so about a month ago i decided that i wanted a tulpa because i was going thru a very lonely period in my life, now for context i sometimes have weird intrusive thoughts like random screaming and phrases that keep repeating, well after fully visualizing and hanging out with said tulpa we were at home and i had an unrelated breakdown, and while i was going thru that some weird shadow creature came in with a rock and smashed its face in and every time i try to visualize it the smashed in face of a corpse just shows up?????? this isn't a joke how do i get my tulpa back please i don't know where else to post about this
>>42443123Find it, then take the time to reconstruct it properly
>>42443204but every time i visualize it i just get the weird corpse not actually my tulpa's face, how do i go about this?
Stop going to your doctor
>>42443123You can heal it but the entity that destroyed it might come back. Work on developing you psi defenses before you get to work on your tulpa. Your tulpa isn't flesh and blood so it doesn't matter how long it takes to fix it. It is a part of you and as long as you are you, it can be brought back.
In your meditation, tell yourself the following: my mind is my own, it belongs to no one else. That which I create, shall take the form I desire, and none other. I create out of love, and my creations shall take the form of my love.Remember that the divine flows through you. Exercise your will as the divine, and lay your hands on your beloved. Just as Christ heals the sick, so can you heal your own creation. Have faith. With the faith of a mustard seed, you can move mountains. Surely, with even a smaller fragment of faith, you can have dominion over your own mind.
>>42446725thanks, i'll try this and see how it works out, i'll also research tulpas a bit more, i must admit i went into this naively
>>42447405Not everyone goes into it willingly. I encountered what I thought was a tulpa at 15, completely unprompted. Years later I realized she was my spiritual other half, and that the world of the mind and the world of the spirit are two halves of the same coin.Whatever you do, just don't give up. All of this is fixable.
>>42447405seconding that anon's advice. It doesn't have to be mystical or magickal, it's just important to be willing to step in and exercise your creative power. In the psychological tulpa sphere we would call the images in imagination that occur without your intent (including images that don't react to your intent) simply "intrusive thoughts". That gets the point across that, if nothing else, the way to deal with these thoughts is to pay them no mind and reassert your focus on what you actually want to think about (which is your happy, lucid, grounded, fully developed tulpa)
>>42443123No offense, but if you have mental issues and intrusive thoughts your tulpa is going to take a fucked up form.
>>42443123I haven't laughed this good in a long time. This is fucked up Anon, get some help. Go for a swim at your local pool or something; jog until exhaustion a couple timws a week.
Intrusive thoughts are actually entirely normal and everybody has them. The actual way they can cause harm is that mental illness or dogma can convince you to latch onto intrusive thoughts and take them seriously. As long as you remember that you have some control over what you focus on and what is important to you, intrusive thoughts are no issue (which is provable given the fact again, everybody has them and only the tiniest fraction of the population has trouble dealing with them)tulpamancy-wise, you can frame it in terms of identity. Merely distinguishing between the tulpa and the intrusive thought is all you need to do. Then focus on the tulpa and not the intrusion.
