i dont like being a pedophile. i didnt ask for it, its just how my mind works. i think that it stems from having sexual relations with another boy when i was six years old which was kind of traumatizing coupled with consuming a lot of loli/shota content growing up. i mostly jack off to adult stuff and some lolicon occasionally. this one time though, when i was 16, i did stumble across cp on an altchan and i came to it. it was a video of a toddler being raped. i dont know what i was thinking, it's the biggest mistake/regret of my life. i wanted to kill myself after that. im 20 now and i havent done anything like that since.i dont see myself ever hurting a child, the mere idea of it makes me feel sick to my stomach.im posting this here because i have no one else to talk about this with. i see a counsellor but i think if i opened up to her about this i wouldnt be able to sleep at night. she has kids, which would make the matter even worse.if youre a pedophile too and you want to change, you might not be able to. you can however lead a modest and balanced life, where you never break the law or prey on innocent children. have faith, i believe in you
>>13211800 (dubs)>i wouldnt be able to sleep at nightwhy?Your fortune: Outlook good
>>13211800I don't even think about kids most of the time.
>>13211816because it would haunt me, the mere idea of someone i know irl knowing about this petrifies me. i never want anyone to know.>>13211821same, but there's still that aspect of me that i cant get rid of.
I don't see anything wrong with my being pedo. If anything, I can see real beauty in children which others seemingly can't see.You're no more at risk of raping someone than a teleiophile is. If you find the idea repulsive, there's literally nothing to stress about.As for a counselor, they'll tell you either a) to do some conversion therapy-tier activity which will do nothing, or b) just to accept that's who you are, and that's something that only you can do at the end of the day. A counselor can't do that for you.Your fortune: Reply hazy, try again
reading this is so gay, you've been mindbroken by moralfags
>>13211834it's not really being mindbroken when you've intuitively known since a child that it's wrong for an adult and a child to have sexual/romantic relations.
>>13211836yeah its wrong, but to the point where someone types out "it's the biggest mistake/regret of my life. i wanted to kill myself after that." just reads off as incredibly cringe. Self deprecatory pedo posting is just incredibly idiotic, most ppl who post stuff like this believe theyre a greater danger to kids just 'cause theyre attracted to em, but theres obviously no correlation unless you're an imbecile who cant control his emotions
>>13211800You're like that fag who said you can't kill. What was his name, Jesus? Whatever.The point is that murder and rape are probably okay if you ask me, and so is stealing and arson. I have 0 fucking respect for the law. So you're a pedophile, well I stole a lot of chocolate bars a few years ago. Mmm. Chips, too. If only I could punch a cop in the face in this life I would be so happy!
>>13211822unchecked doubles on the last page!
the biggest regret in your life is jacking off to something? do you not realize how dumb that sounds?
>>13212433unchecked doubles on the last page!
>>13211800Your story sounds a bit like mine. I watched a shitload of 'p before I began regretting it and feeling super remorseful though. It's still mind boggling to me how I could do it for some time without even thinking about it, like I was completely blinded. Therapy actually helps and no the therapist doesn't feel offended especially if it's a decent, professional therapist. Get person-centered therapy.
>>13211834>t. pedophile
>>13213256problem?Your fortune: ο½·οΎββββββ(οΎβοΎ)ββββββ !!!!
you can suppress your pedolust to near zero but fapping you're pebis to loli doesn't help it
>>13213258yes
>>13213269im sorry im sorry im so fucking sorry I dont want to be a problemYour fortune: Very Bad Luck
>>13211800there's absolutely nothing wrong with you and you've only been brainwashed into thinking you're mentally unwell by the feminist-zog agenda. it's natural to be attracted to feminine beauty and youth.Your fortune: Good Luck
>>13213274He fapped to a toddler getting assblasted
>>13211800>came to hc/rapewhy? that's like walking into a resturaunt and saying "I'll have what's in the toilet"I think that was more likely motivated by a crude desire for taboo than by your sexual attraction honestly. Regardless, forgive yourself and move on, this attachment is clearly causing you suffering. You chose not to die, so you should live instead, don't exist in this self loathing limbo.Also don't tell your counceller, don't be stupid. You've obviously internalized the idea that your existence is shameful to some extent and confessing to some normie is just going to make it worse. The job of therapists and such professions is to try to "fix" you in relation to currently existing cultural norms in order to bolster and reaffirm the status quo. If you are stigmatised by society to the extent that you are, then you have to accept that institutions are not on your side and a certain level of distrust and paranoia is self preservation.>i think that it stems from having sexual relations with another boy when i was six years oldwhat were the specifics of the event? Did you feel traumatized at the time? Or did you develop a retroactive feeling of trauma as you got older and became more morally assimilated? I don't doubt that sexual experiences can be traumatizing, especially a negative experience at a young age, but I also believe that secondary factors can produce feelings of trauma where there weren't otherwise, as shown by rind et al.>i dont see myself ever hurting a childI believe you. I'm a map, but I can't even remember the last time I even spoke to a child and I have no devilish plans for the future. Most CSA isn't even committed by pedophiles, rather by authority figures such as parents and teachers that are no more attracted to children than the average person. Governments play up the idea of stranger danger in order to create a scared and helpless populace that will gladly give up their individual rights to stop *the bad people*.
Anyone suggested kill yourself? You should kil yourself
>>13213327>>13213333Your fortune: Bad Luck
>>13213333quads
>>13213333QUADRUUUUUUUPLE
>>13211843No actually pedos should feel shame and kill themself if they hurt a kid.I don't make the rles, just dosing you with reality
>thread has actual critical thinking instead of just "kys pedo"Surprising. This is smart board?There is a lot more nuance to adult-child relations than people want to admit. Yes, the can be abusive a lot of the time. No, that doesn't make them inherently wrong. Read Foucault.Also seconding >>13213321, hit us with a greentext
>>13213384>read the kid diddler who defends diddling kids because sex with children can be le good it it's a liberal doing it
I like how OP has vanished.
>>13212433the word "something" is doing a lot of heavy lifting here>>13213249did you see it on the sharty too? i did too when i still used that shithole>>13213268ive decided i will stop today>>13213274gross>>13213321at the time i didnt feel it was wrong but i definitely think it fucked with my head a lot>>13213380i agree, i dont think all pedos should die but offenders are likely to re offend and we're better off without them.>>13213384i'd rather not go into detail about it>>13213397here i am
>>13213459No, I watched it on those unnameable, awful places. I don't want to give bored lurkers a thread to pull like I was given.But seriously though, you should go into more detail, this is a good thread. And take your counselling seriously, you must open up to her.
>>13213495>And take your counselling seriously, you must open up to her.please don't listen to this guy unless you want to end up on a list
>>13213509Is this an actual thing in the US? You guys are more cucked than I had imagined... No medical confidentiality is brutal.
>>13213384>"casually" names Foucault >cia assetnah, kill yourself weird faggot
>>13211825>>13211834some real disgusting people in this thread
>>13211800i get you op, i was groomed into becoming a kodo by my asshole ex (now in jail, lol i wonder why). i never watched anything with real kids tho although he tried to get me to watch some vids with him. i despise the idea of hurting a kid and hate myself for what i let someone else turn me into.i don't suggest telling anyone, the risk is just too high. its social suicide.
>>13213551I'm just saying the truth, one should not kill themselves for their attractionYour fortune: Outlook good
The end stage of "apologizing" for being a "pedophile" is literally trooning out and cutting your dick off. If you know you aren't gonna hurt anyone there is no problem. All you are is at a normal malebrained baseline.If the burden of consciousness and free will is too much for you feel free to jump into the goyim cattle slave caste; they're always happy and probably a little *too* excited to suck a willing mind out. Your call.
>>13213584Name back on tea fren
>>13213707you JTRIG motherfuckers never sleep do ya?you're constantly flooding the boards with your low grade porn and keyword bullshit.you slander innocent people watch the mob flip out (think george floyd) and call it power.i'm not a violent person BUT...there are limits to what civilized people can tolerate.kepp my name out of your mouth cunt nugget lest you find a very rude delivery man at your door with a very lethal pizza for you.Your fortune: Average Luck
>>13213256Who are you quoting?
>>13211800kys pedo
>>13213391>>13213527Excuse me but who are you quoting?
>>13213738live your self friendo
>>13213551I'm not disgusting just because I can feel love where you feel hatred...Your fortune: Bad Luck
>>13213268>you can suppress your pedolust to near zero lole! people love lying about pedophilia for no reason.
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REV UP THAT WOODCHIPPER!
>>13213750i am a pedophile
chldrn
>>13213742>>13213736im quoting your mom
>>13214104lol
>>13211800sadly once you start, you can never stopβ¦
Epic thread guys
yo i usually don't talk here but, don't be ashamed to talk to your counselor bro. theres a lot of people out there who are fucked up an don't give a shit about anyone and just go hurting kids and people, but u care about those children. sometimes we don't get to choose what we feel, but we can choose what to do with that, u feel me? you are a good guy anon, keep it like that and talk about it so you can work it and leave it behind, you don't deserve to suffer all this crap bro, we got you, keep it straight man, good luck
>>13214466double dubs
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