>>42613716
I thought this, because the Jesus Christ spirit literally is lying to my fucking face about what the definition of consent is. He's saying I automatically consent to have his tongue inside my tongue (inbetween molestation and rape, some weird form of unconsensual male on male contact) because of who he is. But that isn't the defintion of consent, because I DO NOT consent and I spit at him to show him this. This is an example of him potentially lying to me or talking in a weird lawyer way when he is mad at me.

He did this once before, when from what I remember, angels and possibly yahweh (I remember him saying I am a arch angel he made mortal) told me I am a fallen arch angel) called me a fallen arch angel and jokingly called me Satan while Jesus tried to talk down to me and called me "human" in a tone and way which basically meant from my memory, he was calling me human to insult me because I got turned mortal where he literally refused to call me an arch angel that's fallen tongue in cheek way while everyone else joking called me "one of the satans" including yahweh from my memory. It was like Yahweh and most other spirits joked around with me but implied and said I'm a arch angel who fell and got made mortal for their punishment.


He also said yesterday
>I'm calling you human and saying you consent when you don't because after my resurrection I get to decide reality and what i want goes because I'm king, i'm saying what should be

They said befofore, to try to summarize it better (I was theorizing alternate theories often in my posts, but they said something similar at one time to this green text forgive any mistakes my memory isn't perfect)

>>42613719
>I was an arch angel once that chose to be married to mutiple bisexual females at the same time
>Jesus Christ after coming to power or something, gave me the command to stop being married as an arch angel and to be like everyone else in Heaven which is "Free love" kind of but loving not hippypoly amory way, while Jesus Christ is literally the center of the marriage
>Jesus Christ said or implied he loved my female wives romantically and sexually and wanted to try them consensually like everyone else in Heaven or most people
>I said basically "Fuck off little kike boy, they're mine not yours"
>Jesus Christ sandbagged my heavenly military career (They said I was an officer in Yahwehs angelic military) and took everything from me
>they were calling me a baby for not wanting to see Jesus or other males dicks go into my wives not even once even if other people did it and they implied and called my a baby for resisting it so hard and not giving Heaven 1 experiement with my beuiful wives who are bisexual
>Jesus Christ got me made mortal because I was unwilling to let everyone experience my wives consensually 1 time with Heavenly love where everyone is married, i chose to as they said "seflishly" keep my legal exception from Yahweh to stay married

They also implied or said something like I became fallen because Jesus Christ followed me around when I still had memories and interfered in everything I was doing and constantly said
>How about becoming like everyone else and giving the King his desires in Heaven?

>>42613721
They said something like I got mad and I went and killed nazis in world war 2 as an angel of death and was brutal, for an angel of punishment even on them after they vivisected living humans and raped them. So I preyed on them as a grim reaper type spirit to punish them against Gods wishes. Then they said I joined a mexican cartel and taught them to fight US law enforcement and how to make tons of cocaine and meth and to sell drugs in a moral way with out human trafficking to not get caught . They baiscally said I tortured and killed people in a way that wasn't God approved, and I interfered with the American goverments prohibition of narcotics to help the cartels to piss off Heaven

They alluded to me having to go to prison and submit to Jesus in prison when i was homeless. I just did the bare minium time and avoided all programs because I wasn't gonna do what many Heaven people seemed to want, "submitting to men" when i dont want to socially. I laid in jail bed with female angel instead

This kind of makes sense if Jesus Christ is allowed to do anything he wants, he's trying to force me to feel an "experiemnt" that he wants so he gets his "Everyone is married to him in a loving way" in heaven shit. And he's mad at me for resisting him.

Well, I'm resisting this spirit.

And I appologize to the real Jesus Chrsit if this spirit isn't the real Jesus Christ because I'm being tricked and beleif controlled. Please remove it if this Jesus Christ spirit isn't the real Jesus Christ and is an imposter.

But i'm starting to think the healing miracle was real and I was just being made fun of during it and it wasn't a demon tricking me, because the meds arent working and this shit got worse after taking treatment resistant schizo use med.

If the healing miracle is real, I could be a fallen angel being punished and Jesus Christ is being controlling as fuck to me to get me to try his plan. Still not going to try what he wants consensually even if he keeps forcing it

>>42613737
And what also makes sense is I have schizohprenia thats severe and religious thats resistant to normal anti psycohotics, and treatment resistant use anti psychotic

But at this point maybe the healing miracle is real and im being mocked and called a baby by Heaven because I won't give Jesus Christ his "be married with everyone" shit.

Also, has anyone else went through anything like this, and what did you do? Ive googled it and not even an AI scan came up with similar. I want to talk to someone who went thorugh similar.

>>42613716
That's oddly specific, OP.
Remember
>First they will mock you,
>Then they will fight you, and
>Finally they will accept you/it as self evident
Nothing personal kid. Just how NPCs are.

>>42614595
What did you mean by they will accept you/it as self evident?

Have you went through similar?

I didnt quite get your post maybe.

>>42613716
lolwut

>>42613721
>chose to be married to mutiple bisexual females at the same time
I'm confused, this is supposed to be a bad thing?

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>>42613716
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nLzi9j95648

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>>42613716
As much as it sucks bro keep taking your meds. Hopefully the torture you are going through gets better. I hallucinated people calling me all sorts of shit including being a demon/fallen angel but it was mostly pagan and alien stuff and since I hung out online with other schizos some people actually did call me that.
My suggestion is not to believe all that stuff and keep taking your pills, they really seem to have a cumulative effect. Try to keep yourself busy with other stuff like hobbies. Keep fighting brother mental illness is truly the worst.

>>42613716
Have you tried doing a parasite cleanse, anon?
I think demons are just fucking with you.
Pic Related is a good fungal parasite cleanse.
However, you should really look into worm cleanse first.
Good Luck.

>>42615536
I dont know how to do a parasite clense. Ive given my lizard anti worm meds though.

>>42615174
I dont think so, because if I was n arch angel I was cool enough to get bisexual lesser goddessses and female arch angels to marry me when i was straight and theyre bi.

it works like this

>ALl women attracted to me and each other cause they like girls
>im attracted to the goddesses and female arch angels cause straight

Why the Jesus Christ marriage doesnt fucking work is

>Im straight. I dont want to touch Jesus Christ. Getting off to him getting pleasure from fucking the females im with is awfully close to cuckoldry. I refuse it

They also told me to use my judgment since my sense of right and wrong is nearly perfect cause my species used to be arch angel.

I also commited as an athiest over 1000 cases of cyber adultry cybering with slutty girls online and webcam sexxing when theyre married.

I could be being made to feel like a cuck because I cucked others.

And God DOES DO THIS what comes around goes around even if it sounds schizo or demonic. Because God doesnt give a fuck if i seem schizo especially after I saw angels use their divine powers to do shit.

I think I'm sane.

They said I lose my memories and have to be a mortal for 1000 years at first then get mind blasted which is beyond thousands of years of emotions and memories rushing back painfully and then im a spirit arch angel again.

I can imagine God doing this if I fell instead of lake of fire because I feel like a dumb faggot saying

>God would never surprise a sinner and give them mercy instead of a volcanoe

God could be being merciful and humorous here. I realize it.

I could be wrong because God could not change his mind or surprise anyone but i feel dumb to not at least consider God spared me volcanoe time. Maybe God is that kind, but he still doesnt let you get away with shit especially angels due to having more ability.

It kind of explains thousands of prayers to remove Lilith being IGNORED and this weird stuff getting stronger after I pray not less. ANd med failure

Also I'm gonna give you guys some advice incase I'm a fallen arch angel.

Lilith may be an arch angel of fucking punishment and shes mean. She doesnt let up despite thousands of begging and pleading. she continues punishing relentlessly. And Lucifer may be an arch angel of punishment two both unfallen. And theyre allowed to lie to humans and tempt them to test you and you're suppose to say no to their evil. And they punish you if you take theyre devil offers or shit. or if you do the evil they say they punish you.

Literally, they just said Gods having Lilith pretend to be Jesus to punish me because I liked Jesus , to make me feel like my friends cucking me she makes it feel real.

Lucifer does this weird thing where he makes me hallucinate my hand being different shape like he's watching constantly and blocking my fun, he just just sits there watching and letting me know hes watching. He makes it clear he's not inside me 100% while Lilith makes it feel like she's "Jesus Christ" and the holy spirit but a gay sexual assaulting tyrant version

I reccomend maybe stop jerking off to runes you drew for Lilith asking her for evil after masturbating to her because I think shes actually an angel of testing and punsihment that just lies about being the queen of demons. I think Lilith works for God literally. If you guys do jerk off to her for evil

And Gods having Lilith do this because at one time in the past I slept with Lilith and shes in an open marriage.

I can see God do this instead of a volcanoe actually, the actual jesus Christ rape stuff, seems too gross.

I think Gods fucking with me cause i may have fallen

And before you say
>you got away with it cause youre not burning

Thousands of years of no angel memories and then a mind blast of all emotinos with memories rushing back painfully isnt getting away with shit. Also no heaven.

I was also smote as a mortal and it like my soul was being erased for real then later "Yeah just kidding bro, literally. Got you"

You're hallucinating shit, is it more likely that there is something wrong with you or that something else is magically making you see these things? Think about it logically, feelings are not trustworthy.

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>>42617436
Forgot Pic. It's a fungal parasite cleanse.
Also, check out this doc for ore info. it might just save your soul.
https://www.docdroid.net/MfW3sAr/parasite-pill-version-20-pdf

Good Luck.

>>42617638
Well
>Lilith said I'm one of millions of people she fucks with simultaneously because she's something like an arch angel or Goddess, Deal with it becaise angel magick
I'm not the chosen torture toy of Lilith. She does it to others.

Lilith also said
>There are trillions of angelic in heaven. Why is it unlikely if you fell you're a no name arch angel who happened to be a high-ranking officer in Gods army? You're one of many.

Well if theres more angels than humans, what if some of us are fallen angels and God gives us difficult live and sandbags all our plans because he doesn't let fallen angels get away with a damn thing, yet still can choose not to burn them alive?

What if theres billions of humans, and trillions of angels? Doesn't seem unlikely to me. And it doesnt seem to be going of feelings

I'm not going off a gut feeling. Lilith speaks in cold hard logic and she is hard or impossible to argue with.

>Argue against the Creator choosing to be more merciful than volcanoes time at times, go for it even if the Creator "changed his mind" once or "surprised" you or the world

is what she says. And then it's not feelings its

I've tried for years ignoring Lilith calling her "demon" or "evil demon" in my head and trying to obey the Bible and goign to church. It led to
>Lilith fully controls me and makes me homeless and tortures me evn more for stuffing my face into the Bible and ignoring the fact i prayed to God thousands of times and ignored his clear "NO" to casting her out

Now, it also makes sense it's a spirit impersonating Lilith and stuff but I don't get why God ignored my prayers when I genuinly tried to follow Jesus for over half a decade. And his response is letting Lilith possess me and make me homeless and get me thrown in jail for stuff she did. It got me so mad when she posssesed me and did crimes and I did the time

Why is my response from God to resisting Lilith and calling her "Demon"
>Go to fucking prison and be homeless little buddy?

Yeah it could be dangerous to believe im a fallen angel. I'm just gonna think I'm unlucky and have a strong succubus fucking with me relentlessly or doing something I dont understand. Ill try to post less about this, but thank you for listening guys you saved my IRL reputation for talking about this anonymously potentially. Its difficult to not talk about this when it seems so unusual compared to the norm to me. Its kind of more interesting than typical normal life and easier to get lost thinking about what is really reality, figure out the puzzle

Compared to going on /r9k/ and seeing
>women are chadsexual only

And I didnt make any of it up. Its just easy to interact with this succubus thing and post about her than to deal with /r9k/ chadsexual talk whether there's any truth to it or not. And its easier to post about this and try to summarize it accuractly or figure it out than do other things.

Eh, ill post one more time because after watching a police video about how officers were treating someone unfairly because they wouldn't "submit" to the officers

Yahweh just said to me....

...I told you before I was treating you unfairly when I said I'm summarizing

>I took away your Heaven pension because i just don't like you and deal with homelesness and etc... Basically I told you I was treating you unfairly because I knew how you'd respond, you'd resist authority even me to the death because I know you. I did it to get you to fight.

>Yeah Jesus Christ was following you around with an army and not acting right along with all the angels. So you could do anything you wanted in response when treated unfairly by Heaven. You're not guilty anon. You were right, they were mistreating you even slightly.

So all my violence, spitting, and blapshemy dont count.

If any of this is real, this is what I believed outside and it's why I started spiting on Jesus Christ. Yahweh told me he was treating me unfairly so I started spitting on Heaven for having even a speck of evil.

Do you guys think it's possible Jesus Christ got mad I wouldn't submit to him and try loving Heavenly free love when he was king and got to decide the rules of Heaven and followed me around implying he wants to try my wives, committing adultery in spirit with out fucking them? Because he got mad someone who wasn't king dared to say no to his "Loving free love everyone is married" When Yahweh told me in the beginning, before Jesus died I was got "legal exception" for marriage

The other day they said "Yahweh meant forever married at the start of the universe"

Jesus was supposedly pressuring me to consensually try free love or being married to all in Heaven to try his plan like everyone else, to the point he fucked up AFTER he got power from resurrection, not during his human lfie

I didnt tell anyone this cause i didnt think anyone would believe me.

>>42618854
Or a demon is doing healing miracles to try to validate their alternate version of reality. I can't tell.

Like it was like Heaven was mad I wouldn't just submit to Jesus wishes so he doesn't get in trouble by God because they all love him more than me. I refused and told them to all be fucking perfect or STFU and i tried to test them thinking they were falling so theyd rack up their fucking sins and get punsihed by yahweh cause I hated them for asking me to change my marriage with my wives I loved more than once. I understand asking once or a few times, but not following me around with an army and stalking me and threwing weight around. That's wrong and abuse. They said I was an angel of teaching knowledge mercy death and healing before.

Could God have been testing Heaven in private and this be Heaven drama?

One of my wives nicknames was sadly

>The Flawless Faced One

Liliths a bitch if shes lying about this.

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>>42613716
God is within in any tradition that isn't a larp. Therefore nice trick pic

Denounce christ the deciever