Sometimes I genuinely wonder when it happened.When did it stop being just porn I watched in private and turn into something that followed me outside?Now, whenever I notice a Black guy in public, my mind reacts before I do. I start wondering what he looks like naked, how much of everything I’ve watched might be real, whether I would feel that same strange mixture of fascination, intimidation and submission if he were standing right in front of me.And lately I’ve started asking myself something worse:What if this isn’t even a fetish anymore?What if I’ve watched it so many times that my brain no longer knows where porn ends and reality begins?Because I can feel the pattern running automatically now. Black man means comparison. Comparison means inferiority. Inferiority means knowing my place. I don’t consciously decide to think it. The thought is already there before I can stop it.That’s what scares me.I used to search for this stuff because it turned me on. Now I sometimes feel like I’m searching for confirmation of something I already believe.Like my brain has been trained to see Black men as more masculine, more dominant, more sexually powerful — and to see myself, the white guy, as the one who is supposed to notice, compare, step aside and accept where he belongs.How many thousands of images does it take before a fantasy becomes a reflex?How many videos before a reflex becomes a belief?How many years before you stop asking whether you’ve been brainwashed because the person doing the asking is already the product of the brainwashing?That’s the part I can’t shake.Maybe I’m not standing at the edge of the obsession anymore.Maybe I crossed that line a long time ago.Maybe this is what the other side feels like: realizing that even when the screen is off, the porn is still playing somewhere inside your head.Your fortune: Good news will come to you by mail
really bad thread
>>13136067true yuji >>13136078false yuji
>>13136067I really don't get why you attack Yuji Sakai.Your fortune: Excellent Luck
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>>13136084wait im confused because ur replying to yuji
>>13136091We are all Yuji Sakai here, but if there is the difference. We all know who is who except who. So like whats the purpose of op here?Is it s4s or is it hatred?Sigh. Why can't you just be neutral with each other.Your fortune: Good Luck
DISREGARD THAT I SUCK COCKS HAHAHAHAHAYour fortune: Godly Luck
>>13136067>>13136078>>13136103>>13136110>yuji is pretending to be multiple people and broadcasting his blacked fetish on a board that minors visitJust when you think he couldn't sink any lower.
>>13136228What the fuck did you just fucking say about me, you little bitch? I'll have you know I graduated top of my class in the Navy Seals, and I've been involved in numerous secret raids on Al-Quaeda, and I have over 300 confirmed kills. I am trained in gorilla warfare and I'm the top sniper in the entire US armed forces. You are nothing to me but just another target. I will wipe you the fuck out with precision the likes of which has never been seen before on this Earth, mark my fucking words. You think you can get away with saying that shit to me over the Internet? Think again, fucker. As we speak I am contacting my secret network of spies across the USA and your IP is being traced right now so you better prepare for the storm, maggot. The storm that wipes out the pathetic little thing you call your life. You're fucking dead, kid. I can be anywhere, anytime, and I can kill you in over seven hundred ways, and that's just with my bare hands. Not only am I extensively trained in unarmed combat, but I have access to the entire arsenal of the United States Marine Corps and I will use it to its full extent to wipe your miserable ass off the face of the continent, you little shit. If only you could have known what unholy retribution your little "clever" comment was about to bring down upon you, maybe you would have held your fucking tongue. But you couldn't, you didn't, and now you're paying the price, you goddamn idiot. I will shit fury all over you and you will drown in it. You're fucking dead, kiddo.
