I'm really really really lazy
>>741669194lad unc ahh nigga
I can just make an RPG maker game.
dunno how to program and i'm told that i hate fun
why is unc developing on windows98
>>741669194I have a family and I'd rather make memories with my kids than spend thousands of hours on a game that will probably flop
>>741669194I'm stupid, man. Everyone thought I was gifted and I'm actually stupid, uncreative, and really fucking lazy.
I made like a bajillion dollars from my game it's super ez lol
>>741669194Define "fail".
>>741669194i have zero ideas when i try to do some pet projects, i usually go hard on some unimportant details and eventually lose interest also wage cage takes most of my time and energy
>>741669194Turns out 3D animation is literally impossible.
>>741669194Doing things by yourself sucks.
>>741669194I didn't really. I became a military simulator dev for 15 years. That's basically a really boring videogame. Not doing that this particular moment but it was a job for awhile. And I decompile old games to make them open source and port to modern systems for fun.
i failed because i chose to never start
>>741669671>Nice adults think they're encouraging and tell you that you're smart>You start to believe it>Turns out, they were incorrect
>>741669579sean uses an old version of Visual Studio because it's the last fast version or something.He's the ultimate cnile boomer
I didnt
>>741669579It's Windows 7 with classic theme, chad unc
>>741669194It would take too much work. By the time I finished a game I wanted to make, I'd be old and a bigger developer could've probably made a better version in that same time. And even if I succeeded, what would I get out of it?
I made a free game back in high school that has 100,000 plays, thousands of comments, and people are still playing it in 2026. Does that count as successful?
>>741669194I'm a writer, not an artist or programmer. I can't make game on my own, and if I got involved with a project (which lol because no one needs a "writer" for an indie game) my contributions would just be attributed to someone else.
>>741673230if I told you my personal philosophy about things and told you to write it into a story for my game, is what something you'd do as a writer? if not, I don't know what a writer even does
>>741669194I have no support group, that's it, and I don't mean it in a faggoty way. Every solo dev out there has always had a group of friends who share ideas or playtest their games, I have nobody, I'm alone. It's fun to develop for oneself, but at some point the depression catches up to you and it manifests as procrastination, so I've just never finished a game project, I just do work that pays instead.
>>741669194My plan is to become a gamedev youtuber (@Cultmunism) AI-slop youtube channels get more views than my channel.
>>741673419Mass reporting your channel rn
>>741673230>which lol because no one needs a "writer" for an indie gameUnless you're making a puzzle game or a barebones platformer or something, writers are absolutely needed for indie games
I didn't. 12 years in the industry. Covid happened and I discovered the world of cinema. Haven't looked back ever since. Fuck video games.
>>741669194too schizoid to work with others without getting overwhelmed by the friction of interpersonalisationtoo dependent to work on my own without succumbing to depression from lack of supportive feedback
>>741669616But le one indie hit make 6 gorillions for your family, then you leave your wife and kids and marry slavic bimbo eeg deek dream!
>>741669194Seriously lack of discipline and work ethic and I really don't know how to fix it. I'm fully aware of my issues, i'm aware to "just do it" and sometimes I do get a burst of motivation but then rapidly become increasingly tired or lazy. I have a lot of ideas, I have a large library of experience to pull from games i've played for inspiration or to iterate on underutilized ideas and I think about game dev stuff constantly yet I can't pull myself up to actually commit long term and work on it. Being a NEET feels more like a curse than anything. I don't know how to get over the roadblock, it would be easier if I had some disease or something as a legitimate excuse but I don't. It's suffering to know that I have no excuse i'm just being a lazy fucking nigger who can't even fix his sleep schedule let alone create a video game
>>741673732>i think about x constantlythats the problem, to work properly you have to stop thinking and do, thinking takes up your energy and makes you tired to begin because you overthink before you just do anything.
>>741673170Not if you don't name it, faggot. I'm anti-doxxing so not sure if you can do that without doxxing but I'll spread some seed on some of the bitches u created
i wanna make a math-based friendslop
I don't know what to make and I refuse to waste time making worthless pong and asteroid clones.
>>741673230Why would you want to be a game dev if you're more interested in writing? Honestly, being a writer for a game might be one of the worst jobs you can get for video games. Not because it's hard or full of menial tasks but because you will have your creativity and ideas stifled constantly because the writing of the game has to fit the gameplay. You could put in a lot of work for a certain part of game and make it connect to this and that later in the game and then it gets cut because the devs decided the level doesn't work. You basically have to warp your writing entirely around the game and make it super flexible and I imagine doing so just really fucks you over.
>>741673887>waste time making worthless pong and asteroid clones.They're not a waste of time if you're trying to understand the language you're programming in. Besides, even for an absolute retarded beginner, Pong and Asteroids take like two days tops to make.
>>741669194Can't fail if you never started.
>>741669194>Why did you fail to become a game dev?I tried to simulate game systems rather than just code them. The playher doesn't care that a fake packet is realistically routed around the game world, i could have just done string matching on ip addressessolving programming problems was too much fun and actually creating content wasn't as fun to do. lastly, i had a flash that the "real" way to create the game should be done via instructions to the ai that would then create the game, and my engine should just be a vehicle for the AI to express itself. Now its actually possible and my mom is paying for me to go back to college. we really can have it all, anons. never give up hope <3
>>741673373>Every solo dev out there has always had a group of friends who share ideas or playtest their gamesNot true. I've got no friends, no social media, no external feedback or validation, but I'm still working on my game every day. It's the only thing that gets me through corpo slop day job bullshit. There's probably plenty of people in the same situation.
>>741673170>Does that count as successful?you're posting about it hereso, L
>>741674087>solving programming problems was too much fun and actually creating content wasn't as fun to do.you should get a real job in the field
>>741669194Webdev pays more for less
Maybe I need to become not necessarily ideas guy but idea refinement guy. I see too many games that come out, especially indies, that just have horribly balanced mechanics or there just isn't enough juice to make their mechanics stand out. Obviously not every indie game puts importance on that stuff but as an example you can look at all of the slay the spire clones and how the biggest difference is that NONE of them are nearly as well balanced as STS and their ideas might be interesting but they're not fleshed at all and feel like wasted potential. That's what I hate the most actually, wasted potential. I can see how good ideas can be explored to create really interesting stuff but too many shitty indies come out that underutilize great potential or their game is in eternal EA
>>741673308I mean yeah, I probably could. In that instance I'd just assume you already had a story in mind, since it's hard for me to conceptualize why anyone would make a narrative-driven game without a narrative.>>741673489See above, if a game is intended to have a story I assume the people working on the game have the story figured out already.>>741673980I like writing regular stories too, but there's a special charm to video game story writing - the player gets to interact with the world in ways that can't be done with traditional storytelling. Even though you control the set pieces and the plot, the player determines the pace, and you can even experiment with telling multiple stories within the same experience via branching paths (though this can easily lead to a poorer overall experience if you aren't committed to ensuring each potential outcome is narratively satisfying). I like thinking about stories through the lens of video games, though admittedly I'd want to be in a total control position of writing everything out - working on a team would probably frustrate me.
>>741669194im more of an ideas guy
>>741669194My ideas are so bad that people call me "Brazilian Cris" on /agdg/. I wasted 6 years on this jobby and made only $50.Now I'm a 30 years old neet incel who wasted his youth.
>>741673419breddy good audio should be your main focus, vocals don't quite seem integrated, sound effects can be grating, but the visuals/gags are finenot bad anon
>>741674357Guuuurl go get that bag and have your nigga Claude vibe code up a game for you.
>>741674443thanks
>>741669194Because I want my games to be good and for people to like them.But I can barely understand coding and I'm not sure what to make.
>>741674317>since it's hard for me to conceptualize why anyone would make a narrative-driven game without a narrative.I don't know shit about writing and what I would write would probably be embarrassing juvenile drivel. I would basically just ideas guy broad strokes at you, give you my personal philosophy about things (which I want reflected in the game) and let you implement the details. That's the only thing I can see a "writer" being useful for.
>>741674360You should've spent more time playing games instead of committing to a bad idea
>>741674317Name 5 games with writing you like.
>>741674360You also didn't listen to any criticism when it was presented to you.
Can't fail something you never wanted/tried to do
>>741674118then you're clearly not at the part where the depression catches up to you yet, I mean best of luck but your environment is suboptimal for game dev.
C64 game making is cool. People crank out all kinds of cool games. Once you figure shit out you can do it faster. PETSCII is coming back into style, there are PETSCII 3D shooters now with decent playability and frame rate.In the era of 3D slop I'd rather play some free game some person made than pay to play AI slop.
>>741669194I didn't fail, i haven't even started yet... I just gave up to pursue other things for the time being, but i hope one day i can go back to game deving again...
>>741669194PROCRASTINATION
Comfort is the death of motivation I think
>>741674360Cris is eventually going to make anywhere between 10 to 1 gorillion dollars though thanks to notoriety if he actually sells anything.
>>741674819It is suboptimal for sure, but I've had this gamedev hobby for 10 or so years now, and I'm a year into this game. I don't foresee stopping.
I don't have any ideas. I'm not creative.>1% inspiration, 99% perspirationFuck you I'm ready and willing to work.
i've given it multiple goes, and there's just so many moving parts. everything i touch turns to shiti pretend to have stopped caring, but i keep jotting down gameplay ideasnobody cares anyway, and vidya will become a forgotten unc hobby soon enough
>>741669579imagine needing anything more than Visual Studio 6
>>741672878VC++ 2008 Express is the last fast/unbloated version. He uses VC6 mostly because he prefers the hotkeys.
im unironically very passionate about the porn games i want to make and the flame of creation still burns brightly inside me
>>741669194Says the guy who never tried in the first place and instead posts some random image into the void. Next time, at least try before posting some smug whiny nonsense like a pretentious loser.
>>741679135this looks shit and I hope it's a roblox game because if not what are you even doing
>>741679210You complain yet refuse to create something of your own. In time, you and your memory will be forgotten while those of us who still create will endure.
>>741679135Your babbling makes no sense and your game looks like shit.
I didn't But sometimes you fall into the category of >Mid gameYou're not popular enough to make itYou're not crap enough to drop itYou make some sales and then they fade away and you only occasionally get some comments about the next version of updatesThis is the true gamedev hellLimbo
>>741673980I unironically cannot write regular booksBut I can write for game stuff since you just break it down into triggers and eventsIt's just spamming short form writing really fast. I find it way more enjoyable than having to sit though and slog 800 pages of yapping continuous thoughtAlso allows you to fail way more >Well this branch of events are crap>Whatever ill do better on another tree
>>741679343the only thing people will do to the memory of what you posted is mockery if it can even be found in the ever growing pile of shovelware, and that sometimes is worse than simply fading away.
>>741677713I usually take a shortcut and use the latest slop people suggest to make a game. (Godot/Unity/UE/etc various frameworks)Then I run into performance issues that cannot be resolved due to using a more abstracted fast to produce language or due to what is offered and once again realize I'm probably going to have to cobble together a stack of libraries in C or C++ and give up since I know its going to take forever and be aggravating. I've done it on cycle every other year too.
>>741669194I retired in 2013.
I Duning-Kruger really hard and then get angry when I don't understand something. My brain is quick to crown me an expert of whatever I'm trying to learn.
I need help. Im not talented enough to wear all of the hats. I wired up and optimized the networking for this game and just stopped. I started to work on sound, but never finished wiring up the logic. Because I am thinking, I dont know how to make music. I dont know how to make good art to replace the things I have made.Programming was the new thing to learn, and I made this thing from my new skill.. and the project demands more things to learn. Its been a year since I was seriously developing...
>>741679404My "shit" game inspired many people to draw characters from it. Can (You) say you have done the same?
>>741676048He's been at it for over 12 years and never got past a pre-pre-alpha 0.0.01 build there will never be a release
>>741669671I think I have the opposite problemI feel retarded all the time, people ask me on the spot questions and I give dumb answers and feel like my (coding) solutions were always worse than others.but by every metric at my old workplace I excelled and they promoted me to tech lead and kept saying how great I was.I made my first video game a couple of years ago and it was a mild success and has paid for me to make another, I go to gamedev meetups most people there haven't released a game or had any success.I think I might actually be good at this but I feel like a dumbass all the time.
>>741673980Skill issue
>>741669194I'm stupidSome people are just retarded inferior losers who can't amount to anything and I'm one of themI could kill myself but I'm too much of a coward to do it
I'm in the cycle of>browse pinterest for ideas>collect and section different categories >armor designs>map layouts>character ideas>this all eventually becomes a fucking schizo mind map only I can decipher>have the ideas for the setting and story and gameplay and even how to optimize the performance and how to save myself time on design>realize this all just habit forming behaviour>the only habit I've developed is saving pics of shit I'd want in this unrealized game>I still need to form the habit of sitting down in my free time and using unity>only when I replace all other habits like shitscrolling and watching youtube with unity dev only then will my game get made.
>>741674003>even for an absolute retarded beginner, Pong and Asteroids take like two days tops to makeHahaha, yeah...
I decided it was more enjoyable messing with leaked game source codes than it was attempting to build something from scratch.
>>741669194not im retarded, this shit is as profitable as a lottery
I'm too much of an ideas guy
>>741680437It's like 2-3 people feeling sorry for you, fagtroon
>>741673610Thank you Saar for the Doctur Doumz!
What's worse guys?>trying to gamedev straight out of college, for 10 years, fail and give up.or>start working, thinking you'll get experience and money first but then never actually doing it and you're now 40 and don't like video games anymore
>>741680919For me, it's Pacman n Snake. Even Tetris. Those were newb games I'd do so find something you can do or go back to fundamentals. If you use arrays for Snake it's very easy.I like fundamentals but I get the thought of making a full game in JS, Python, Ckek or just about anything and basically, laziness. It'll become an annoying chore mid-project anyway. Don't feel like it. Plus the decision paralyzis of even picking anything in particular.
>>741669194damn Ulillillia looks like he's been through hell
>>741672543>And I decompile old games to make them open source and port to modern systems for fun.Are there any learning resources for this?
>>741669194I would like some context. Whose gramps is this and what games has he made?
>>741669501>omg le gifted kid burnoutTurns out all those redditors are just midwits who thought they were special compared to the sewage in the public school system
>>741672543>And I decompile old games to make them open source and port to modern systems for fun.Intredasting. Tell us more.
>>741681260You can just say you're jelly, boomerang thrower.
>>741669194Whenever I have an idea for a game, someone else announces the same game when I'm one month into working on it.
the pursuit of meaningful art is quite the ordeal.To express something real and honest without losing yourself in it. It is a lifelong commitment in itself and I’ll be evolving throughout it and reevaluating my life, which will undoubtedly affect the vision of the game.
>>741674360me in a few years brutal
>>741669501inversely i do know how to program and i tell others i hate fun
I'm the only person on /v/ that has a real vision
>>741669194>start working on a game I want to play>work on it till its in playable state>start playtesting>have fun with it>eventually stop working on it because I already had my own funCurse of being a game dev as a hobby.
>>741686659same problem with showing off something and getting praise for it.. the dopamine is a curse
>>741669194Too hard for my smooth brain to comprehend.I became a traditional portrait painter instead because I discovered that I have a knack for it, and it would be a waste not to do it.
>>741669194I dont know how to codeAnd i cant make models
>>741669194best part of any game is the art and i'm not an artist
>>741669194I'm just the type of nigga that fails at everything they try.
>>741669194Because whenever I start getting something playable, I get bored and need to reboot the project so I can get back to the purely technical coding.Might have finally cornered myself with computeshader tho. Nowhere else to flee and claim it's "for better performances" now.
Worked QA onceNever again
I've probably spent 100 hours and more trying to learn programming but I can't even write a for loop without looking on googleOOP is out of the question, just can't understand itim very jealous of developerfags
>>741687910nigger + failure = meIn case some people didn't get it.
>>741687973you don't have to memorize syntax and how to do everything, programming is more about being able to think in a way which can be easily expressed in a programming languagememorization vs understanding
