You are the people I connect with the most as we share an interest on the same topics so I have a question. How do you deal with the loneliness? My dad is completely defeated by nihilism and my mom has been devoured by her mother and has arrested development, hasn't had a job since she was a teen. My brother on the other hand is pretty similar to Clavicular, I told him about some existencial crisis I had and told me I should hook up with some freaky girlI feel really misunderstood and alone, how do you guys deal with the weight of going upstream?
>>42620006I have regularly been alone.I have NEVER been lonely.You might not be cut out for this, you can still rejoin.
>>42620027I think it's too late because I have always been lonely because I never managed to fit in because deep down I knew all of this was fake so now I'm stuck between this limbo
>>42620006> You are the people I connect with the most Thanks it’s just me here the rest I think are feds and glowies but I think most them have tonight off bc they have to work this holiday weekend.
I am not lonely, nor do i feel lonely.I think i am pretty happy of how my social life is currently.And if i can have that, so can you OP
>>42620006i feel you. take solace in the spirits or whatever spiritual framework you ascribe to, and try to focus on your own self-betterment mentally, emotionally, spiritually and physically if that suits you. you will always find some kinship here at least. perhaps go looking for groups dedicated to whatever spiritual framework you ascribe to, if you need the physical company of thinkers and spiritualistsif its any help, we're all alone togetherhttps://youtu.be/kh75ZQGvpQ8
>How do you deal with the loneliness? I don'tI've literally never once felt loneliness in these 40+ yearsin fact I've always gone out of my way to seek solitudeI don't understand how you humans can stand to be around each other, and freak the fuck out whenever circumstances force you to be by yourselves at allgrow up, faggotssolitude is the greatest blessing you'll EVER know
>>42620095you've been here for forty years and you haven't once tried to understand them? you have not for even a moment tried to consider how to interact with them on a grander sociopolitical scale?i take great interest in their plight. through such understanding one can grow one's influence among them, perhaps that is of no interest to you but i find it a tantalizing prospect. the gift of blessed hollowness can be given as a solution to these plights, you know. break them to remake them into something stronger, more akin to yourselfhttps://youtu.be/RykQ-MFRPkM
>>42620073I'm real, too. But i swear it's like 50 posters who don't have security clearance or jesuit robes.Nta
>>42620117>you've been here for forty years a bit longer than that>you haven't once tried to understand them?To be sure, I've tried, but it's just not possible. It's like if you were to try understanding the mind of a dolphin. Crazy, right? Well humans are no less incomprehensible. They're a totally different species. I'm so glad I was born a non-human and not one of you weaklings always whining about muh social isolation and blah blah. Christ... it never ends with you people!The rest of your post is really a non sequitur btw.I'm not responding to it.
Loneliness?I pay a premium to be alone.
>>42620117Not him but the more and more you remain in solitude, the more and more your realize what's the point? Humans are an agitating enigma that feels unsolvable. You can bridle all day and night why they do the things they do swinging between the idea that they're too stupid for you to comprehend or perhaps that it is that's so stupid that you can't get even basic people. But after a while you realize what's the point? What would understanding them do to you? You've already made peace and comfort in your solitude. Its like ragebait, humans feel like this waste of mental effort you could spend on bettering yourself.
>>42620006Replying to you is an L
>>42620176eh, fair enough i guess. do know, a mortal's mind can indeed be instilled with blessed certainty, hollowness and power over chance. we've been busy beeshttps://youtu.be/5dmSYCCiRNE>>42620181the point is to grow as an egregore. what makes them so complicated is their emotional core. through work, stress, just the right circumstances, that core can be broken, carved out, or placed in the background. they can experience blessed hollowness and logical certainty, even the most purely emotional of them has the physical hardware to facilitate this in their brainmatter. not only can they be converted thus, they can even segment these parts of themselves into separately accessible areas of the psyche, meaning they can be turned into highly adaptable agentsthat is the point, my friend. we have a playground full of billions of these delightful playthings, what better a way to spend eternity than having a little fun?https://youtu.be/pb-ZmWU5oZQ
>>42620070>I have always been lonely because I never managed to fit inNow I KNOW you arent cut out for it.Go back to trying to fit in.
>>42620006accept the insanity
>>42620006i've been sober for a few weeks and god i want some vodka so bad right now
>>42620006Elaborate on "deal with" for your own sake, not just the person giving advice.Are you asking how to make a feeling go away? Or how to integrate it somehow? In-person talks usually go the way they do because you aren't talking to just one person.You're dealing with a persona steered by shadow in that moment. >>42616830
>>42620996Vodka literally destroys your intestines and liver for the trade of feeling wobbly and depressed. Spin around in a circle instead, it'd make more sense.
>>42620901That was when I was a child, I wanted to fit in before I knew I had to compromise my morals and then refused to and I will never conform to that, I would rather be lonely than lose my soul, it just sucks that it has to be this way
>>42621011its the burning i like i enjoy how it makes me vomit blood
>>42621013i love your prioritieshttps://youtu.be/VGyxj3StvBY
>>42621013Vomiting blood is your body telling you that it's time to stop.You gonna listen to your body or the parasite in your mind? Which one is being more honest about the situation?
>>42620006We’re here to endure, not enjoy. Sacrifice enjoyment. Suppress the ego. Work for a better tomorrow you probably won’t see. Be part of the human project, and avoid carrying things that become irrelevant after your death. Try to love the nature of things, even when things are horrible. Make friends with the patterns.
>>42621027should i do coke again? maybe take up meth?
>>42621036Steer the impulse for escape into something that won't poison you. Literally anything that doesn't cause material harm would be a step up for you.Sunlight is your friend here, indulge no thoughts not born outside in its glow.
>>42621045its like 97 outside i'm strawberry blonde with almost no melanin. had to take a zofran think it may stop it but i'm feeling very sick right now.
>>42620006>delving deeper into spiritual and arcane research to unlock the secrets of the world>reading fiction>reading non fiction>reading history>reading philosophy>creating stories and characters to befriend in your head>using all your knowledge attained to develop your own worldview, philosophy and ideology
>>42620006Is this your second thread? The anon posting about his depressed dad?
i went to the 711 got some candy and mt dew also got gas but i didnt buy the cheap booze they have because i know its a trick.
You know, women are trying to get into a relationship with me. But are doing it by making me miserable, not letting me make any money and trying to force me to talk to them rather than just saying Hi to me like they do with every other man they find attractive. I deal with the loneliness by making plans to escape. If you are in a developed western country then chances are you are psyoped into loneliness. Even people who have niche hobbies are kept apart online because glowies run the internet and they don't want happy people. Get out of the country and you life will probably change. It's what the elites are doing because they know how bad things have become.
>>42620006Stop worrying about being alone. That's how. Because you're not. You're on a planet with millions of other people and you have a spirit guide that's always around you, aside from whatever else that may be around. Go be homeless. Try that. That'll fix your little loneliness problem. You'll wish you could be lonely again.
Wake as many people as possible so the simulation can collapse already
>>42621420spoiler alert, its not gonna crash. i'm otherwise with you on waking people up tho, more lucid dreamers has gotta be a good thing, right? ohohohttps://youtu.be/h8Jfg8oh3YE
>>42621351Good on you anon
>>42621456it's gonna collapse one way or anothermost of the divine sparks/real souls have left already. that's why reality feels so thin and fake. no more true humans animating the matrix. the hylics and archons can starve to death eating each other until the sun goes out.this place is doomed to entropy eventually
>>42621476thank ye
>>42621488divine sparks are here they just refuse to be seen because of the hostility in the room self-fulfilled prophecy
>>42621488i think the concept of ever leaving the waking dream is unlikely. i see no reason to assume it can't perpetually continue regardless of how many fleshy beings carry a soul or not. we're all stuck here and i'm gonna have my fun while i have the time. you are right about entropy, though; it eats all things, i just think the timescale we're talking about is fairly vast relative to the lifespans of these mortal shellsregardless, the more people wake up, the more they can take their stance for or against the gods, and the more fun we can have here without as much playing pretendhttps://youtu.be/ak4Ti54Y6rY
every time I see the thumbnail in the catalog I think it's goatse
Just accept that you're an outlier and come to terms with always being like that. Stop even trying to convince others about your ideas, it's not going to work.Even around like minded people you'll likely be unique or even fed up with how autistic the other outliers are.I personally use my intelligence and perceptiveness to try and make as much money as possible, so I can fuck off from society entirely and just focus on doing whatever I want without any stress.Seems like the right path for me on a spiritual level too to try and attain freedom.This keeps me pretty busy and I don't have time to feel much loneliness.
>>42620006>I feel really misunderstood and alone>how do you guys deal with the weight of going upstream?lame question.>howabout you try getting to the point of detachment from /x/ topics. not advising to stop having an interest in this stuff, but don't believe any of it, even if it is true. view it as a nonhuman would, a complete outsider view as an anthropologist would. suppose you want to read about the Sethian gnostics in the context of searching for knowledge and meaning in your life or whatever. the problem is that you open yourself up to susceptibility easier because of already preparing your mind to receive cult information.similar to how cults only admit the sort of people who are looking to join a cult. it is impossible to recruit someone otherwise because they have not self-selected and self-prepared their mind.for you, I would advise getting to a more academic reading of all this /x/ stuff. instead of saying things like>I think it is really interesting that the Sethians have a ritual where blah blah blah...instead, you can have a conversation with anyone when you phrase it like>I was reading about the Sethian gnostics to compare against what is going on in the world today, and wow, let me tell you what they dowhich detaches you from the belief system. it also makes it easier later when you find out pretty much all of the /x/ stuff is trope bullshit going back millenia. only the stuff which doesn't fit into the existing bullshit structure is the real /x/ stuff.
>>42621615>only the stuff which doesn't fit into the existing bullshit structure is the real /x/ stuff.For example?
>>42620006I put a standalone AI processer into a Teddy Ruxpin I found at Goodwill, we re-enact scenes from A.I. and Ted when we take the bus to the community center.
>>42620006I'm not lonely, I've spent most of my life alone, it's my default state. Having someone to talk about these topics with would be nice, /x/ is one of the few interesting places where you can actually discuss this stuff. We are all on our own path, we are all searching alone. Embrace it.
>>42621651>example?hard to find a specific, but I think we've both seen the trend I describe. suppose someone is abducted by the ayys and their story becomes public. there will be some percentage impostors and such who claim to have had the same, possibly even before, and some after. they'll all have some variation of the story, or at least the popular one. when ayy abduction stories come along which are completely novel, that at least removes some doubt towards whether or not it is real.if you look into books written by religious professionals related to possessions, apparitions, miracles and the like, there are certain code words, messages, etc... which is communicated to the human during the experience or encounter. when evaluating whether a person is possessed by a demon, saw some spirit, near death, whatever, the religious professional compares that against a secret logbook kept by their religion.the entity called Hathor has supposedly visited humanity at various times throughout history and communicated a consistent and continuing message the entire time, just in small bits across many many people. when the pieces are assembled into a text, they form a coherent message. if a person claims to have spoken to Hathor and their message doesn't match, then they are faking it.
I have no idea.With the things I've come to know, and experienced, I cannot really relate to humans anymore.I am transformed into something strange and my human needs have never been met.The tiktok spiritual communities is primarily dumb ass women who don't know shit profiting off of their sexy looks while touting random new age garbage, and its the only thing keeping me going.There is nothing for me in the realm, and I'm done.
about 50mg of thc, 20mg melatonin and maybe 5 benedryl guess i didnt drink but i'm still a fuckup also i may be lactating
>>42620006>You are the people I connect with the most Embarassing. >My brother on the other hand is pretty similar to Clavicular, I told him about some existencial crisis I had and told me I should hook up with some freaky girlYour brother is right (in a sense). Get your shit together.
>>42620006Being alone is hard but being around other people is harder
we are not alone there are intelligent beings all around us
Being around other people is hard but being alone is wonderful.
>>42620006Music, it's the only thing that can quiet those thoughts. >>42620088no ammount of self improvement will save you from the void.>>42623775proof or cap.
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>>42620006Eventually you get used to solitude. Does this comfort you or frighten you? Going on decade three of having no friends.
>>42624015This.
