Earth exists as a container for everything I am not. It is me turned inside out, projected outward. Which is why I feel so hollow and like I am behind a thick pane of glass. Anything I pull out out the inverted mirror world and start working on, suddenly no one else is doing anything with it. When I'm done building it up and release it back into the world, suddenly everyone can work on it again. When I become interested in something suddenly everyone else is too. No matter how obscure. For example learning Russian, Russian speakers will naturally appear. Why try to learn Russian? Because I was studying bioelectromagnetics in the USSR and needed to translate their papers. that puts an end to the "group aggregated stimuli" where things are happening in the local environment and a subset responds in the same way you do. No.
>>42533002You first saw it one way, now this way, right?
>>42533040I don't even remember. My fixation on this topic is because my time here has slowly drained me. I feel like there's something else here with me that wants to trick me into giving it everything and whittling me down into amnesia. Then it'll dump me (back?) into its version of Earth.I always sort of saw it this way, I was just split in two. There were two separate worlds and I amde no attempt to merge or bridge them. The act of doing so trashed everything, but itself was a response to things getting out of hand.What do you mean specifically?
You're an anomaly. Most people aren't at your level.
>>42533058I'm in OP's situation.I'm convinced we're divine souls that incarnated to experience inversion.What an abomination.
>>42533002God is a retarded tranny faggot nigger who imposes his disgusting retarded tranny faggot niggerism upon me this world is not me whatsoever its God projecting his disgusting self upon me his disgusting self that is nothing like me whatsoever his disgusting self which is retarded and evil and gay and stupid and generally inferior to me in every way because he;s a retarded disgusting tranny nigger who imposes his retarded disgusting tranny self upon me there is nothing about my forced existence in this world that's my choice and there is nothing about this world that is representative of my character whatsoever.
>>42533055What I was hoping is that you'd also remember a previous, less refined iteration of your current perspective. Those are very good reference points for "introspection", self-reflection.Time and space to the best of my knowledge sorta... emit continuously. I don't intend to opine on specific locations, but there are qualities to it.Your comment first suggests to me that you're dispersing yours too thinly. That would be "draining".Silvia Plath's, "The Bell Jar" described a kind of feeling of solipsism likened to living in a bell jar. (It's a fictional novel.) I don't know if that'll help you much in terms of practical ideas, but it's a firm corroboration that you're not experiencing something particularly unique or undocumented.I'm aware of some ideas of reincarnation, they're not really my specialty. But there are ways to live beyond being subject to any one natural system, including beyond reincarnation systems (again, rather not get into why there's multiple ones). They're natural systems.Say a farm has a compost bin, and for the plants its part of a "cycle of transmigration" beyond. To a perma-forest, this cycle is one organ out of many, and doesn't need support from the artifice of a plastic bin.Buddhist doctrines tend to postulate that one is under the influence of one such system, which they call "The Wheel of Samsara". And that it can very well be overcome.Glass. I think that would be natural formation as a result of having basically, waited to integrate your reality more."Trashing", wall demolitions can look like that.That's quite a lot already.>>42533070If you read OP more conservatively, you'll see that OP is keeping a more refined and even keel than anons do on the Gnostic copypastas that go much like, special story: loosh farm planet.You might learn something from him w.r.t. not jumping to conclusions. Jumping to conclusions compulsively is what "God is a tranny spammer" is an expert at for some reason that's beyond me.
>>42533002https://youtu.be/Jp17LXa1rCo?si=n-A2xKYstzBddn11
>>42533112God' is a bitch for brutally niggraping my mind in the level of the Goosh Goosh meme and thus forcing me into a hellmatrix, as well as forcing me to eat the most vile, gaggable nigg tier niggslop like stews concocted from cockroaches and maggots, semen, and spoiled vegetables. I cannot get even basic foods like plain white bread, white rice, crackers, fresh fruit or even clean water. He also only gives me the ugliest ogre gorilla broads for me as an option to date or wank too, even tho they still reject me for an even uglier hoggoblin tier loser, and also would rather get blue balls then jack to them. The worst thing he does to me though is forcing me to type out very longwinded posts everytime the topic of God is brought up. I hardly have enough time to sleep or eat my niggslop or find broads as most of my time is spent typing up extremely blasphemous and hilarious stereotypically schizophrenic ranting and ramblings. I have typed so much that my fingers have their bones showing.
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>>42533352Hey OP Go fuck yourself literally
