What type of meditation is good for me if i have some form of ocd?. Basically if i get too quiet or if i do something i like i get a bad thought which makes me abstain from proceding with whatever activity im doing so i only can do whatever is safe in my head. Im aware of all times of my own existence and trying to do anything that i like specially if l like it, it comes out and ruins it for me.The meditations that come to mind are metta because i suspect unmaturity but i cant do that because of the disturbing feelings so i guess forgiveness meditation would be but its more of a compulsive and anxious thing so anapasati would be right.
>>42425678Best way to overcome ocd is to accept it anon. I'm a homosexual and I have thoughts of old men fucking me and it's disturbing how my mind constantly focus on bulges of 50+ yr olds constantly. I don't do this with men near my age or older. And I think constant reaction of disgust and hatred of these thoughts are what fuel it. I only overcame it when I stopped caring about Shame, disgust or anger I had to them now they're a thing of past. My ocd also makes me question my own memory like what did I have lunch 4 days ago , what did I do last night and constantly self checking so in end I've accepted I don't have good memory where such thoughts don't matter to me. If anything constant anxiety made my memory worse so if u do have ocd I'd recommend you to accept them and don't let them elicit more reactions from you.
>>42425706it's ok to be gay but man, its just like, it seems like that was a tangent you had to go on somewhere.
>>42425720Tried to seem more real since that's what ocd does it literally becomes focus of your attention
>>42425678I'd say don't even worry about meditation. Go on Youtube and listen to videos by various speakers like>Alan Watts >Krishnamurti >Sadhguru>Rupert Spira>Ram Dass>Oshoetc you'll find others Consider:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EVerqpMjYYg
>>42425706>I'm a homosexual and I have thoughts of old men fucking me and it's disturbing how my mind constantly focus on bulges of 50+ yr olds constantly. I don't do this with men near my age or older
>>42425678Try yantra meditations. Focus on the symmetries and follow the lines and let all else fall away.
>>42427495Sorry but this won't help at all
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>>42425678Vipassana meditation
just regular focus on breath meditation helped me greatly with dismissing obsessive thoughts
>>42425678My mind gets raped by by God and his retarded tranny minions every second of every day and they harass, terrorize, abuse, threaten etc me for anything I think in real time, they do everything they can to putrefy the idea of literally anything and everything and impose their retarded tranny delusions upon me, then when I'm forced to think about their constant abuse, harassment, threats, terrorism upon doing or thinking something they treat being forced to think about their delusions and abuse as an affirmation of their delusions because they're retarded delusional trannies then they double down on the harassment, terror, abuse, threats, it never ends it's happening all day every day, there is no "meditation" that can solve the problem of having my mind raped and being gangstalked by trannies and being constantly terrorized, harassed, threatened, abused for literally anything I do or think
