How do you even live with a decaying mind bros? It's taking it's toll T______T

>>42605515
>They even killed me with medical malpractice at the hospital once in 2023
Pretty sloppy that you even went into a slaughterhouse to begin with. What did you expect to happen?

>>42605559
I had a pulmonary embolismn, like the worst kind possible. Was a couple of days from dying in my home :/
But when I got to the hospital, they made me go up and go to the shower on purpose, knowing I still had the embolies and stones in my arteries. They knew it was going to dislocate, get into my heart and give me a heart attack.
They let me die on purpose. So yeah ok they reanimated me just after but still, shit is fucked up. Some Monarch Trauma based mind control talks about that, how they sometimes ritually kill people and reanimate them to give them traumas...

>>42605568
>I had a pulmonary embolismn, like the worst kind possible. Was a couple of days from dying in my home :/
Did you really though? If you really want to get into this stuff, that's how you have to think. Perhaps they needed access to you in a particular facility, bit of remote activation or post-hypnotic suggestion magic, you think "oh no I am dying" and end up where they wanted you.

Not saying that's what "actually" happened, as I cannot know, but that's my most immediate feedback.

>>42605584
Bro I could feel the embolies in my arteries and literally couldn't breath and had 160 bpm and had shitty blood flow. I was literally dying.

>>42605596
I guess you're not ready or cut out for the SRA / MK Monach stuff.

And by the way my post isn't about that I'm asking for help because I'm metaphorically crucified by the elite, my mind's in shamble, I think I'm starting to get schizophrenia symptoms due to the trauma and I'm tired.

So yeah, does anybody have any suggestions?

>>42605604
You have "the vibe" which indicates a combination of ignorance and arrogance. You won't learn from anything anyone tells you, which is why your thread was to page 5 or something before I bothered to bump it. You're just saying "normal life is barred from me, give me the answer, I must be soothed". To me, THAT, is tiresome.

>>42605608
Ok fuck off then.

>>42605610
What'd I tell ya, there it is. When I was being tortured endlessly I didn't react to stimuli the way you do. I don't respect you. you need to be broken down more I guess, which is inevitable given the way you are and what you think you're up against. Nothing I can do.

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>>42605613
Ok glowie fuck.

>>42605621
There it is again. You have no curiosity or inquisitiveness, you react on reflex like a kicked dog. You are driven solely by the pleasure and pain principle, along with the desire to fit in. You only desire to be soothed. I am not soothing you, so I become bad, and you lash out. You're not cut out for it.

>>42605630
Ok fuck off then.

>>42605634
Normie NPC. NNPC for short.

>>42605515
Stay sober. Follow the laws. Don't present as an easy target for anyone. Don't trust your family or anyone really. If someone hurts you in a compliant way then leave. If you know that you're not violent and don't have a criminal history then get a gun and always carry some form of self defense. If someone shows you that they're reading your mind, would you be prone to attacking them? Why do you call them "the monarchs"?

>>42605663
I have never attacked anyone and never will. But I think I'm gonna call it quit though.
I call them the monarchs because that's how they are called.

Anyway I don't need anymore answers I found my own, peace.

>>42605688
Where can I learn more about these monarchs?

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>>42605515
That's so cool. Are you like Mason? Tell us what the numbers mean. I'm a deep undercover agent myself, if you care.

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bump

>>42605515

I think they are really Muslim, and using Muslim laws. And they are a cuck matriarchy.

>>42605568
How do you know you're even alive? Maybe you already died?

>>42605515

bro i feel for you. it will be okay. please dont quit.

my advice is to not go on 4chan for advice. as you saw, trolling is abundant.

maybe reddit would be better

>>42607881
>my advice is to not go on 4chan for advice. as you saw, trolling is abundant.
Fuck off, redditor. I gave him the truth. Learn what trolling means dumbass.

The modern world is by and for the weak. I have c9ontempt for the weak. Get the fuck out and go back where you belong.

Sounds like it started in adulthood. That's gangstalking, not monarch. Monarch is identity dissociation through intense abuse in early childhood. It's generational and very ruthless.

Anyone know if the story of Ella and Gabriel is true?

>>42605559
Idiot. Who do you go to? Your Tarot reader?

>>42609797
Gangstalking is done by this group called Monarch.

>>42605568
That's more work for the hospital workers. They don't want more work, they want to deal with you as quickly as possible. What the hell do you think their incentive is? Do you think a person from the FBI has an office in the hospital that the doctors visit to consult him on what to do next for his personal appeasement?

>>42609806
>defensive deflection + characterization
Yep, you're fuckin' toast. Good luck normie NPC. You dumbass fuckin' animal, kek. If I was in charge you'd graze and have a decent life, but I'm not.

>>42609806
It's hard to believe such a creature could wander its way into /x/ of all places. What are you even, what are you doing here? Hilarious.

>>42609829
Who told you I'm normal. There's a world outside what you believe. It's not just OPs words and then average Joe naive group think.
Why don't you explain yourself instead of attacking me

>>42609835
Another clueless fool. Do you really think everything this board believes and stands for boils down to hospital staff plotting against op. If I don't believe that and I'm wrong I'm also wrong about everything else in life

I just wanna say that they are using advanced tech to fuck with me, notably thoughts insertion, mind reading and even dream manipulation.

So yeah, it's really bad.

>>42609806
>Idiot. Who do you go to? Your Tarot reader?
>>42609836
>Why don't you explain yourself instead of attacking me

Why don't you go smash your head into a wall until your scrambled eggs start working right? You make such demands of me. But alas, all the kings horses and all the kings men, could not put humpty dumpty, back together, again.

>>42609846
Bot / mindless cattle. Should be strung up and drained. It's the only valuable output you'd ever produce.

>>42609848
Black or SomeThing~

>>42609850
Ok sorry. I shouldn't have resorted to an ad hominem. I just didn't like the smug arrogant way you look down on someone going to the hospital. You'll be to blame when someone gets seriously messed up because they listened to you out of pressure. Hospitals might not be great but it a lot of cases a trip is necessary unless you have a better alternative. They can fix you.
So where do you go for medical attention.

>Bot / mindless cattle
Again. Stop being silly because you know that disagreeing with you on a single loing doesn't make someone this. It's ignorant.
Let's talk like adults.
Are you in America?

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>>42609862
>I just didn't like the smug arrogant way you look down on someone going to the hospital.
It's literally for your own good. Get it out of your system when you're young if you must, but smarten up fast and stay the fuck away from those places and the braindead golem that they stock them with. Nothing good can come of it, nor will anything good come of maintaining this infantile dependency / savior fantasy of the medical-industrial complex either. Rip that vile trash out of you and throw it in the gutter where it belong, it is foreign implant they inculcated into you in childhood.

>You'll be to blame when someone gets seriously messed up because they listened to you out of pressure.
Shut the fuck up, retard. I don't live on your level and there surely is not any moral, organizational, or practical complex you're going to be informing me about either.

>So where do you go for medical attention.
I don't. There is no such thing as healthcare on this entire planet. Get that through your scrambled little urbanite head.

>Let's talk like adults.
Oh, you don't want to deflect and act like it's 2008 with your shit for brains little jokes now, punk? Piss off.

>>42609891
Ok you're definitely not capable of having an intelligent discussion, I can see this dialogue couldn't possibly go anywhere.
I'll leave you to it chief

The funny thing is he/she actually started off well

>>42609914
You were just tested and failed. Good riddance.

>>42609918
-___- I really don't see anything funny in this situation.

>>42609938
I do. He's right, it is comical. I feel like I had a chance to end and remake the world and I chose to let you stupid things continue on. The more my awareness returns, then more I regret it.

>>42609945
I don't think this thread is a place for you to spew your insane delusion and main character syndrome. Be gone.

>>42609960
When I read your posts I imagine a bunch of slimy sardines packed together ina can. A bunch of worms writhing all over each othe.r A bunch of weak and scared fuzzy little lost puppy dogs nuzzled together with their butthole puckering in fear. It's absolutely disgusting, the mere sensation of normie urban cattle thinking.

>>42609926
You're embarrassed at not being able to express yourself in a decent manner like an adult and so you pass it off as a "test" what kind of test is that? What the hell are you on about? You can form a coherent sentence at this point. You're deteriorating by the minute.
I suggest you try a board like /trv/ because you're out of your depth dear. No idea of what shows you've been watching but sorry to tell you they don't count as an education. You're clueless, stop dirtying up this place. And please please don't reply. I'm done with you

>>42609983
>what kind of test is that?
You're not even capable of figuring out what metrics you could be weighed against. It's a theory of mind test hidden under an executive function test. You couldn't ignore being insulted and you missed everything else I said, reacting like a kicked dog on reflex alone. You were judged to be weak, labile, and an animal under control of its sensory feedback loop. You have no agency. You're a follower. You failed. You don't and cannot choose your responses to me, nor can you contribute to the end of the conversation. All of that is strictly my choice and my domain. I choose your responses. I choose where it ends. I choose how it develops. Because you react on reflex, you are reactive. Like throwing a ball at a wall, oh it counces back, what a surprise. Why would I even talk to you? Duhhhh.

>>42605647
You know what, I probably sounded like OP a couple years ago and now at the current point Im doing the "normal life" thing and just pushing thru and bearing it and I have to say I agree with you even if you are being a condescending guy. OP should listen

>>42610008
I doubt you have to deal with having been literally killed off though.

>>42609995
Im not angry or offended I just can speak to someone on your level, you can tell a lot about someone from. How they communicate. You have a basic mind. Also I thought I told you not to reply. Your reading comprehension is bad too.
Not doing very well are we?

>>42611820
This post is dumb.

>>42612063
Another ad hominem. You belong in a playground haha. I don't think I've met someone so unintelligent in 4chan before. That's an achievement

>You are dumb
>You are stinky

>>42612075
It is dumb. That it's not self evident to you is indication you are dumb as well. Just look at it.

>>42611820
>Also I thought I told you not to reply. Your reading comprehension is bad too.
>Not doing very well are we?
You said dumb things to me. I had to reply to a dumb thing. In more ways than one, kek.

>>42612276
I don't know why you're laughing. You're a loser and a virgin. You're going to live your whole life that way, and it sounds like you got an extra problem on your hands now. As if the rest wasn't enough. A bit problem.

"Kek" :)

>>42612303
>I don't know why you're laughing.
That's because you're dumb. We've been over this. I imagine there are plenty of things you don't know, and you're used to it.

>You're a loser and a virgin.
Baseless assertion. Dumb.

>You're going to live your whole life that way, and it sounds like you got an extra problem on your hands now. As if the rest wasn't enough. A bit problem.
Ambiguous and dumb.

>>42612306
I based it on getting a read of your personality. I could be wrong though, why don't we just clear it up right now. When's the last time you've been laid? And with who?
Are you enjoying your life?

>>42612312
You're dumb. I am not interrogated nor do I prove myself, certainly not a dumb person.

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>>42612320
Meta-dumb. Dumb within dumb.

>>42611820
Assuming you re not a bot, you should be humble. You have nothing to lose by being humble in your interaction with >>42609995, but you choose wrong, you are defensive instead of attentive and inquisitive. You act like a victim, you re primarily a victim of your lack of composure and maturity. Grow up or decay further under the weight of your circumstances.

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I feel so sorry for this guy, what a disaster of a human being. Confirmed everything kek. He's so pathetic I cannot bear to ever reply to the loser

>>42612450
I don't take this place too seriously, do you think I behave this way in my daily life? Why are you so stoic? Have you always been this way?
Sometimes you need to let people have a bit of fun. It's ok to be childish on occasions. He also deserves to know how pathetic he is, he's got way too much confidence for a man in such a predicament

>>42612463
Ahhhh i rushed again >>42612450 was meant for >>42605515
I wrote all that intense paragraph and replied wrong.
I meant the OP should be humble and grow up soon. I get what you are doing and you re not the one in need of help here.

>>42612477
Ah ok, great. I was starting to take a look at myself thinking am I being as much of a weirdo as OP hahaha

Whole thread of Monarch agents derailing each other and not one real response to OP? Nobody even asked him one question...

>>42605535
Been in your shoes once or twice. They gave me something in the hospital to induce absolute amnesia, so I could only maintain continuity for a few minutes in a row. But then, gradually, I got better. You can too.
>>42605515
Psychiatry was started by them, so good intuition OP. The answer you're looking for is the sworn enemy of the psychs, Scientology. Ignore the drama and the post 1970s-takeover and study the original technology, you'll find its purpose is to repair your mind, help you remember more of it, and not be freaked out or controlled by what you uncover. Remember Monarch splitting only works with induced amnesia. You've got to find more pieces of your mind and put them in contact with each other. Start by doing the lists in this book every day:
>https://stss.nl/stss-materials/English/Books%20Original%20PDF%20Scan%20OCR/Self%20Analysis%20First%20Edition%20August%201951.pdf

>>42613596
If that link's down, try this one:
>https://firstindependentchurchofscientology.org/wp-content/uploads/2020/10/1951-SELF-ANALYSIS.pdf

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>>42609829
Lol you are trying way too hard give it a rest.

>>42605535
Grow mushrooms
It’s not just the eating of mushrooms but growing them and veggies heals you
Take care of animals helps too

>>42605604
Combine a mostly-carnivore diet with an intermittent fasting schedule and daily prayer once on waking and once before sleep. In the prayers don’t focus on the bad, don’t be like “please take away my suffering,” instead ask for presence and assurance. The Holy Spirit is exactly what you want, they don’t call it “the Comforter” for nothing.

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>>42605515
It's called radio frequency mind control. Stimulates part of you from a remote area using frequencies. Maybe even from satellites or drones. If you've ever felt like you had bugs crawling over you or unnecessary tinitus or tickling in your ear then now you know.
If you're living in babylon (((America))) then you've already been tagged and tracked by the hornets nest that is the United States Government.

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>>42613596
>Whole thread of Monarch agents derailing each other
That's how the douchebag vampires operate.

>>42605630
You're a vampire, anon.
Why can't people just admit God is real?

>>42609926
Oh yeah well those fucking losers tried to snatch me up into their gay cult too after years of abuse and guess what, no one is actually impressed by a bunch of weirdos getting their rocks off by abusing people the same way they were abused. Ur in a abuse cult. Ur the disposable asset that they're using to get sexual gratification by psycholigically abusing others nonstop.

Ur a loser and everyone in ur gay little cult is actually going to hell, gangstalking abuse qualifies as a blasphemy before God himself because what you're trying to do to others is kill their soul so as to have another little soldier to go help kill more people's souls. It's just large scale malignant narcissism. It's loser shit that's who they recruit. They recruit losers with loyalty to have a fake sense of power. It's fake and gay.

>>42605596
Same here bro. VAXXED.COM. Ive got an injury claim in, lets see where it goes

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>>42605515
Eat ze molly

>>42605515
>so basically theres this group this specific name and they do this specific kind of ritual abuse of people........ BUT THIS IS ABOUT MEEE. Theyre stalking me and biting me and my friends in t he night. Please friends, focus on this bullshit red herring and do not focus what this organization really does to real people, just oay attn to this fake gay story of mine please

That's some quality gatekeeping Lou

>>42620699
His responses to me were quite telling.

>>42605515
Sigil magick.
make yourself be grounded in reality.
truth.
gain logick.
logickal skills.
as in magick.
logick for the metaphysical.
i could help you as i was in a similar situation.
go to the temples to pray for you.
like hare krishna usually are kind hearted people.
also the christians will help you with their energies.
i a super undelighted to see you suffer.
if you are interested in resources:
Frederick Dodson
Michael William Denney
Sethikus Boza

I... am not up operating as a healer, yet.
but... i can make money with it... i guess...
OP, AMA

>>42609995
Hmmm. Like the tests from Dune where it's to see how the candidate reacts. With animal nature, or something higher. Very interesting. Is there anything more you can tell me?

The most unfortunate part :

You have to learn to laugh at it. To learn to move on anyways. To fight not with pain or injustice... But to fight as water.

Because it doesn't stop. But they get bored.

>>42610188
I mean, are you more upset that they killed you, or brought you back? The old must die to give way to the new. Perhaps your old self needed to die for you to become something better.

You claim this caused you trauma, but trauma spurns growth. "Whatever doesn't kill you only makes you stronger" and all that. Imagine what surviving death would do for you.

Even the ancient Egyptians, or the Dzochen Monks would practice ceremonies of death and rebirth. Ego death is the goal of most enlightenment.

I could perhaps understand being brought back to such a world as this, given what you may have seen on the other side. But perhaps the goal is to take what we see there and make this world better with it.

I wouldn't know, I'm just as lost as you are. But becoming more and more curious about the ongoing tests and re-programming, and less bitter and scared. Especially if even death in "The game" isn't real. I just wish I better understood the game and it's rules.

I don't particularily enjoy all the deception, especially from those who claim to love me. It's very isolating. But perhaps that too will make us better. More intuitive to manipulation. More discerning with our trust. Less reliant on those around us.

I can't say, as I'm merely a student myself. Which I feel is a better way to view yourself than a victim. What if all that you say is not happening "to" you, but instead happening "for" you. You'd have to be pretty special to someone to have garnered that much attention, and deserve that much effort.

>>42621143
Not at the moment.

>>42621323
Guess I'll just enjoy the ride then