>Had a dream with my girlfriend, she was hugging me and we were warming each other up>Somehow a strong dispair hit, and I felt so much fear I started to scream>No voice was out in the dream, but then I woke up by my own voice>I was screaming like crazy, woke up my parents >My gf wasn't even home with me, she was sleeping on her house >After I woke up, I felt like I was in my own body, like a stranger withing my flesh. I could almost feel her with me still, or someone else there, like my conscience was floating inside my body. I could feel my body, see with both eye balls and fell the difference between my eyes' sight, I could feel my organs and myself breathing. When to a piss, felt like I was looking at another person. Every face looked distorted when I opened up YouTube and tried to go back to sleep.>Eventually it went away little by little, and I felt asleep feeling my body still but not as strongly.>Woke up again like nothing even happened.I remember a meditation a while back when God or my conscience told me I need to merge with a woman to achieve transmutation, hence why all my astral projections had failed before dating and having sex for the first time (with my current girlfriend)Now I've been having these experiences and now and then I wake up in a psychedelic state, which happened before but not at all this frequently and strongly. Should I try astral projection again? And how can I do it without failing once more. I've always failed feeling strong fear of the unknown, how do I loose it?Thanks
Sounds chell. How can I have weird psychotic APs like this?
