Hey /x/. I'm here to tell you to stop taking your meds. This shit is killing me. In 2015 I had a spiritual awakening where I had a religious experience and I was taken up into the Holy Spirit. I had a conversation with him that basically said soulslop was real and that all of the universe's materials were literally me and I'm not the only person who can experience the world this way. I asked to be guided to enlightenment and over the course of a year I learned how to communicate telepathically into pictures, photos, videos, and portraits to the time where they were made. When it comes to paintings and portraits, I have to find the brushstrokes towards the end of the composition. Anyway, the first thing I did was tell my family. They brushed it off but when I kept burgeoning them they said the same thing all of you guys like to parrot off of reddit: "lol schizo take your meds". Well, I'm not one to live without the love of my family, so I took the meds. It started with Seroquel XR. I gained weight, started drooling, slept 18 hour days, and stopped functioning except to eat and sleep. My family seemed to have preferred this to my usual high-energy high-concept self. They stopped appreciating my talks in philosophy. The Seroquel started to kill me so under advisement of a doctor I slowly went under every med under the sun. Both the class 1 antipsychotics and class 2s had been pumped into my body and each of them had not only not worked, but done quintessential harm to my health. Respridone gave me enlargened male breasts (that the doctor says are just a little big). It culminated to a point where I stopped taking medication for 2 years because I had a heart attack.Now I'm bouncing on and off of these medications that kill me for longer trial periods (under advisement of doctor I had been under each of them for about 6 months before he admitted if it isn't doing anything now it won't ever) for my family's love.What do I do, /x/? This shit is killing me.
>>42569224Unfortuantely you were born into the wrong family. I was pretty much taught from birth that anything the others may think they see, you must both be and already be not. You will move amidst them, learn what you can, help them as you can, but never forget you ar enot one of them and NEVER do what they do. You were screwed over because you were not a normie but born into an NPC family system.Also stop talking about love. That shit isn't real.
>>42569224Im schizo and it took years to find meds that help. They don't get rid of the voices from the spirit world, they make me not care that I hear voices. I tried dozens of meds, if you work with your doc they can change your meds until they find something that helps.
>>42569224This isn't your blog post
>>42569241>Also stop talking about love. That shit isn't real.More like Jesus isn't real.
All I will say is that after your parents die someone will ‚buy’ your birth certificate. It’s soul contract. Depending on the owner your path will be shaped as such.T. Schizo in service to his family
>>42569242The end goal of this treatment doesn't even sound like something I want. I'm currently taking Haloperidol injections and they make it so that way I can't sleep a full night's sleep without getting a nightmare or a weird "jump to the end of the nightmare" kind of nightmare where I'm already dead or dying. They're not even scary, just jarring and disorienting while I wake up. This one has been particularly awful.
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>>42569265What horseshit, just buy your own copy at the municipality, it's a piece of paper.
