Are you hanging in there, /v/?
No
>>739421870yeah, but "hanging in there" implies things aren't great, but they are
just dying, slowly. But at least i have weed and abiotic factor and some peeps to grind resources for me
i wish for death daily
>>739421870DO YOU HAVE THE LEMONDROP COLLECTION?!
>>739421870My deterioration is proceeding apace
>>739421870Consider buy a Fran STD, (standard) 8k camerahttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q6enZ6aVfis
>>739421870Quirk Chungus coded image.
Today I'm sort of okay. Everytime a car door slams or I hear a siren my anxiety gets bad. At times when the sirens are loud enough its like I cant breathe and my legs turn to jello. I'm trying to distract myself with games. It's working somewhat. I'm surprised I haven't had a full blown mental breakdown and just lost my mind. It's just been a slow gradual decline. I genuinely can't imagine dying of old age. I'm gonna be gone way before that.
>>739422375why do those things give you anxiety
>>739421870Warm as hell here
>>739422574Different anon here, this is a fun guessing game to me, door slamming, sirens, ptsd from some accident I would wager
>>739422574They always have to an extent it just got worse over the years. I had to move back in with my dad. I lived alone for awhile in an apartment the most I could do was take my garbage out myself. Someone in the community would drive me around once in a while sort of like a support worker Idk. I have always been a pretty anxious person. I have made some pretty bad choices too. At times I have thought of self medicating with hard-core drugs just to see life from the other side. Life where it's not scary being outside on my own.
Only the present is real.Past and future exist only as thoughts in your mind.Life is always happening now, in this moment.
>>739423145>Past and future exist only as thoughts in your mind.sure but i got a painful ear infection rn. If im not allowed to think about a future where it doesnt exist then I see no reason not to kill myself.
>>739423145True, sometimes we get too distracted by dwelling on the past or fixating on the future we forget about the now and if we spent more time living in the moment we'd be happier. People are too greedy sometimes, they want more they tell themselves just another month and I'll have this or that thing and I'll live in the moment.
>>739421870im a wrecki'd love to go waste away in s cheap motel somewhere. it's a shame those dont exist anymore
>normalfag acquaintance does the snap-fingers-in-front-of-your-face thing when you zone outman, why do they do that?
>want to find gf>be lazy and try online dating>make a profile>every "woman" is la creatura>very limited search options >unless i pay, of course>can't delete account again, only request
>>739423435>Why do they try to grab my attention with an attention-grabbing gesture when I zone out?Truly a mistery.
>>739421870Barely. I don't even know if I want to.
>>739421870Yeah
>>739423442>the articleWhy is this surprising? Did they forget white males exist and are the majority playing games?
>>739423475there are less annoying things you could do
No, not at all.
>>739423563*slaps your fat cheeks*
>>739423316>tfw played a vidya and surfed the internet as a kid and decided this was the life>have been enjoying life ever sinceIt's really that easy. It's best to start your life asap, grinding for a degree or a corporate position you never loved is just throwing your limited time away.Too bad zoomers are growing up in an economy so fucked that they won't even be able to afford rent on an okay job.
>>739423307Your pain you're feeling is a gift, that's why it's called the present
>>739424237Your empty platitudes bring me no solace
>>739424861Solace comes from within
>>739425271>>739424237I will literally torture you and make you apologize for spurting such hollowness
it's starting to look less like mental illness and more that my brain is fundamentally at odds with existence.
sh1 and sh3 remakes better be good and well optimized, I want to know what kind of cool creative ideas bloober can instill in them
Turned 25 a couple of months ago.I began spending money on virtual skins just to feel something.The only thing that keeps me sane is writing fucking fanfiction and fantasyslop.
>>739421870One more year till I get wizard powers
>>739421870>Are you hanging in there, /v/?
all of my mental illnesses would go away if i had an arcade i could visit on a regular basis
No and fuck you for asking.
>>739423145If you don't think of the tomorrow in your mind you're much more likely to let it take you instead of you taking it. Knowing your past helps that along. My present now is much better because I devoted at least some of my past to thinking about what was then my future, thank goodness.
>>739421870I wish I was omnipotent, life would be so chill and peaceful
Does it get bettbettere bros?
I stopped hanging and instead of falling I ascended.
Yeah, I guess....At least I got vidya to pass the time. What's your go to game to disassociate with, bros?For me, it's work sim and management games or ARPGs.
>>739421870I had an interview at a place I do want to workbut for a position I didn't apply for because nobody in my field wants that specific position so they're desperatethey couldn't even get my name rightlike I don't think I'd take the job if they offer but at least read my name tag
>>739421870nopefairly convinced i already died and this is purgatory
>>739421870yes, but life sucks right now.can't find work and don't have the money to pay rent this month.never been more isolated in my life.but pushing myself to learn things constantly.and holy shit, do i love these video games.been crushing it on tetris attack recently after having not played in ages
>>739429557i was rejected from a promising position because they wanted me to make killbots and i said i wouldn't do that, but would make anti-dronebots
>>739421870I've been completely aimless for about half a year already, but the summer sunlight fills me like a battery and I'm looking forward to Mina the Hollower next week.
>>739421870not really.few months left financially... then idk
>>739429835you stood up for your principles, good on you
>>739421870nomy brother died of stage 4 cancer that the doctors completely missed for several months because they are incompetent, and my mother hasn't been the same since. Once she's gone I'm the only living member of my entire family tree
>>739430342that's terrible, bro, fuck cancer
No really no.Ex gf who dumped me already has a new bfRuined friendships by shit I saidWork been a bitch for the past monthsGrowing older and feeling more and more lonelier as people seem to distancing themselves.No energy or motivation to do anything
>>739430468It's no doubt the worst possible way to die, he was on the legal limit of Fentanyl at all times and it still didn't stop him from being in constant agony. I'm a loser that posts on 4chan so my plan was always to suicide at one point, but watching him cling to life even though there was absolutely no hope left has just deleted that option forever
>>739430648i wouldn't wish cancer on my worst enemyassisted suicide is a human right that is unfortunately denied to people in 2026
>>739430648Be there for your mother.You are hurting but imagine how she is suffering. She needs light in her life right now and you need a purpose.Support her, be there for her, keep her company, spend time with her, make that a reason for you to endure the pain and have an objective, a reason to keep going. By making her happy and not feel lost will make your life also happier and fulfilling during this hard times.
>>739429128yes, actually
aww sweet a tranny blog thread
>>739431490Self hating trannys like you are the worst.
