I feel like ever since I was a kid, people hated me more than normal. I try to be nice, but I still attract hostility. This happens even over the internet
>>42502412nah you’re just autistic, the normies really hate autistic people
>>42502418This could be it.Autistic means retarded.J think I may be retarded as well! lol
>>42502412this post utterly I N F U R I A T E S me. GRRR
It could be any number of reasons. In my case it's because I'm spiritually non-human and that drives them nuts. Humans have a sixth sense for knowing if someone's not really one of them. They've always hated my fucking guts on first sight. Looking normal and not doing/saying unusual makes no difference.
>>42502436So, um, what are you?
>>42502460let's put it this way: if you saw me, you'd wanna do me
>>42502436I wish for you to know peace and serenity. There ain't no fucking way you're saying/doing nothing unusual. The normals see abnormal behaviors that make sense internally to yourself, and their responses don't make that same sense to you. Parahumans can live and thrive in society. You are obnoxious.
>>42502502yeah no you're a social reject and a faggot. You deserve to be bullied and hated
>>42502540Nope. It's always been as simple as just showing up anywhere and getting singled out BEFORE I could say or do anything, right off the bat. I'm also not the only one who has reported this kind of reaction. Humans have a sixth sense for knowing who's not really one of them. instinct is a powerful thing
>>42502412 >>42502650i always felt like this and then i got diagnosed with autismit always feels like theres at least *someone* out to get me.....
>>42502436>>42502502Are you saying you get treated badly because your are attractive? why are you saying it like that.
>>42502684wut? what I said is simplehumans can tell from your "vibes" or whatever if you're one of them or notthis is really basic stuff, those idiots even talk about itthey don't know how or why but they can always tell
>>42502502Yeah, doubt it anon.
>>42502750okay well I was referring to my spirit form, not my physical onein OBEs and visions I've seen what I really look likeI know that just sounds like a joke to people but it's still the truth
>>42502502sctrach you and bite you. and i'm not a furry. mny soul is literally acat and would unronically bite you because your a dog a dumb stupid gae dog in fact yes. i assume all my enemies are dogs. i wouldnt even be surprised at all.
>>42502982the creature who types this was once human
>>42502412Stop caring what people think or feel about you. Stop trying to be "nice". Be a mirror unto other people.
>>42502412Lotta possible answers here obviously but one thing to consider is that you might just be highly annoying. I was pretty tolerant in high school and a chill guy so even though I could hand out with “the cool guys” outside of class, teachers always sat me next to the giga-autists because I could help keep them calm. It actually sucked ass because I always wanted to sit with my friends in class and group up with them for projects but the teachers always paired me up with the autists because they wanted help wrangling. But the normal and fun kids didn’t want to be around when I had the autist attached to me and that really sucked. I never did figure out how to bridge that gap, though I did try.The point is that I noticed one particular thing about many of them:>they’re fucking annoyingThey’re not bad people. There’s nothing “wrong” with them. Their interests are normal and you wouldn’t really bat an eye if they belonged to somebody else. But they’re so fucking ANNOYING. They cannot leave anything alone. They’ll press you way beyond social norms to answer questions and force conversations that you obviously do not want. They are absolutely oblivious to who you are and what you might want to talk about. They’ll go on about the intricacies of their own interests ad fucking nauseum and assume that you politely nodding along to get to a better part of the conversation means that you really like hearing it and want more. If you try to talk or address your own interests at all, they will quite literally cut you off in the middle of a sentence to wrap it back around to their thing. It’s not a conversation. It’s them talking at you while they look at you extremely intensely, trying to gauge your reaction to every little thing. And they do NOT realize this is the source of their social problems. They think it’s their interests or who they are but really they’re just solipsistic and don’t care about other people.
>>42503044I'm pretty autistic myself and would never speak to anyone unprompted. I still do this today. I only proactively speak to my mother or online via text. However i had somewhat similar experiences as you in that i got along with both the cool guys and autists. Initially i leaned more towards the autists because the cool guys were too transgressive and dumb. Later it was the reverse because the autists were too obedient and gay. But ultimately i never sought out either side. However i did notice one of the autists was particularly obnoxious and unlikable. He did try to be nice but he was also kind of like a black kween in the body of a basedjak. Idk how to describe it. Not sure i noticed the same annoying behaviour or them being solipsistic as you mentioned. I just viscerally dislike them. But it depends on the specific individuals.
>>42503237Interesting that you had a similar experience. I haven’t met many people who have. By the end of high school (and to this day) I would have sworn it was in my little student chart: “this guy will help you maintain class peace with the obnoxious ones”. And that was true. But my home life was shitty so I was just doing that because school was my only zen time at that point in my life. So it was kind of a double whammy the staff didn’t care enough about me to see. So sorry for the rant. It’s a sore spot.>I'm pretty autistic myself and would never speak to anyone unprompted. I still do this today. I only proactively speak to my mother or online via text.Wow if people are reacting to you so strongly but this is the case, maybe there really is something /x/ to it. My first reaction was to politely ask you if you might be physically unattractive to an unusual degree, but honestly ugly people know they’re ugly and also know that it’s why they get certain reactions. Sounds like it’s not that for you.Maybe a facial expression thing? People read those really specifically and if you’re throwing the wrong signal by accident, they might be interpreting something strongly when that’s not your intention.Honestly the best way to solve this would be for one of us to video chat with you for a minute and figure it out. Unfortunately this is a terrible venue for that kek
if you are neurodivergent/divine spark/autistic neurotypicals will be nonsensically hostile to you because you aren't part of the npc matrix. It's pointless to mask and look for their approval. They're soulless cattle.
Yeah OP I'm not trolling even reading your post made me feel angry, I recommend smiling to yourself when you're alone intermittently throughout the day until your aura changes.
>>42503281to clarify, i am not OP. your post just reminded me of my own experience switching sides from autists to cool kids and not being hated by the cool kids, and then still being lumped in with the autists during group projects. but i was never a mediator or peace keeper. my home life was more zen and i intentionally gave everything else the cold shoulder, including school. the fact that i never speak unprompted is my own autistic behaviour because i am misanthropic. probably childhood trauma being told not to speak during class in first grade which i internalized in a weird way. people do try to interact with me like a normal human. i am the one who refuses. i am not extraordinarily ugly. i do have an extremely quiet voice which is annoying. probably as a result of not using those vocal cord muscles. and i did have people mention that my face looked very serious/stern/angry when i was just looking normally. funny to think that i might be blissfully unaware of my seething misanthropic rage against humans continually spilling out via my average facial expression. lol. also i will 100% not video chat but maybe OP could post a vocaroo of him yapping. would be interesting to overanalyze why he is cursed
>>42502412Do they hate you because you’re better than them?That’s my issue, people are immediately threatened by me because I’m so awesome and cool and perfect that they hate themselves when they see me.
>>42503352It’s funny how life works out. When I went to college I thought>im a new person without that reputation now and I’m gonna live for me and hang out with cool people and just not give myself up to helping others who make themselves unhelpableI got a degree in chemistry. First chemistry class, first fucking class period, I sit down and am starting and this African dude comes in and asks in a strange accent if he can sit next to me. So I’m like yeah dude it’s all good but in my head I’m thinking>fuck here we go again. I’m going to get stuck all fuckin’ semester teaching him English if this goes onAnd it did. HOWEVER. It turned out the guy was from the Ivory Coast and had basically finished a degree in biochemistry that would have been accredited by western countries but civil war broke out and he had citizenship in France to flee. He and his family ended up here. He was almost done with that degree but got rekt because the courses weren’t accredited here so he had to start from square one.But he was smart and helpful as fuck. I helped him with English in the lab reports and he was always watching my numbers 8 decimals deep for pure autism. He was a tryhard with me and we had lots of fun all the way through until we mostly split for his biochem stuff. I learned a fair bit of French for him too. A lifelong friend.>ty for reading my blog>you’re the best, Kouakou!
>>42502422The French word for late is tard.. similar to the English word tardy for the reason of the shared common root origin. To be doubly late in French gets the prefix re to indicate the repetition of the lateness..When someone was slow they were said to arrive at understanding and comprehension late.. then also, some people were doubly late.Autism is not simply being intellectually slow.It's an entirely different thing.And tarded spergs with a bit of the tism are an entirely different nother other thing altogether
>>42503352One more thing>i do have an extremely quiet voice which is annoying. probably as a result of not using those vocal cord musclesI always go out of my way to listen to people with quiet voices specifically without asking them to get louder. Sometimes you gotta tell everyone else to shut the fuck up so they can be heard. And it’s usually good shit.It frustrates the hell out of me that people ignore you guys so frequently based on voice volume alone.Wrapping back around to /x/, here’s my natal chart so maybe somebody will jump in and tell me why I’m like this kek
>>42503439hmm very interesting. this is getting eerily similar. i am also always outwardly very welcoming to these sorts of people. there's a girl in my class from egypt who also has a microbiology degree or something. i dont know and dont care about the details but along those lines. and she also wanted to talk to me to learn the language. problem of course is i dont talk lol but we talk when we get the chance i guess. and she is also surprisingly tryhard. we study biochemistry. there are some mismatches tho because she is not autistic and does talk to others. and i met her after switching my field of study, and not on day 1 exactly. but overall similar vibe i am getting from your experiences. the difference is that you seem more outgoing than me and the people you encounter more autistic.>>42503530i am so quiet that people genuinely don't even realize i was talking sometimes which i initially would interpret as them being dismissive, ignorant or rude... but then i started realizing they really didn't even hear me at all. lol.some of your traits may come from chiron, the wounded healer, being in the 11th house (pertaining to social networks) in leo. it gives you the ability to uplift people who don't fit in. it would however imply that you are insecure about being a misfit yourself which may not apply to you. maybe there's more to it in your chart but idk wot.
>>42503530apparently libra rising is also indicative of diplomacy. makes sense why you would act as a peace keeper. taurus sun makes sense for your overall chill nature. and aries mercury would indicate you are communicative
OP, are you sure you're not just ugly?
>>42503619>>42503683Huh, most of that is pretty spot on. I was dubious about astrology but the more I learn about it, the less skeptical I am. There’s definitely something to it.As for insecurity about being weird myself, that was definitely the case initially but I had the benefit of some positive life events that sent me the other direction. I’ve just been more openly weird instead of trying to conceal it.>Always root for the underdog, guys!
>>42503026>the one who typed this was once humandeception is a curel mother anon.i never was. acting is something the joker is. not was. he is.just as every weakness i showed was a trap ato get the enemy where we are now.to broing up simulations in a way they thought they won but lost anyway.they call it pquatium becauise they can't understand that what i see is every single possiable possiablity and i pick the one who opens the cracks and this is real time picking a future then manifesting it with actionsremeber when i told you that actions are words think about this very carefully.they used quatium but when cpompeared to faith they are the same picture. the difference is that faith was acted on. when i a faith isn't acted upon its in unoberved state, but when its acted apon its seen and it edits reality in real time. and its proveable.reglion isn't out side science its just worded diffferne ndifferent words for the same action. you can secularise me. it doesn't work the science won't let you do it. quatium thery intanglement is TAOits means all yin and all yang the totality of femanine and masluine. actions follow results they do not depart it.
>>42503356simply yes.these are players who have never ever lost ever.they are ebign beaten even after rigging all results and being unable to understand that the femaine energy they put out always bows the masuline energy i put outlike lilth they do not accept submission.all i did was follow the logic of gensis.you see in the bible there are fromularshidden in plain view how reality and nature workthe difference here is that i know when and where to apply these logicsthink of it like a puzzle peace.rember that if any enemy shows you a weapoin you can turn it around and pull the trigger.in kung fu itsw knowing the move before its madethen applying the oppsite counter.they don't want to admit i am one with the universion that i am the full tao no matter if they pick a yin or a yang i know its opposite to cxounter ithence when i said. all the exits are sealed no way outn o way to surivei didn't come into a battle prepering to win.I came into the battle knowing my enemy can never win.because in order to lose you need to give enemys leverage.I gave nothing. forced the guess worklike trying to shot down a hypersonic with a pistolit doesn't matter how good your detecting is./ your'll always missyou see the current quatium theroy talks about present but i talk about future predictive quatium machinces something science doesn't acount for.just as for years science of aircraft builting never arounded for stutural balancing pull force, friction or compressioni mearly took advange of lilitied knowlegde.like i said i came from the future. meaning i kbnow all the outcomes already.machines cant do that pehyhically because they calulate from present to the target date not back wards from the target dat to the present the cannot calulaculate reverse quatium in any meaning ful waya rul of war you must knowif a ememy has a weakness exploit iti did and the result was the same. full and complete defeat.
Stop worrying about it. It won't get any better if you are letting your mind fill up with thoughts about it and it's consequences. Once you let those thoughts take root. They tend to manifest around you through various means.Lower the importance this has on you. Break the habit of mental speech re affirming this conclusion. Break the habit of loving to hate this conclusion. Remove this conclusion from your life every day every moment. It will be the hardest thing you ever have to do. Learning to not feel good thinking negatively. And then learning to focus on what u want. It doesn't matter. If you don't learn this now you'll learn in 50 years from now. Just learn it now and save yourself another 10 years of needlessly letting people live in your head. Free this mental energy and start freeying more of it elsewhere. Then spend that newfound mental energy on a better life
it’s a you problem if everyone is pissed off
>>42503845OP here, that's why I made sure to mention "This happens even over the internet"
>>42502412You act retarded while doubting yourself.>I'm so dumb. I'm probably autistic. Everyone hates me.This makes you easy prey to normies. To become normal, you have to act retarded while NOT doubting yourself at all.>I am god. I am the ideal person. That person over there looks retarded lol.
>>42502412No, you're not cursed - that's the way most people are. Don't try to be a people pleaser - a door mat! You think you've made a good impression and when they meet you again, they give you the cold shoulder! They're not even worth the energy it would take to curse them! Find people who like you for yourself and ignore the rest!
>>42502716You are right but a lot of people are not in tune with their instincts. I know what you're saying because I can feel my instincts and know what they're telling me but to a lot of people especially normies, they are just feelings they don't understand. They react ironically enough, instinctually, but they dont know why and they don't have deeper thoughts than that about it. I'm not sure if this is really helpful information to you but i feel like it's important nuance. I felt the urge to inform you. Anyways best wishes
>>42502412People can feel energy even if you don't want them to. If you're hurting or broken inside, people can feel that and will perceive it as something being wrong with you or as you having bad energy or something and will want stay away from it. That's why it's good to just stay off the internet and/or away from people until you feel good and in a good place. Don't force things. Not everyone is a good person. There are people who are simply wired to be evil and you gotta remember that no matter where you go. There's gonna be good people and bad people everywhere, in all shapes and sizes and colors, male and female, young and old.
Yes, join the Jehovah's Witnesses.
>>42502412They may not hate you. Maybe your expectations are too high. If you have nothing to offer them they have no use for you but that doesn't mean they're angry at you. They're angry at the low value.
Yeah I get it a lot, often I'm massively outnumbered as well. Lately rich people have just been flexing they have money and power in front of me just to show off. IT's just anger, jealousy and ego. Just ignore them.
>>42503987i did specifically bias my analysis to confirm what you have revealed about yourself and ignored everything else. i doubt i could use it to make predictions. personally i view it more as a fun way to explore your personality. you can use it to reveal hidden character traits by making sense of placements which seem incorrect. but it leaves the ultimate decision up to you if it makes any sense or not. you can also look at the uranian system and asteroids and so on (if you find your default chart dumb). tying it into your birth date gives it a personalized uniqueness and a venier of cosmic importance. i think the chart itself is not as important as the conversation surrounding it and the thought you put into analyzing it.
