Anybody else have such unprompted moments that changed them forever, for good or bad, especially when they were children?I explicitly remember being a normal kid, with normal preoccupations and very studious. I loved to learn and do my homework, would not even get undressed when I got home. I'd drop my bag in the middle of the room and start homework right there and then. I loved school and wanted to be part of the world and becoming a contributing adult. Then one day, on one of the usual family trips, looking out the window of the car at the scenery, something distinctly happened. Either a veil lifted off, or on the contrary a veil slipped on - but suddenly it's like I gained understanding into the spiritual side of the world and how the only important things in life were the trees, the mountains and the sky I looked at. The spirit/god in them, the magic around us and how should dedicate my attention to the unseen side of life. And that ordinary life (with its grind, homework, social dynamics) became drab and insufficient. So yeah, that was the moment my personality changed significantly. Maybe I displayed signs before too but this was a distinct shift from where on I lost interest in school and the world around me and instead all I wanted to know more about was the spiritual, the paranormal, religions, cosmos, etc. I got labeled as too sensitive, too spaced out and dreamer at school and teachers even complained to my parents about that. Whenever I think about that moment I wonder - is that when my consciousness (or part of it) downloaded? From NPC I went to non-NPC? Or did I get zapped or possessed? My life has sucked terribly because of that change and I always think that I would have been a well adjusted and successful person had I not been taken over by that uncalled for, powerful shift in perspective and inexplicable longings that came out of nowhere, while doing something I did so many times before. I don't know what happened
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>>42639690Morron, you needed to do engineering/medicine/biology/physics as they have the understanding of the god Morron
I also have a memory about acquiring empathy. I think I was on the path to becoming full blown psycho/serial killer before that so I'm grateful it happened, though I'm also not sure how or what triggered it. Maybe it was indeed divine intervention, spirit or higher self meddling
>>42639690When I was looking at a photo album with my grandmother I had the impression that I was suddenly self-aware. I don't know if I really did become self-aware then or if I was daydreaming strongly and snapping out only felt like becoming self-aware or whatever but I suppose people have to become self-aware at some point.
I remember being on roller skates when I was a child, out at the end of my driveway, looking toward a hill further up the road. For whatever reason, that moment stuck in my memory so deeply, and I think it’s when I gained meta-awareness. As I saw it, I knew I’d remember it.Later in life, when I was 18, I remember driving to school one day listening to the album Something Else by The Kinks and being washed over with this feeling that I’d crossed a threshold into being an adult. I remember being so overwhelmed by the idea of getting married and having kids.The last experience I had like this was about 8 years after that. My mom was selling our family home, and as I was helping her pack it up, I remember sitting on the floor in front of a couch thinking, “I can always return here via memory.” Since then, it feels like I can load that moment up almost like a save state in a video game and relive my past in vivid detail.
>>42639690Had literally the same realization around 14 yo. But somehow it got mixed up with teen atheism, so i was in a strange state of mind - i was rejecting anything spiritual and yet was feeling it is out there. I coped this as some basic psychological stuff
