How are you holding up?
>>6188476why don't you just fuck off
>>6188472
>>6188473I used to be happy back then, now I don't even know if I'm real or not
If you see this you are a cutie =)
>>6188472>post ragebait>call it "feels"Dogshit OP, please redo
>>6188854what's the difference?
>>6188706kek
>>6188849Slit your throat groomer. Hugs and air kisses.
>>6188472My cancer so far is benign, but I'll have to monitor it for quite some time. Take care of yourselves and go to the doctor for routine check ups if you can
>>6189165here's to your health anon
I feel like things are getting bad again. I'm in the best place I've ever been but I can't stop my mind. I've come to accept that I might just have to deal with this deep melancholy for life. I don't know what my future holds. I have a beautiful wife and she brings me joy and understands my mental problems but sometimes it's so hard to fight. The thing I fear the most is now I've lost my out. I can't just blow my brain out or step infront of a train anymore and being forced to live each day is terrifying. I've tried getting back into film and editing shit but it feels like I'm forcing it when it used to be natural. I don't know what to do but for some reason I still put one foot in front of the other
god damn it i love her. and theres nothing i can do about it. i love her and i wish i could just be hers already.
>>6189165Wishing you a full recovery, anon.
>>6189294>>6189295brutal shit
>>6188719Why aren't you happy now? What have you done to improve your life over the past year?>>6189548I've been there (except with a man because I'm a faggot). I hate to beat a dead horse, but work on yourself. Really grab life by the horns, and rip and tear your way to the top. You shouldn't dwell on one person like they're the only person that'll love you or you'll love, because that simply isn't true. If she doesn't love you, so be it, you can't mind-control her and you shouldn't manipulate her into loving you.Be the best you can be. Make your future self a gift for your future partner.I really hope that helps anon and I wish the best for your situation. We're all gunna make it
>>6189847Is that Emma from men I trust? She's such a qt
>>6189165might i ask how old? what was your diet/health in general like?
>>6189847
>>6189165Wishing you all the best anon don't cheap out on treatment
As someone who was depressed and no gf, then depressed + gf, and is now not depressed and no gf, I can assure you guys that being single is not your problem. You need to find something meaningful to dedicate your life to. Try writing a book, collecting something, building a business, etc. It's not too late, I imagine most of you are still in your 20s
>>6190223Also quitting porn and drugs, working out and the rest of it helps but it won't solve the problem. You'll just be a healthy buff dude with no purpose.
>>6188490>Wiping the slate clean, starting over againA part of me dreads it. But I would be lying if I said a part of me doesn't wish for it.
>>6188848
>>6190223working out and working overtime(paid) are drowning the voices which tell me to just end myself.I don't know whether I am depressed though. I am just tired sometimes
>>6190042>Why aren't you happy now?I'm stuck in a dead end job that's stealing my happiness away>What have you done to improve your life over the past year?I'm trying to be grateful for the little things and praying for a quick end
>>6189165nah im not vaxxed.
>>6189165Be in good health anon.
>>6188706this is fucking brilliant
>>6190223I don't think it's useful to arbitrarily go after something you know is meaningless just for the sake of trying to manufacture meaning.>Try writing a bookUnless you have something unique to say and enjoy writing, it's a waste of time. Writing is a lot of work and it only seems meaningful if you know you're on to something. If you spend years on a book only for it to make nothing, it'll make you feel even worse.>collecting somethingYeah, this can be kind of fun for me personally. I like collecting knowledge, cards, digital media, and money.>building a businesssame issue as the book. Most have no good ideas or ways to execute it without losing all their money and years of time. Unless there's a unique opportunity it'll leave most in a worse spot. Survivorship bias.
>>6190378>I'm stuck in a dead end job that's stealing my happiness awayThat's such bs. There's plenty of jobs, you simply value the stability of the shit job over the risk of bringing change into your life. The status quo is safe and predictable.
>>6188706This is amazing, but the use of Nazi iconography will prevent it from gaining any traction in the mass media. Wasted effort.
>>6190992>There's plenty of jobs, you simply value the stability of the shit jobyeah, dad owns money to very bad people and I'm helping him pay his debt. It sucks but what the hell am I supposed to do.?it is what it is.
>>6188706this chud's pretty fit
>>6191061Not help him pay the debt. Mistakes of parents should not be a burden on their kids. This creates vicious circles and transgenerational trauma.You're supposed to give your kids a better life, not fix yours.
>>6189300This was one of the first Gondola webms I saw. I saw it in a feels thread and it filled me with a beautiful sadness.Good times.
>>6191097>transgenerational traumaI agree with the rest of your post but can you not be a faggot about it?
>>6190575Shit, its literally me. Sometimes I spend minutes in rooms fully dark to hope to feel something. Any supernatural horror is better than the mundane void and hopelessness.
>>6188473It's insane that I'm now nostalgic for the first time I saw this webm, maybe 7ish+ years ago. Yep suicide is just on the horizon.
>>6188486wish i had a bro to hug me like this
>>6188706
>>6188719hope he gets drafted and sent to the drone fields
>>6189330Rooting for you anon
>>6189300He looked out at the city where men stole the stars from the sky and brought them into their homes. They colored them with pyrite and muddled the pure white into something lesser. Something to barely light their kitchens and bedrooms as they stared out their windows into the empty sky, wondering where all the lights used to be
>>6188473this is like reflecting back on taking hard drugs or anything else alike. these games were just an extension of childhood way past when i should have locked in and started figuring out adult life.nothing but a waste of time. i only feel sad that i missed out on something more. although, any escapism was basically essential if you had a shitty home life.nostalgic sure, but comforting in the sense that your feet are being warmed from a fire that is about to engulf your room with you in it.
>>6188719hope a missile flies into that
>>6191930> locked in and started figuring out adult lifecould easily do both
>>6189165All cancers are, by definition, malignant, anon. You just have a tumor.
>brother's cat that the whole family cared for died this morning, received a call as we were making food for a family dinner. he wasn't even old, we don't know what killed him>had to bury it with the help of my grand father, my mother has been crying all day, my brother got the news at the beginning of his shift so he couldn't even come>he was the dumbest but most loving cat I've known, even I ended up opening up to himfuck does it hurts, I hate the passing of time
>The intense feeling of anxiety and despair upon realising my life is going to continue like this indefinitely and not end any time soonHow do I deal with this? I wish I had the guts to sui but I don't see myself doing it shortly. This fear is indescribable, it feels like life itself is prison.
>>6189304Source?
>>6191154sauce on the song?
>>6188472>>6188473>>6188479>>6190485Anyone know how is this effect done?
>>6189330There must be a way to stop being melancholicI feel like in this modern age you have to spend 10k hours researching and implementing the one simple trick that will finally fix you, but after that life is worth living
>>6192045yes. but it properly not me
Friendly older guy who's my neighbor was a paramedic once and he told me about the worst day of his career.Some poor dude around his mid 20's got stabbed multiple times by a shithead robbing him. People hear the shouts and call 911 once they see him. My current neighbor is the one who is in the back of the ambulance with him. Victim pleads not to die while being sped to the hospital, stating that he's going to be a dad soon and he doesn't want his son to never know him. Dude is definitely feeling the darkness creep in and begs for the paramedic to tell him it'll be ok and to: "At least let me die with hope"
>>6192045adobe premiere markers
>>6192042Turn A Gundam OST - UKAOne of Yoko Kanno's finest soundtracks. From her golden era.
>>6192191thanks a lot
>>6188472Not good anon, not good
>>6192051Get off the socials. and enjoy the things you like, while still working towards a goal. Like me, id almost worked and saved my way to getting me a nice little home with a garage(2 years but dedicated Minimum BS). And form there id keep working!
>>6191825Nice, makes you think
>>6192051In our modern society there is no more room for "different" people. In the past, people were used for their strengths. An autist was refining tools while the hunters sat around the fire. An ADHD kid was keeping an eye on the surroundings at dusk, noticing every little sound. "That weird one" in my grandpa's factory, was just wiping the floor all day with a broom and that was fine.The dumb kid was cleaning the animal pens, the loner was hunting in the woods.Now everyone needs to fit a fixed image. There is set rules and norms that everyone should strive for. There are set dreams, goals and ambitions that you're supposed to work for. And especially work hard because that's the holy grail that forms your identity and the respect people have for you.It's all individualism, competition and jealousy. When you are unable to fit into the system built by the norm you end up with depression, a melancholic view, never ending psychology visits, 25 diagnoses of made up illnesses and pills, ...Not because you're sick or broken but because you need to try to keep up no matter the cost (until it appears you will net negative, then you get tossed out).Out of experience (but everyone needs to hit the wall) I can only say. Fuck it, fuck it all. Fuck their expectations and fuck your own expectations taught by them. Leave the city, leave the suburbs, go to where life is more simple and slow. Life will be tougher yes, but so much better, so much more valuable and rewarding.
>>6192504I am convinced that a majority of people who are in a thread like this and probably on this imageboard in general, are troubles souls.Neurodivergents, traumatized souls, people that have experienced too much pain in their life, ..There is something off about y'all, that makes you escape to place like this, where you find likeminded people even though you don't always realize it. Why on earth would a "normal" person ever be here? Who else voluntarily would browse a shithole like this on an outdated platform filled with content that a "normal" person would try to shut down if they knew it was there.There's probably some sociopaths here, but we're mostly lost souls.
>>6192524man that's awesome, wish I had friend.
>>6189848Whatever happened to /wsg/ bump threads? I haven't seen one in a long ass time
>>6189288July 9th 2026
>>6191674this is great. thankyou. anyone know the song name? or even this genre of music?
>>6192787found it Judas Effect vestron Vulture
>>6191001Kill yourself concern trolling kike.
>>6192045desu looks like "this X doesn't exist" ai hallucination series trend where you are gradually morphing through some parameter, it was a fun novelty years ago.It doesn't remind any of classical video editing techniques.
>>6190063yes
>>6188473I think we were all more optimistic about the future back then. Cool games and other electronics were fairly cheap and innovation abounded. Now we have this weird uncertainty about AI and what its implications are. Or maybe it's just me.
>>6188486they're actually fighting, right
>>6188473Anyone else day dream about the past 24/7?
>>6189812faggot wasted so much water
>>6192939what are you, a third worlder? most people waste 1000x more water from a simple shower
>>6189165I hope you keep doing well anon. I am in the opposite boat right now. Just waiting for my cancer to spread. Most people with it die within a year and a half. But at least I got to to be with my family for that much longer. Though I just feel like I am sitting around waiting to die.
>be 32 living with parents still>$65,000 in savings>been laid off for 9 months now>wagecucked from late 2019 til late 2025 >various factories>slept 5 hours a night>dick stopped working>visualization / spatial ability fucked>IQ lowered>miserable>probably permanently damaged my brain>get girlfriend with 500 health/mental issues who wants to get married>can't stand the idea of supporting her while wagecucking>she leaves me>get laid off>get girlfriend a week later>decide to go back to college to study math>she dumped me after 3 months because she wanted a fellow wagie/rentoid>would've moved in with her since I had savings and could've gotten a job once I was settle into school>she dumps me>still miss her because she was a nice homely sweet quiet peasant-wife type of girl>but also bitter toward her ditching me at a low point, and that I could have given her what she wanted if she'd just been patient>get asian girlfriend>she's sweet but never really asks for commitment>feel empty inside>don't know what to do with life>trying to learn car detailing in case I can somehow make good money from it>slowly jerking off through CLEP exams to finish my last few credits for an associates degree that won't get me a job>making some money off youtube but it doesn't matter>don't know what to doI know it's gay to whine about my life while some anons in here are wizards or dying of cancer but it just is depressing for some reason. I was a virgin til 29 and getting pussy definitely changed my life but now I feel like it just vaccuumed up my soul and turned me into a pussy chaser. I don't feel like I have a soul anymore. I miss being sad, and really feeling the depth of it. I have become so shallow it's unreal. I have become numb to reality.
>>6192512eh I would say that part exists within everyone (except the truly insane extroverts)
>>6193227>I have become so shallow it's unreal. I have become numb to reality.Once you see or become aware of certain things, its always going to make the normalfag lifestyle feel like you're stuck in limbo. It doesn't help that the normalfag lifestyle of today is so grim compared to before.
>>6193227>HELP THESE MULTIPLE GIRLFRIENDS AND 65K IN THE BANK IS SUCH A BURDEN. MY YOUTUBE CHANNEL IS IN DECLINE WAAAAHHHHHjesus fucking christ, at least you show some level of self awareness. I hate to be the 'just exercise bro' but you sound like such an NPC it would probably work
>>6193415I do exercise, did a 58 mile bike ride not long ago, I do pullups and chinups to keep some amount of tone.I could do more, definitely.I don't like to post here because I agree that I've turned into the exact faggot I used to complain about in feels threads but I got my success too late to be able to enjoy it.Losing your virginity past 25 just doesn't work. It's still good to do, but god, imagining what it'd have felt like just to have a woman's body, literally any woman's body, in my bed and fucking her when I was 21 or 22. It's depressing to know that life just literally gets worse as you get older and you cannot enjoy things as much anymore. Wagecucking destroys your soul. Your mind numbs yourself as a defensive reaction, like endorphins to dull pain. Being a part-time wagie is okay, but once you become a fulltime wagie and sleep less and spend all day in a fluorescent hellscape it just kills you. Literally all I have to live for at this point is sex and money. And I don't have that much of either one. I miss being a depressed 19 year old in so many ways. At least I felt something.
>>6192111That's sad.
>>6188719you weren't happy, you were distracted by fake, virtual worlds.you never lived a real life
>>6192504what are you yapping about there's more job variety than ever and you can make a fat living with any passion you have
>>6193536There might be more variety but there is no more fulfillment.
>>6192787I looked into it and I think the genre is dethwave
>>6192521>>6192522>>6192523hurts real good
>>6192033Rip köt :(
Bros, there was a video I saw on here years ago from a Japanese boxer or kickboxer, who wins a fight and then the whole way back to his locker room he is shouting arigato to his dead pet cat, who he's dedicating his win to.Super fucking feels, I saw it once years ago and never again since, googling turns up nothing, AI turns up nothing. Fucking kino, I hope to see it again.
>>6193917Okay nvm, my homie ChatGPT came through for me, it was thishttps://youtu.be/pUMj6pqUQ6c?is=jZSiAhS8SIYiH2ok
>>6189848>>6192389>>6192717I miss them very much, why is no one making them
>>6188472anyone got that splitscreen video of a guy on the left staring onto his kitchen counter talking about how he wasted his life pursuing a degree and a job, and the girl on the right is going on vacations
>>6192512Lost souls. I dont feel lost. If anything i have everything I want, wife/kids/cats/high pay job/physically fit. All but friends. Everyone i try to make friends with fade away from me like sand in my hands. I keep trying though
>>6192512Whats this... song? Resonates with me.
>>6193303Im an extrovert. Are they rare or something?
>>6189292This makes me mad. Some retard simp saves the fucking foid but nobody bats an eye for the men.
>>6194676It just only shows how the world cares only for women and does not care for men. I hope they fined peace.
This one always gets me
>>6194395burial - forgive
>>6194348>>6192717Metadata getting killed is part of it, iirc pedos were hiding files in the meta, and now when you hoover over title you can't see the songs anymore in those [wsg] bumps.
>>6193498NTA , but I kinda feel you. I'm not in the same position as you as I'm a wizard and I'll be 40 next year. the wizard part or the age itself I don't really feel bad about, I just kinda feel I just let it flow to much without direction. And since I'm on my own the decision on what do do or what I'm responsible for is never one taken out of my hands.My life isn't bad or anything, I have a very small social circle but I don't need much, I'm on very good terms with my family, have various hobbies etc. but working has slowly but surely drained the life out of me. In the last years I did a lot of overtime and did little vacations which did not help with that. I worked myself into a very good position, I do make very good money and a fair amount of freedom in how I do it. (I work in IT) The work is fairly interesting and not monotonous. Still, it is just a job I do it to get money nothing more. I have a hard time to motivate myself every day and it just gets harder. And every day I'm daydream of quitting it all and doing something completely different, but not what exactly (except from half cooked ideas about writing or just getting fired and that decision taken out of my hands)The days flow by and more and more I let small and originally inconsequential issues become bigger issues, just because I don't care enough to get it done quickly and efficiently. I also noticed that I dip more and more into the warming embrace of nostalgia.I follow and enjoy my hobbies, but it is somewhat dampened, too often I just sit here and let the time pass while scrolling or doing inane stuff and then off to bed and then after 5 hours of sleep off to work again.I feel I need to drastically change something, my outlook, or situation, but I don't' know how and what exactly.not that this is anything special, and compared to the shit most others here have to deal with this is just really petty whining, but it's my problem and for me it matters.
To the anons in this thread, what can I do?I am 30, going on 31, and in the past six months I have experienced a series of terrible realisations, culminating in terrible awakening to how I have squandered my existence. It is like a dam bursting: I subconsciously knew it was there, but only now can I witness the scale of the wasted time and amassed regret.I have missed so many opportunities and milestones through passivity and inaction, escaping into false worlds of distraction and comfort. Even in the smallest aspects of my life, I find only disappointment. It horrifies me to realise how long I have been dreaming.Yet I still persist in doing nothing. I write down ideas for projects, creations, and experiences, but there they remain. Even the prospect of ending my life may very well just be another excuse not to attempt anything.I appreciate how pathetic this is, but it is sincere. I must ask: is there anything that I can do? Is there any process, path, or approach for people like me? Can I even begin to rectifying this, or is withering away simply the natural outcome?Thank you for reading my blog post.
>>6191930i feel the same, i'm almost 30 and reflecting on all my "memories" of playing video games growing up all i see is time i could have spend at least socializing irl instead of being locked in my room alone talking with internet strangers. it was all just a waste of time.
>>6194879Do you feel your brain rotting from 5 hours a night sleep?
>>6193530this. the bread and circus started to fail>>6188719your real life starts now
>>6188483Bro 10 years at this point...
>>6189303F
>>6191061What do foids even have to feel?>wawaaa Chad went for the other pussy waaaa
>>6190992>plenty of jobsNot that anon, and I'm gainfully employed, but that's actually a big fucking lie. Turnovers and ghost postings are at all time highs. Turns out importing the entire world carte blanche for decades has negative consequences for the labor pool
>>6188472>How are you holding up?Been through 10 different antidepressants the last 16 months and dont feel different on any of them. Burnt out from work and life feels hopeless. Hopefully after the vacation I will rope.So Im not holding up great I guess.
>>6188486they're fighting
>>6195317So you are miserable and burnt out from the life you were living. You don't need pills, you need to get out of the life that makes you sick.Option 1 is doing what THEY want. Stuff antidepressants, take a walk, see a cognitive behavioral therapist so you can learn to think "right", and rest a bit till you're just good enough to go grinding again. Then you can continue feeling miserably, probably collapse a few times more over the years, maybe pick up an addition or 2, whatever keeps you going.Option 2 Take a step back.See a client-centered therapist if there's one around. Learn who you are again, in the core, what you liked doing before adult life got a hold of you. What makes you calm, what makes you content? Connect with nature, animals, family. Find peace.Fuck the money, fuck the gadgets, you just need a roof and food on the table. Try to get disability income, sell some shit, whatever can keep you home for a while. Once you have your foundations right, you can look to build something again (or just stay where you are).Try option 2 before you rope yourself. I've been where you are and 2 is the pleasant choice.
>>6193601do you really think a 16th century hunter was feeling fullfilment bro. he just woke up everyday and thought "welp, gotta feed the kids (all 16 of them). fullfilment is a contemporary day fraud. only fullfilment that you should be looking for is filling your pockets, and the you can dedicate yourself to your family or whatever. this is my first time browsing 4chan since 2021 and you people are still longing for a past that never existed. human life, on a deep level, was and always will be the same,
>>6194922Yeah, stop trying to live a life of others. Stop trying to live by expectations set by your society and parents en circle. You didn't miss opportunities, you simply had other priorities. You write down ideas of what could give you recognition of others, not what you truly want.See >>6195393
>>6195403The hunter-gatherer had double the free-time we have today. They spent 3-4 hours a day on food and the rest on leisure.Everything went to shit when we started becoming farmers.I advise you to work so hard that you literally collapse, that's the easiest way to learn that what just left your mouth is a heap of cope.I've lived both lives, the ambitious, work hard and make a lot of money life, that was never enough.And the, fuck everything, I'm going poor mode and live of the land.You can already guess which one brought happiness and fulfillment and it's not money.Over and over and over again, the cliché of "the one with the least being the most happy" is confirmed. Over and over and over again the wisdom is shared with us.Yet, just like children we need to make the same mistakes and hit a wall before we learn.
>>6194076i'm always a little jealous of this guy. wish i could've said that out loud to at least one of them and then sped away on a moped so she didn't have a chance to lie some more. block her on my phone when i get home and take off my dumb helmet, deleting the 13 texts, 4 missed calls and 2 voicemails, only answering the mutual friend who she asked to check to make sure i didn't drive off a bridge. leave her with that eternal moment, the part of the shit sandwich of courtship that she has to eat. enjoy it.but all i ever did was take it on the chin
>>6191001Bait?For anything to be truly great, it must sport the counter-culture. Vice versa - anything that gains mass media traction isn't that great.
