it's good you are recognising these feelings, it sounds like you have pretty severe social anxiety. it's tough because interacting with people is something you have to do if you want to feel less lonely, but the anxiety pushes you away. it might be good to start with talking online, getting used to being able to express yourself more consequence free and find people who enjoy your company and presence. speaking from experience i can say it is very helpful. you will find people who appreciatr you for who you are!! you seem to have some interest in drawing at least! maybe trying to express how you feel through art will bring some catharsis?
>>13075096That's what I've been saying!Your fortune: Good Luck
>>13075088sounds like you need to get dicked down
>>13075105Thank u anon, you got it partially right, I was diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder a few years ago..It's nice seeing someone understand, and even if I feel bad for you it's peaceful knowing I'm not alone, I hope youre better now!!I'll try my hardest to socialize more, but sometimes it simply isnt my main interest which caused me to lose the very few people I was talking to, despite explaining myself alot, I think it makes me come off as complicatedSo that would be very difficult for me, but I'll keep trying, I'm not entirely hopelessI draw lots, yeah, but I never really learned how to place my emotions through art, because I have trouble explaining how I feel alot of the times, if I'm not insanely anxious, afraid or depressed, I just remain hollow, I never acknowledged the complexity of my feelings, most of the time it's like I don't feel anything, when I do I try my hardest to document it like I did in this threadThank u anon <33 make sure to take care of yourself aswell
>>13075088hello i am the same as yougood double
>>13075146Thanks for sharing your experience with us anon. It's giving me insight and helping me understand what other people with similar dispositions as you are struggling with. I hope that things get better for you and that you can find peace within yourself one day
Fuck off.
>>13075162Be niceBe kind!!!
>>13075161No problem!! And thank u!! Feel free 2 ama!!
>>13075160Hello, hope u get better soon, seek help if you can and take care of yourself, you are not alone in this desuHopefully we will make it through this hell
>>13075176grilles on esfores deserve all the attention
>>13075176It's a fucking board you retard, just you posting this image makes you a loser hypocrite
>>13075088Bump
that sucks but i got on a date with a guy, he got his cock sucked and he paid me back by stealing my second phone from 2016. what the fuck???Your fortune: Better not tell you now
>>13075317..wow.. atleast I didnt have 2 go through that kek That's really messed up!!
R9k is down the hall and to the left
>>13075320can you imagine all the bearies i had on that fucking phone???
>>13075317lole that guy sounds coolYour fortune: Better not tell you now
>>13075096me care
>>13075349why steal a 30bucks shitphone just why
>>13075397get dunked on namer xDDDYour fortune: Very Bad Luck
>>13075088it is ok to cry, if nobody else will be there i willYour fortune: Average Luck
>>13075403Kek
>>13075088>In school no one noticed me, nobody sat next to me, my teacher wouldn't acknowledge my existence, sometimes telling me she didn't even notice I was here, and greeting me at the end of the dayThis poster is obviously underage. That's not a description of college.
>>13075426past tense pedo dude don't get excitedYour fortune: ｷﾀ━━━━━━(ﾟ∀ﾟ)━━━━━━ !!!!
>>13075088>last time I did I was told to "get over it"they didn't tell you that because it will help you, they told you that because they lack compassion and don't want to care for you>Everytime I opened my mouth I was left with shaky lips and an urge to cry, I wish I wasn't such an idiot anonit's not that you're an idiot, it's that you're surrounded by people who treat you like garbage and trigger all of your old childhood traumas, giving you emotional flashbacksI wish I had some advice that would actually help you. all I can say is that not everyone out there will treat you horribly and make you feel like nothing. I hope you find those people, and that you're able to put distance between yourself and the ones that have made you feel this way, so that you're able to heal from the damage they've done to you.
>>13075088>the people I used to interact with only made me feel like a complete bother and an idiotsame same
bump
>>13075088can you record a video of you pissing ms piss chan
>>13075317Stupid cock sucking whore :deserved:
