This seems to be the case for me. I wanted to believe in synchronicities and meaning and the hope that one day things would start happening, but I am over 30 and my life has only gotten worse. Not once has any deity, entity, or creature of any kind sought me out or communicated with me. Other people don't care about me either, animals can be pleasant, but I don't think they understand me. I am lonely and I want to speak to God or a God or a spirit of some kind that knows more than me. No one seems to know more than me about existence or life, it's all just guess work beyond technical fact based knowledge, there are like math people who know more about math stuff than me, but I mean wisdom when it comes to stuff that matters when you are depressed and want to die.I am depressed and want to die, but I never actually try to kill myself because I guess my physical body survival instinct is too strong. Why can't a creature speak to me and be my friend? I really don't feel good. I have no friends.
Relate.you wish to speak to God. have you tried?
>>42567494When the lights are out and it's dark and I am all alone I try to talk to anything that will listen, but I never get any response. I don't know if there is a more effective method, I feel like the main God, if there is such a thing, should even be able to read my thoughts and communicate with me clearly where I would have no doubts that he spoke to me.
So no response at all in any way shape or form? Do you talk to yourself?
I have been recently reflecting on the book "Conversations with God". I did not read it. But I know those who did. I was just talking to a friend earlier about the superconscious and the ways we can/do relate with/to it.I cannot help but can say I've heard it said that the field contains exactly what one needs to get well.One seemingly ought work toward opening to receiving such information. Meditation, prayer, fasting. shadow-work.
>>42567514I do talk to myself. Sadly, that is all talking in the dark ever is.
>>42567538It is a sad plight, I know. Introspection, retrospection, contemplation.It has been said that our problem is not that we think too much. it is instead that we do not think correctly. What ails you brother?What ails you sister?For some of us it's the answer that we spend our lives running from.the jokes on us as in the end one can hide naught.
>>42567489I’m pretty similar to you but I’ve had what I think were demon spirits attack me in my sleep before and talk to me. As well as other mysterious happenings that even made the news. But the truth is even the happenings are meaningless. Thus I’m stuck in the same boat as you. I went out today to an establishment and felt so alone. Most the people there were non whites and while some were nice and others rude I just felt that my country has truly been takin over by outsiders. Now I’m the outsider. So alone.
>>42567489Have you tried Odin? I have personally gotten some real communication from him. Granted not like a full conversation but some legit synchronicities. Ask him for a sign, a specific sign.
>>42567570Maybe this is just the alienation of having our country robbed from us. But Idk, other White people IRL never seem to understand me either. >>42567579I have not tried Odin specifically, do you think some Gods will only communicate if you name them? I have named Hermes and Thoth before. Sometimes I will speak at egrets, cranes, and ibises I see on walks as if they are Thoth and I blame him for various things.
I'm 31 and feel the exact same. I hope that we find some meaning among all that, fren.
I've had demonic attacks. I've had astral attacks. i thank the Most High for the degree of protection I currently have. it has been an absolute nightmare. woe is me and everything but I've been perpetually unable to transit from a phase I wish i could be free from
>>42567579This is a good suggestion tooAlso try the Greek Gods. Might as well
You'll feel this way until you don't, is not all peaches and cream when you get a voice replying you back.
>>42567627Is the voice honest, though? Is it wise? I want to speak to someone who can tell me something I don't know.
