I'm depressed and so is my dad I would say. He keeps saying how he has lowered his head and doesn't have a fighting spirit he used to have. Whenever I say I want to do X or Y he keeps saying: wouldn't it be nice? One can dream (with a longing tone in his voice)I try my best to keep going despite my depression but fuck talking to him makes me want to kill myself, from my point of view his whole life philosophy is that you get fucked in the ass by life until you get an anal prolapse and dieHe has a family, sure but if I were to follow his ideology what reason would I have not to kill myself?
37 He who loves father or mother more than Me is not worthy of Me. And he who loves son or daughter more than Me is not worthy of Me. 38 And he who does not take his cross and follow after Me is not worthy of Me. 39 He who finds his life will lose it, and he who loses his life for My sake will find it. Matthew 10:37-39 Your spiritual health is more important than familial connections, seek salvation independent of him, you secure your own mask in the case of a plane crash before assisting others. Right now, you need to focus on positivity, salvation, and hope, even if that means ignoring him for now, and hope that your light ignites his own. Self improvment is a marathon, it is slow and progress might not always show at first, but it is always worth taking another step. Find a goal, and progress to it, even a little, just always keep going, things will work out, do not let youself despair.
you are a human, probably a white male. even if things do suck, you get to witness and have a chance at truly comprehending it all.
>>42617694Thank you Anon, sometimes I don't know if I'm supposed to be a light in the dark but if that's the case I don't know why God has put such a burden on me since all my family is like this. Also, even as a child I was haunted by thoughts that told me I was condemned to hell as a result of my intrusive thoughts telling me I had commited the unforgivable sin
>>42617701I have a hard time understanding the purpose of me comprehending all of this, my dad has been like this since forever and my life has been an uphill battle against self-destruction
>>42617712>my dad has been like this since foreveris he still around? do you respect him?would you want him to lose something that might be the last light in his life.
>>42617755He is still around, I respect him in some ways, he is better than his father and he had a rougher childhood than I did but his passiveness is something that I find deeply pathetic but I do love him so I don't want him to lose anything that could be harmful to him
>>42617707Baptism in the name of Jesus christ will forgive the inherent sin of humanity from the garden of Eden, if you have been baptized you are in a state of grace, if you have not, any church would be happy to do it. Know that the ritual of baptism is universal so long as the individual says "I baptize you in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit." so any church amongst catholic, orthodoxy, or the primary protestant branches are valid. And beyond that asking for forgiveness and repenting of the sin will be forgiven, that is the nature of gods infinite forgiveness, it is given freely but you must choose to accept it. It has been said that those most beloved are the most burdened as the adversarial forces revel in making those chosen fall. Each pang of despair, each thought that you are not loved, each trail is there to make you choose to fall.Remember they all know that they will lose in the end, thier only goal is to pull down as many with them as possible, you win simply by not falling. You conquer everything by choosing life, by choosing good, by choosing hope.
>>42617664If you kill yourself you go to hell. Your dad is right and this has been the human condition for millions of years. This place intentionally sucks to fuck with us.
Life is hard and sad and lonely. That is honest.
>>42618088but not always
>>42618279That's precisely why it's hard sad and lonely. If we had no hope it would be meaningless and empty
>>42617664If you aren't suffering, and you are enjoying stuff, then just keep going.
>>42617664>how?psilocybin in nature
>>42617664Don’t forget humour’s use in raising spirits. You should also try to avoid taking on someone else’s pain when you yourself are struggling.We’re not here to consume slop and wallow in self-pity. We’re here to sacrifice ourselves for the greater good of humanity, whatever that looks like from your perspective. Kill yourself by living for a higher purpose.
>>42617664>I try my best to keep going despite my depression but fuck talking to him makes me want to kill myselfThink of it that way, if you kill yourself, you are letting the world win, but if you keep going on you can spite and fight against all those that caused this world to decline. I for once enjoy denying two of the politicians in my zone letters, because the fags dont have a name on the postbox. I know they live there, but I will NOT give it to them, fuck them.Anyway, you should read either Dostojevskij, Evola or Camus. They all talk about this.
>>42617664If you’re thinking about suicide try mushrooms. Pray to Jesus. He might talk to you.
>>42617694Demonic death cultDenounce christ the deciever>>42617707Dont go to church, do not tithe, do not confess, those people want you to be a slave and all religious authorities are liars, deluded and cult leaders>>42617813Mentally ill myth, there was no garden of eden, and the bible is itself a work of forgery and fiction>nah bro u gotta die for jesus christ>lol jk if u kys u go to hell.
>>42621072This is live, laugh, love tier cope, the life is inheritly a not good thing
>>42621098The official narrative you believe in is silly fairy tale crafted by rich masonic pedophiles
>>42621283I have no idea how you got that out of me, saying that you should fight against the evil that is ruining this world, instead of letting it defeat you.
>>42617664Yes, Regret Despair and resign to Hope
>>42617664Other people can't tell you what's right for you.
>>42617664I don't have a answer but your dad is based for not lying to you. We are in a war and at least he knows it. Most boomers think we were put on this earth to make as much money as possible and enjoy ourselves.
>>42617664You must find things to laugh about, for the both of you. Watching a old tv shows could be a good start.
