there is absolutely no point to my lifeall i do is waste other people's time and moneyhundreds of thousands of dollars of inpatient stays and therapy all amount to nothing because i refuse to apply anything i learned in DBT to my life yet cry over how miserable my life is because of itrelatiomships crumble because who the fuck would want to stay with someone with no future who refuses to change and just wants to wallow in arrested development neet delusion parents paying for an apartment for me pay for my groceries pay for everything yet i hide in my room and cry over the reality that one day i will have to get a jobi am so embarassed that i have no desire to get a real lifeto improve myself in any wayim sorryim sorry for continuing to be fixated on the fantasy that someone one day will swoop in and save me and finance my entire existence and i have do nothing in return except "b myself" cus thats supposed to be endearing or somethingi wanted to cut myself real bad these past few days but that would be really annoying to deal with in this weather so i post nudes instead #harm reduction
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>>35369729Message me on telegram you seem sweet please don’t hurt yourselfTele: whitemorpheus2
I'll be honest, I don't know if posting nudes will help. I know saying so probably won't change anything but who knows? Just keep trying I suppose. Kinda in the same boat, but I'm ugly and retarded so at least you got two up on me. Also I don't suggest cutting if you can help it...
>>35369729Yeah, tough shitGive yourself time
>>35369738Well at least you are hot bitch^^Got any contacts?
>>35369738So, East coast then? Fair. Look, do you want to talk about it or do you just want to post nudes? It probably won't do much to help but I honestly can't really make you stop. Just be safe, ok?
DM me if you want to chat (or share more pics) Tele @R9k2002Kik Hammerhound
>>35369738Crazy coping mechanism, not that I hate it. Try putting your mind into something, get out, be around people.From what you are saying it seems you have BPD or something like that, can be pretty frustrating, only way of getting better lies in you and your circle. Don’t quit therapy, it’s worth it, believe me.
>>35369738Fake
>>35369752>do you want to talk about it or do you just want to post nudes?i want to talk about it i really want to talk about it but nobody else cares and they always just skim over everything i read even in these threads nobody actually reads what i say and just skim over it and pick out like 2 words to comment on its so poitnless but this is all i have nothing else feels like This so i do it i just want attention because i am invisible even if people know i am struggling they dont care to extend kindness to me aside from pity they dont actually understabdits really pointlessthe kind words i get from people on discord dont help the kind words from people on here dont help it feels so stupid and pointless annd like nobody gets what im going through even if im not uniquely cursed or anythingim just really tired of it and yet i refuse to do anything that i know will help because ive had DBT drilled into my head for years on end cus i rather just sit and rot at my laptop and then go on here and cry about how le world sucks nobody care me i wanna die waaaaaahits realy embarassing how little effort i put into life i wish i had the desire to put in effort but i dont and i dont know why even though i hate feeling this way and being a failure>>35369774>don’t quit therapy, it’s worth itim not in therapy right now and havent been since mayi have been in therapy since i was like 12 and institutionalized like at least once every year since then im obviously not getting betterlike i think to myself there has to be something more to therapy than just "use le hecking skills" i feel so fucking empty i dont understand how so many people managed to get better from dbt it is exhausting and just feels like one big elaborate distraction cope
the only reason i am posting nudes in the first place is because if i dont my threads get taken downwhenever i post on r9k i either get ignored or just get mean comments Way meaner than the usual soc "fake" "tranny" responses so it just ends up mkaing me feel worse adn i hurt myslefbut im way too far gone and brainwashed by this site to even post anywhere else and not be met with hostility or just get ignoredim not normie enough to be anywhere else so im trapped here in purgatory
>>35369802Kik Ynot1010 and I’ll talk to you,more importantly I’ll listen. Up to you
im not going to talk to anyone off-site and download pedo apps to do soive tried this before for years and years with bunch of different anons and it doesnt help and makes me feel more emptyi genuinely dont know what else to do I AM LYING I KNOW WHAT TO DO YET I JUST DONT DO IT BECAUSE I AM A FAILURE AND WASTE OF SPACE AND ALL I DO IS WASTE OTHER PEOPLES MONEY ON A LIFE THAT IS NEVER GOING ANY WHEREim really sorryi dont know i think im just sorry to anyone ive ever interacted withits embarassing because i know how much of a fool im making of myself (is this proper grammar idk) i know how much this is fucking up my life yet i do it anywayim genuinely so sorryim sorry that i am this way and refuse to change itits e,mbarassing
>all that just to say you still want gigatron 2000 from planet ultron prime
Your not a waste of space, just find a dude who will take care of you to fuck your tight lil holes and you can just chill at home and do w.e u enjoy. Def cute enough now Post more.
>>35369729You look a lot like my ex, it's uncanny.
I’m actually an ER nurse that is a long time visitor to 4chan. Feel free to chat with me any time. We deal with mental health/SI/bipolar issues all the time. I’d be happy to chat. Kik - MarcusAlman123
>>35369858im legit tarded is this supposed to be the "and yet she still only wants chad" memei just want an older dude who can take care of me Actually cares about the retarded shit i like and won't resent me for refusing any responsibility (unironically my ideal partner is a guy who looks like prime dad noel gallagher But i have to pretend i dont because . im mature and must heal from my trauma or whatever)>>35369859>just find a dude who will take care of youthis is hard to do if you are not feminine and refuse to become sowhere are these suposedly willing men who want ugly hairy tomboy daughters Hello
>>35369802Hey, hey. I'm here. I don't know if there's much I can do but I can try and listen and hear you, ok? Kind words from people only tend to work when someone wants to believe them, I know this from experience. I don't want to just tell you more empty words and just say "it's ok, it's ok. Just keep your chin up!" because that would be insulting. It might be slow to talk here, but I'll do what I can, ok? I'm not probably going to be of much help but I offer what I can.
Oh, you're the Beatles fan. I remember seeing one of your threads. You weren't this bad at the time, apparently. Care to explain how can you like such an overrated and boring band like them? Genuine curiosity
>>35369896I like the hair, it's pretty sexy
>>35369896idk id engage with every intrusive thought that ever crossed your mind and service every need of yours with every appendage of mine. anything for a curly hair tomboy such as yourself :^)
>>35369896>>35369729>>35369738>>35369802you ignore the people who genuinely want to talk to you, that's your fault like most other things are. No one wants to talk to someone who doesn't do anything to help themself. Your nudes are the only important thing you have to offer
>>35370113Ok yes they're rather nice I won't lie but still. I'd rather her get better instead of worse.
I thought you’re not a normie why are you calling kik a ‘pedo app’Also TLDR are you willing to just be a housewife or not, if yes how’s that been working outOh yeah also nice body would sex
>>35369828i have some level of experience dealing with someone in the same kind of situation, my best bet is that in all of that self hatred you are either straying away from the really accepting the treatment or staying around someone who is hurting you because you dont find yourself worthy of getting away, also you really need to be careful with anything romantic when in the state of mind as you are way too likely to get yourself or the other person hurt badly
>>35369729Spread pussy hole
>>35369802>>35369828>>35369896Why are you so convinced that you're some kind of failure? The rise n grind life isn't for everyone, and you were born a woman, so why not just embrace it and become some dude's stay at home wife? Having kids would most likely solve all your problems. Also why the fuck is it so hard to post on this website now? I have to wait 60 seconds to even be allowed to attempt the 4 part captcha, this is bullshit
>>35369729>>35369738>>35369802>>35369810As long as you keep posting pics while blogging I will keep reading, post more hairy holes, tho'
sounds like you need a good beating, i have a gf to take care of but maybe someone else can kidnap you and beat and rape you until you shape up
also your parents should probably take away or limit your access to electronics. no child of mine will ever sit on their ass crying posting tiddy or weiner pics online instead of going to work or school
>>35369828What a pathetic mentality to have, do you just plant to sit and cry until you eventually rot away?Do whatever you want, the sun will rise tomorrow and no matter what you end up doing, nothing will change that fact. So either you can choose to actually do something, anything at all! or you can just curl up and fade into nothing.Sitting here begging for some man to take you away is a joke almost as bad as the way you're treating your life.
If you like to post yourself naked, why dont you try selling content? Maybe you can have a chance with that, without having to find a boring work to survive.Idk
dunno what u want us to say. you also turn away ppl who want to help you because of ur own insecurities so that's on u. stop being such a victim and take life into ur own hands. when you sit there and allow people to baby you for most of your life, ofc ur gonna be sol when they leave you or can no longer take care of you. id really like to talk to u more but u just seem unreachable tbdesu. why whine when ur just not gonna listen to anyone on here, you want people to read ur diary and feel bad for you but you probably wont even read this post. perfect irony of the people on this site, authors of their own defeat
you also seem a bit delusional ngl>>35369896>im legit tarded is this supposed to be the "and yet she still only wants chad" meme>i just want an older dude who can take care of me Actually cares about the retarded shit i like and won't resent me for refusing any responsibility (unironically my ideal partner is a guy who looks like prime dad noel gallagher But i have to pretend i dont because . im mature and must heal from my trauma or whatever)im sorry but the rich benefactor isn't really into slightly mature looking hairy tomboys. those guys are into ddlg age regression chicks. unless ur gonna shave ur cooze and take an entirely different personality... regardless this is a highly unrealistic standard for a man, even more unrealistic than "wanting chad". you also sound like a gold digger when yoi blatantly admit this. no rich man wants a woman to love him only for his money jist like a woman doesnt want a man to loge her only for his body. my honest to god advice pudding or whatever ur name is, u rly need to reevaluate what it is u NEED and WANT in this life. yr attractive but posting ur nudes and hoping a man swoops you away isnt very fulfilling i imagine.
>>35369828>im sorry that i am this way and refuse to change itif you refuse to change you are by definition "not sorry" lol. you rly should feel embarrassed though but you're not remorseful by any means. if you're not gonna change stop drumming up sympathy, especially when ur just a tease on 4chan.org. ppl are only giving you sympathy because of your holes and they want to see more. you're either a slut or ur not. and dont apologize for not changing, ur definitely not hurting us for u not changing, ur hurting urself by continuing to be a whore. so u should br apologizing to urself for choosing this lifestyle. i guess thats enough captain save-a-hoe for now... if you want to talk to men actually into hairy tomboys well.i sent u a request but it's all up to you, surprise you've always had a choice
>>35369738bush so thick it could hide a small dick
>>35369729>>35369738>>35369802Nice, I'd fuck you.
>>35369729>>35369738The beatles are dogshit you autistic retard
>>35369940>how can you like such an overrated and boring band like themidunno i feel like its quite easythey are cude , had matching haircuts and outfits during beatlemania so is pleasing to the autist eye, they have distinct eras fashion/look wise and sound-wise so its nice to categorize (chubby lennon, glasses lennon, long hair lennon, beatlemania george, perm george, india george, billy shears paul, beard paul, etc etc etc), they were the biggest band on the planet so they have hundreds of hours worth of lore to read up on,specifically music wise i think their earlier stuff is super endearing and the melodies are simple and worm into my head like with hard day's night and with the beatles, revolver has really good songs with more guitar , sgt pepper is nice if u want Funkiness , white album has some of their best songs but also some of their worst so idunno, and abbey road is just . insane actually so well rounded , overall i really enjoy paul's freaky deaky tunes like maxwell's silver hammer the synths are very fun and his quaint edwardian ditties like here there and everywherei can understand why people could see them as boring because by today's music standards the majority of their songs are quite simple and can understand why people would see them as overrated But if you don't at least have the urge to wiggle around your room when you hear twist and shout ... i dunno that sounds like an brain injury to me
>>35370057>ANYTHING but a normal mancan you plox explain how wanting a boyfriend who wants to care for you, won't resent you, and actually cares about what you talk about is abnormal and nitpicky,???>you ignore the people who genuinely want to talk to youbecause those people don't actually have genuine intentions anonand its my fault because i post nudes so i attract those peoplethey either only want sexo endgame , or if they dont they never actually want to engage with me in my interests to the in-depth level i want but i will always return that energy because i love engaging Deeply (sorry i sound so pretentious but idk how else to describe it) with other people's interests and it just feels exhausting and like i am being used no matter what>>35370225>why not just embrace it and become some dude's stay at home wifebecause i don't want kids and birth and child care sounds like living hell so basically Nobody want me>>35370392>So either you can choose to actually do something, anything at all! or you can just curl up and fade into nothing.i probably will and i accept that>>35370504>id really like to talk to u more but u just seem unreachableyou can always add my discord but dont expect me to want to put effort into 30+ anons who refuse to put the same effort back im sorry if it sounds mean but its just exhausting >you probably wont even read this posti read every single reply in my blogpost threads it just feels kinda pointless to reply to each one because each Reply invites like 5 more anons who insult me and are cruel to me because at the end of the day the userbase on here on average is antithetically opposed to everything about me, my opinions personality lifestyle etc so the more i talk To them the more they hate me , but that is my fault for posting here idk i just have nowhere else ok post too long so i will have to do another one (1/2)
>>35370527>you also seem a bit delusional nglim not delusional i am diagnosed with autism and bpd but ive never had psychosis >highly unrealistic standard for a manhow so please actually explain this i dont get it>no rich man wants a woman to love him only for his moneywhen did i ever say i want a rich guy ? yes i want to be taken care of and my dream is to be taken care of but the reason why i dont solely look for sugar daddies or be full blown gold digger is because i care way too much about personality and personality Always comes firsti dont need a rich bf i just want a bf who is ok buying me food and shampoo and conditioner and stuff so i can survive and be hygenic and not die and maybe we go to conventions every other yeari have had a boyfriend who had a lot of money and yet i felt like i was at the lowest / most "insane" point in my life because we couldnt have in depth conversations to the extent that i wanted so i felt ignored and invisible i have been chronically Misunderstood and ignored my entire life and i cant go through it over and over and over so no i am not looking for a rich dude solely for the money i could probably get away with being a neet for a couple more years or so what i want is emotional connection first and foremost and then he is ok buying food for Two instead of one , new clothes if my underwears get holes in them etc and thats all i dont need expensive cars and makeup whatever>ur hurting urself by continuing to be a whore. so u should br apologizing to urself for choosing this lifestyleok im sorry to myself
i need to eat breakfast and take an shower so i will accept requests afterwards
>>35370950shower and shave and feel better. works for me at least
>>35370924>i probably will and i accept thatPathetic
>>35370943At least gold diggers accept they're in it for the money. It sounds like you want someone to maintain you and your way of life, AND also be there emotionally for you and entertain you to the "in-depth" connection level that you want. The reality is youll never find this because somone who would be able to support you and has the personality that you want, is out there doing stuff and youre stuck at home being a NEET, find hobbies, become someone interesting and fun. Noone is coming to save you, and you wont find anyone if you dont take care of yourself first.I cant imagine how exhausting it would be for anyone to take care of you both financially and emotionally
>>35369802 I'm glad you didn't cut. But id totally hold you down and fuck you raw. Maybe spread your ass as I slide my cock in and out of your hairy pussy. Id love to stretch your pussy open too. After I came in you I'd slowly work my hand inside you using my cum to help it slide in and out. As your pussy is getting licked I'd be stretching you open like a good girl. You need to be used
>>35370924You remain gorgeous, and I wish you would post more lewds
>>35370950Show how hairy your asshole is.
>>35370906The Beatles are great, the evolution in their music in six or seven years is fascinating. A Day in The Life still brings me goosebumps and the medley at the end of Abbey Road always brings me joy.As far as lore, I highly recommend “John Lennon in My Life” by Pete Shotton, his childhood friend from Liverpool. It’s mostly about their childhood, teen years together, meeting the other Beatles. Some interesting insights on Yoko Ono too.I’m Easybluegrey on Discord if you want to chat Beatles some more.
>>35369729Have you ever considered hiking the Appalachian trail?
ok it is out of my system now . im done with my bpdemon Episode imabandoning tgis threadi can See the future and can predict all interactions i get on discord i give upsoryyes im a bad person annoying etc etc ok thank you>>35371228ough i'll read that, im almost done with john & paul love story in songs by ian leslie and iwanna read lennon's book too (in his own write i belueve is the title) he's a compelling fellow so any books about him i will gladly read
You are so beautiful that it would be a crime to not show us more of your body. Spread your pussy and show us your butt. you know you want everyone on here jerking off to your hairy twat.
>>35371307I was gonna offer you to live with me and roleplay as my daughter-wife and do nothing except hang around but you're leaving the thread so I guess I'll have to find someone elseit's a shame because you're really cute and I love your body
Post holes
>>35371307hah! Out of interest how many of these types of thread have you posted here?
>>35369802I won't lie, i would normally avoid anyone like you in real life. Online presence gives me opportunity to speak. You know your beautiful, I know you don't feel it. I like you, I think you spent a lot of time thinking things through and understanding others. You have addictions, could be the medication or isolating behavior. Truth is you don't know a lot of things, you made mistakes and you were inadequate at times and it perfectly Normal. Anything I say here is just one time. Speaking personally to public is not the healthiest habit. Ask me anything if you want but don't expect it to be any better than having a actual personal conversation
>>35369729What's your throwaway discord OP? I wanna see if we can be friends.No hugbox false positivity. No weird gooner shit. Just honest conversation and a chance of somebody to tell all this to over time.Sorry if it's in this thread and I missed it
>>35370906Lots of lore for autists, got it.And to be fair "boring" isn't very accurate to what I really think about their music, but if I worded it with a more honest "unbearable piece of shit" it would be too obvious that I was baiting you into talking passionately defensive about something you like to take your mind away from your problems for a moment. Anyway be well, wishing you the best.
>>35369729If you want a cum trib let me know if you want to voice chat as well. I know life is difficult and confusing but you are young and have a lot to give,
>>35369739i hate 4chan users bro they say shit like this and then ask to be added on the pedophile groom aps
>>35371873I don't even get the whole telegram is a pedophile app thing what child is downloading fucking Telegram. If anything Discord is the pedophile grooming app
>>35370504>>35370527>>35370532tl;dr but No More Heroes is kinoif you're a foid pls share contact
back from work>>35370924i appreciate u proving me wrong puddimg-kun>>35370943>im not delusional i am diagnosed with autism andnot relevant... you are delusional in the sense that you are seeking something that is obviously causing you suffering tbdesu>when did i ever say i want a rich guy ? yes i want to be taken care of and my dream is to be taken careyou need to learn to take care of urself, not rely on someone else. when u put ur life in others hand they inherently control u. and then u wonder why u feel like ur life is shit and u have no agency>how so please actually explain this i dont get itno less unrealistic than the tradwife meme and expecting a woman to be a subservient houseslave in a house full of kids by herself. your ideal is unrealistic in 2026. why should a man take care of you if you, especially if u clearly cant take care of yourself?i sympathize with ur want for affection puddimg-kun, not saying u cant have a preference, but you are chasing the wrong this simply put. what you should be chasing for is not a man but to... idk, self-determined? definitely anything but the sobbing slutty mess u are now.> im sorry to myselfu know words mean nothing puddimg-kun, action does. sorry means nothing if u continue to harm urself.>>35372179srry brah i have a dick and balls lol. bjt yeah shinobu is definitely my unrealistic standard for a woman
also, afterthought>>35370924>but dont expect me to want to put effort into 30+ anons who refuse to put the same effort back im sorry if it sounds mean but its just exhaustingyou dont have to put effort for me in particular but if you want what you want, ie a man who willing to take care of you, you need to put some effort in acting looking for that. relationships are exhausting. if it exhausts you to look for a relationship you are not socially capable or ready for a relationship. not even gonna call u lazy, ur just not ready. thats my entire point. if u were ready, you'd swallow the pride and deal with it, like most women in the real world do. but ur not like most women, right...? spiel over but something important i think you hear
>>35372297actually* looking, fat thumbs are a killer
>>35371367my discord is in the timestamp photo anonif you are actually being serious and not just trolling seriously please add me
>>35372327nta but didnt work
turned off fren requests i give up soryi should tne be doing this
>>35372327I want to talk with you, desu you seem like you'd complete me.>>35372327
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>>35372634>>35372669oof, tough cookie anon, though being honest she wouldn't complete you
>>35372669That was supposed to be crying I just sent the FR on discord. I feel like I am going to just keep missing you
>>35372673If that’s how you feel anon you need to get some post nut clarity. She don’t want you like
>>35372698I guess your right >.<I'll crawl back under my rock and hope
>>35370924can u send pics of u bent over, on hands and knees, from behind u and from the side please
>>35369828I've been where you are &.managed to get myself out. Therapy isn't gonna get you what you need. You know what probably will, from the sound of things? Concerta. Shit will change your goddamn life. Just make sure they dose you low to start.
I just wish you were prettier to be honest.
>>35369729can i sniff ur pits
>>35370924You look decent
For the dumbasses who added her she's just gonna remove or ghost you lol