If no one teaches you anything important how are you not supposed to be ignorant? I literally tried to educate myself a little with astrology but can't do much more astrology until a certain thing gets solved. What was supposed to happen? I was just supposed to wake up one day and have all the knowledge about who I am and what I'm supposed to do in my head? My family didn't even want to guide me properly lol they just gave me some health warnings and then literally sabotaged me. Or was I supposed to join some order lol. Most of the orders are probably just looking for fresh members to use and abuse, maybe Freemasonry since they worship Jesus but I don't know if theyre even as good anymore since some groups started accepting all faiths. I'll just do what I think is right/will solve my problems until I can get some proper guidence (aka I tried everything except violence, so next is...). If you don't want to inform me or guide me and just want to deceive or use me then F off.
>F offWhoa man! Fuckin' potty mouth.
>>42618482Gaylord!
>>42618482I literally did not swear, I censored myself. Or is any language that doesn't come out of a posh professors mouth considered foul? >>42618494They just don't like young people using slang and curse words because they can't understand it. Understandable, for boomers. >>42618471Anyway I figured out myself that I shouldn't spend money on stuff like health issues, and to not accept anything from anyone with an open ended "its on me/I'll ask for something later" scenario. Also to stay away from non whites and non Christians. And to ask if someone can say they believe in Jesus to make sure they aren't secretly a salty satanist trying to screw me over. And that I shouldn't sign things that are iffy or that people really want me to sign. And that I should follow the christian rules (I would read all the bible if meddlers would stop getting in my way of reading it...). And that exercise and work and punctuality and wearing dressy tight clothing is good for me and to stay out of the house for most of the day to avoid being made to over eat, and that killing people will probably make my situation better. What else? I figured out more by myself than anyone ever taught me or that I read in a book but I'm still called stupid and ignorant. Someone can't not be stupid and ignorant if theyre made to be stupid by force, and made to be ignorant by being dissociated most of the time.
>>42618549I also love being called stupid for taking safety risks, but nothing ever happened to me! And I've survived so many of those bad peoples assassination attempts anyways. Like when running away at night... or telling off that short man who said he wanted to grape me... nothing bad happened to me. If youre not scared then its not scary and nothing happens. The only times I actually got hurt was from people who were supposed to protect or support me or were my friends and coworkers, not strangers, my supposed allies were more dangerous to me than the most dangerous of strangers hahahahaha.
>>42618575Also those going on dates with strangers? I just wanted to find someone bearable to marry so I could move out ASAP and I was suicidal at that time, how should I have any sense of preservation? Well after that secretly a satanist date pulled over and asked if I was afraid I got the message, ok, those people who approached me were just all predetermined set ups for me to go along with and not any actual real people. And you wonder why I want to leave the country.
>deceitfulOnly online and for fun or research. I tell the truth when it doesn't endanger my life, even if it risks me some loss. Its people who approach me who are deceitful or lying. >lustyI knew being gay is wrong and furthest ever went was cuddling a crush in high-school. I just kept it to myself and watched stuff online, would they rather I went out and acted on it with others? I even stopped watching and doing all inappropriate things after I knew it was wrong. How many can say they did that? A king in the Bible literally got a womans husband killed so he could bed her, and he still gets respect, I just have to laugh.
>you focused on the wrong thingsIf you break someone's will and initiative in childhood and so they just do what you say, then start ignoring them, don't be surprised when they don't suddenly start leading themselves. But now, all they have to do is get out of my way, and stop trying to force their ideologies on me, and stop trying to force their worldviews on me, and stop trying to force me to submit to them or do things for them. A faithful servent chooses their master and I'm not interested in serving short sighted idiots or whores or blood drinkers.
>doesn't care about their looksI managed to lose excess fat by myself, but they just forced me to overeat when I stayed in the house alot. And exercising regularly just made me much hungrier and I just gained more fat, clearly lifting heavy things and getting muscle would make my metabolism normal instead of cardio. And I care about beauty the normal amount, but not in a vain way, I won't dress up if I don't have to be looked at. Its just much easier to get certain things in life if youre good looking so thats why it's valuable. Do muslims care how pretty their wives are if theyre always covered up? No it doesn't make sense.
And yeah I WILL keep explaining myself, because it seems like people have so many pre conceived notions of what I am or should be, or what they want me to be, that they waste literal years on something that isn't even true. How can I be stupid and wise at the same time? How can I be racist and kind at the same time? You can be meek and brave at the same time. You can want certain people to stay away from you and for them to leave your country without hating them. You can value money without doing outright evil things to get it like sacking a nation. For example. You just see the world on the surface or how you want it to be, and when its not how you think it should be you try to force it to be how you think it should be. If you have something to teach first make sure its something actually valuable and true and not just your personal worldview.
>bigotI didn't know judging was a sin, sorry. And yeah when I judged it was only towards people that actually deserve it and hurt innocents, like a groomer degenerate who spreads disease, not a poor traumatized girl who transitioned to avoid misogyny. Or it was just for venting. Really anything I say you would say is complaining or an excuse, isn't it? You don't care about an explanation. I don't really care what most of you think anyways, you don't get to lead someone poorly, give them opportunities you know theyll fail at, sabotage them, isolate them and break their will, not let them know anything important, not investigating why or how, then blame them for failing. Just surviving is an accomplishment in that situation.
>you don't notice thingsJust because don't talk about it doesn't mean its not noticed
>WHOREEEEI only had 1 bf and just did whatever I thought was expected, I hate being touched but tried forcing myself anyways to be straight and touch. If I was a whore I could easily every weekend swipe on tinder get chad and have fun. As it is I know I was supposed to be born a man and so watched stuff that mostly only showed women. Your slandering and whore pushing won't work. And no using cheats like drugs or mkultra. You people love to punish but have no qualms using cheat codes and taking advantage of an easy life.
>>42618928And no lol online long distance bf dont count, they especially don't count when its secretly an undercover agent.
>>42618940Yeah if I'm going to be stalked for years anyways might as well clear the air and not have them slander me. This isn't for attention or me me me.
>youre self centeredI care about people and helping them, and dont hate people, not my fault that it keeps being used against me or bad people keep trying to surround me so I cant properly care and help. I literally wanted to be a medical practitioner when was a child, to help people. And no, setting up a situation where you deceive me to help wrong accidentally does not count, you deceiving schemers.
>vvitchcraft thingsI didn't want to do those things they put something in their videos to force me do those things. Especially the curse stuff and crystals...
No I didn't want to focus on my health so much, maybe they shouldn't have physically hurt me so much, and I didn't want to buy all those pills, I thought I could try to fix whatever was wrong with me myself, I didn't know about sensitive brain, or adhd, or hypermobility. And no I didn't want to make myself sick... if you treat someone badly and expect them to hurt themselves or do things they hate they won't make good self preserving decisions.
>>42618471blah blah blah i have to take a shit and jack offi will never pay for a cocksucking government or slave for a stupid bitch that lets her thoughts be subverted by parasites
>>42618471Learning something like astrology takes years, dedication and commitment. You’d need the equivalent of 4 years in college plus years of actual experience to fully understand it. It’s not something you’re gonna understand and know front to back with a YouTube tutorial and some trendy astrology book dude.
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>>42619757>lets her thoughts be subverted Yeah bro I totally know how to protect myself and just choose not to, I actually ruined my life on purpose just for funsies. Not.>>42619775I know I looked at online school courses but was studying it myself first a bit.
>>42618471It is not about being ignorant, it is about being content staying like that or trying to search for wisdom and knowledge and asking questions.
If you won't let me study and work and have friends and accomplish things normally then you gave me no choice but to leave and kill legally in a war. You anti white racists and demons worshippers bring all the hatred you deserve on yourselves, no wonder racism and witch killings still exist to this day. All you had to do was leave me alone. Go do some paint by numbers instead of harassing people who have never hurt you irl. And no I'm not marrying any of you psychopathic weirdos. Get a life. Go work for a title if you want one so bad.
If I was male Id have cut off my own balls the moment I knew certain things. Stay away from me. I'm not having s@x as a female body and I'm not reproducing as a female. Muh title and babies, you baby and title chasing scrotums who literally try to ruin some good girls life to get with her deserve to have your genitals force fed to you and made to live on a male only island. Have some self control or you'll be treated as animals.
