Did I choose all of this, this reality? If so why? It is all sick and twisted do I hate myself?
>>42624056>do I hate myself?Yes, good observation! Why would someone be born unless they hated themselves! But you might think it's as a punishment, but wouldn't it make more sense if it was a chance for change? If you hate yourself now, do what has to he done so that you don't hate yourself later!
>>42624624Also there is not a single>why?>becauseThings are quite complex, but the topic of this thread is an important part.
>>42624056Don't be so narcissistic. This isn't your doing, and there's nothing you can do.
I know your pain and confusion well. It's definitely complicated, but it's too much for us to fully comprehend with the minds we have. We can catch glimpses through feeling, but we cannot intellectualize it. After all, the bodies we inhabit are that of animals.The simplest way I've found to say this is why do we enjoy spicy food? It brings us pain and yet many people enjoy it. Maybe this is the spice of life as they say?Don't stop searching, may we find what we're looking for. Don't stay on one answer though, or else you'll be really lost.
>>42624665I would never choose to exist in a retarded hell world ever. Your analogy is retarded too because the vast majority of people only like "controlled"(by themselves)/"manageable"/"winnable" challenges, people like spicy food because its "controlled", "manageable", "winnable" (to the extent that you can even say its painful rather than an enhancement/pleasurable), pretty much nobody likes unmanageable, uncontrolled(by themselves), unwinnable pain or challenges, this world is the exact opposite about what people enjoy about "spicy food", this world is something entirely being imposed upon me that I have no control over or ability to defeat or manage whatsoever, its entirely an imposition of a hostile will upon me that I have no control over whatsoever
>what are subconscious choiceseducate yourself fool
>>42624854No such thing retard. You sound like a rapist>you wanted this subconsciously!!!You're a delusional tranny, nothing can justify your evil behavior
>>42624867>brings in rape out of nowhere>trannysomething you want to tell us?
>>42624873Ya you're a retarded sadistic rapist tranny nigger
>>42624907Those are some interesting thoughts given to you by your subconscious.
>>42624056Your use of the word “myself” proves you’re not god. A divine language would have no separation, so you are just a fallen schmuck.
>>42624056>Did I choose all of this, this reality?Unironically yes. You see the world is created through consciousness. What you believe literally comes true. You had the unfortunate fate to have no choice but to believe in a cruel world in which you suffer and thus you suffer. It's not easy to escape this, after all you believed this reality into existance because everything in existence led you to believe it was truly like this. You need to kill your ego, be positive in everything, force positivity, even believing in God, to swap yur current belief with a new believ and alter your reality.This is the purpose of Christianity, a reset button for if you find yourself believing in an evil world.
>>42624649>This isn't your doing, and there's nothing you can doBeing a prisoner if that is the case isn't fun, got to bust out of this joint even if you say I can't.>>42624994>you’re not godNever claimed to be one, I don't think you need to be one to end up here.>>42625032>ChristianityNot going towards a dead jew on a stick for a solution, seen how that works out for Christians it doesn't really they just end up deluded.