>>42527982
You're worried that if you indulge the longing then you won't be able to sublimate. However, you would find that the more sex you have, the more you will want to have it. It is very difficult to return to celibacy.

Personally I don't think that sublimation makes for good art in the first place. I hate Bouguereau, but I love Dante, who understood how desire and fulfillment can coincide. Virginity is its own reward, and with great effort and grace, it can be recovered once lost. A life devoted to the flesh is an unhappy one.

Why do you have this fear? How is that different from jacking off? Seems your brain is creating this fear as an excuse.

>>42527982
Granted I started playing guitar right around 13 and started writing music shortly after so it could be attributed to gaining more experience as well as maturing, but my writing became significantly better after losing my virginity.

Not tryin to be a dick, but to me if the quality of your art is tied to your virginity status alone you probably aren't as creative as you'd like to think you are. At the same time, by no means am I suggesting you make a habit of crackin foids. Try to build an actual relationship with someone who's good for you mentally, emotionally and spiritually. Not only will that be beneficial to your overall being, but the chance of descending into a lifestyle ruled by satisfying your flesh will be reduced, and your art will be much better having tasted and realized actual love as opposed to losing it in a one night stand or prostitute or something.

But hey, I'm just a single dad chud sittin on his toilet smokin a cig so what do I know

>>42528033
Not OP, but I have this fear too but in my case it's probably that I fear being forever alone and so I use that as a way to cope.
>early-20's

>>42528014
>Virginity is its own reward, and with great effort and grace, it can be recovered once lost. A life devoted to the flesh is an unhappy one.
Okay but the touch starvation, and total lack of any sort of validation is starting to eat at me and disrupt my creativity.
>>42528033
>Why do you have this fear?
Like I said, mainly a gut feeling. But if I had to articulate I would say that its because I fear I would find social approval via sex more important than the power and sanctity of art. Not just that if I had sex, it would become more important to me than art, but that having sex would compromise my artistic vision so I can get more bitches on my dick. I am a very eccentric and hoe scaring individual and that seeps into my art and makes it unique, that's how I feel at least.
>How is that different from jacking off?
More mentally and physically/endoctrinally intense, also the social games that come with acquiring pussy.
>>42528052
>but my writing became significantly better after losing my virginity
How?
>Try to build an actual relationship with someone who's good for you mentally, emotionally and spiritually.
Not going to happen. In fact if I did, it would probably be even more compromising than becoming a pussyhound hylic.

>>42528079
I think the mind does this with many more things than we realize. It’s important to be aware of it so that we can eventually overcome it. In this case, if finding someone is a struggle this idea is only going to make it more difficult in the long run rather than facing the truth

>>42528129
>Like I said, mainly a gut feeling. But if I had to articulate I would say that its because I fear I would find social approval via sex more important than the power and sanctity of art. Not just that if I had sex, it would become more important to me than art, but that having sex would compromise my artistic vision so I can get more bitches on my dick. I am a very eccentric and hoe scaring individual and that seeps into my art and makes it unique, that's how I feel at least.

This makes more sense. Women can easily compromise things that men do. Ideally just don’t go out of your way involve them in it and don’t draw it to their attention, but I don’t know your full situation.

>>42527982
>Will sex ruin my art
>Can I just have sex and then return to celibacy? Or will I turn into a soulless hylic?
OP are you aware of muse spirits? They are spirits that give us the inspiration for our art. I have never had one around me longer than a few days. I could imagine they could leave if they don't like something or if the person sort of goes against the creative process. But that doesn't necessarily mean your muse will leave if you have sex or kiss a girl. Furthermore these muse spirits don't always stay around, it's why you have musicians with lackluster 2nd albums or similar things.

All in all I would say following your gut is what you should do. You are asking a great question and for this one your instincts are the closest thing you will get to talking with your muse.

Good luck. And if you could please tell me if the concept of muse spirits as described freaks you out. I have been reluctant to talk to artists about muses as it may freak them out or cause issues with their creative process.

>>42527982
God could make a car hit you and take away your artistic abilities tomorrow. Don’t worry about it.

>>42527982
Yes it will.
Sex is the first step of many to trap new souls in this Earth.
It's endgame has historically tore one part of the couple apart and condemned new life into hopeless places of poverty.
Do any of you really think a process that rewards you with opioid-like effects to essentially make innocent people suffer in poverty for decades on end is in anyway not intrinsically evil?
Think about the karmic implications of your actions.

>>42527982
woah is that really james

>>42527982
From personal experience, I would say no. Maybe a little bit if your art is derived from feelings of personal rejection