I wake up every once in a while and just think“I really do not give a care whatsoever about this subject anymore”I still find individual proofs beautiful but I am not enjoying research even less so seeing that LLMs can do a lot of my work in minutes. Just feels pointless Fuck academia and contributing to our collective knowledge. I wanna go get drunk and hook up with pretty women Maybe I’m just depressed :/>t. Grad student
Yeah man basically all I have done was setup a software stack that does everything even type out my latex in my own style.Research is already kind of boring as fuck, but the problem isn't just AI for me. It just saves me lots of time, no longer of my undergrad days spending hours wrestling with latex. I don't even use overleaf anymore, it's just useless because the AI interacts better with just the text files.To be honest I'm just doing this shit cause it's better than being unemployed, but it's actually completely soul sucking. It's not the vision I had in mind.I'm just doing this cause it's easy, I don't actually like math, it's just an easy thing to do. My advisors are calling me crazy but I actually am wanting to leave the math department for electrical engineering.My opinions of engineers have changed, they're not longer like retarded monkeys. They're more like kids playing with legos and I want to play with legos too. I want to have an idea and get rich and fuck russian models. Also the culture is so bad, if you talk to a cute undergrad you're a creepy unc apparentlyI have mentored even a lot of new first years and helped them get settled and become strong students to try and develop a culture, but they are very ungrateful. They don't even understand how much I helped to carry them because they never suffered. It's not as social as people claimed it was. I spent like three years trying to no longer be an autismo and become an extrovert and it really worked, but it didn't pay offIt's all such a waste of time because I could have done all of this on my couch... and I did. I trained myself in mathematics, I read the books I wanted, I never bought the stupid slop from the uni bookstore. I wrote my own code, I taught myself C. All my effort of all my life will be attributed to the wrong people and some stupid ass diplomas on my wall (actually they're on my mom's wall). Maybe ONE person was good and helped me become who I am, but it was short livedI am regret
>>17010417Lying is a sin. Repent.
>>17010456I never knew his handwriting was this neat, wow. And he was so right (uncle ted picture)
>>17010417miggers make math unbearable
