>have someone i haven't spoken to in almost 10 years>haven't been friends in 15>still have dreams about them a few times a year>never sexual, maybe romantic, but more .... im not sure. intimate? but without being sexual. I have never had sexual feelings about this person>almost without fail, a dream precedes seeing them in the flesh by a couple of days to a couple of weeks.>we lived in different parts of the state for years, so it happened to be when they are back visiting family >even when we lived close, never saw each other unless preceded by a dreamwhat the FUCK is up with this?
>>42694891>maybe romanticThat is how *it* starts. Just how *it* starts ... :p
>>42694891Anxiety dreams caused by your latent homosexuality. He’s not going to tongue your anus.
>>42694964it's about a woman. i 'had a crush' on her in middle school and it ruined our friendship. we're both single and on completely different life paths. she either doesn't think of me or hates me, both are justified. its just fucking weird with the coincidence of the sightings.
>>42695079just stop thinking about her holy shit. do it before you end up killing somebody.
just times your brain just does that to fuck with you, these what ifs.
>>42694891Doesn't mean shit, lad. I still have dreams about my middleschool/early highschool friends, and I'm ancient.Not paranormal, just your brain reliving and reinventing your feelings and memories.
>>42695776how do you explain the summoning?
>>42694891There are intelligent forces capable of a) controlling various elements of your dreams b) mind controlling you and/or that person to contrive a meeting after making you dream of them.
>>42695079>it ruined our friendship
>>42697198well 'friendly acquaintanceship'. friends is too strong a word.>>42697153but why? to torture us both?
>>42697946If their aim was torture without any other constraints, then my lived experience would be very different. My working model is they have the powers I described, but there must be costs or limitations to their use, so they try to leverage them into more mundane methods of control e.g. deceiving people into zealotry, extremism, sexual excess, etc. which they can then use to opportunistically try to achieve one of their aims. I don't think they're expressly interested in human interaction for amusement, because once again I have to imagine my lived experience would be different. They actively try to obfuscate their methods and the scope of their powers, which in my experience takes the form of suggesting that an effect was achieved in an alternative way, e.g. your chance meeting is the result of nonstandard time perception rather than contrived through mind control.
>>42694891What's this woman doing now with her life?
>>42698919I should add moralizing to the list of control tactics I've experienced.
>>42698955I think she's still in school. She's always been the academic type. I try to avoid her.>>42698919I've started keeping a journal of these events, and my dreams generally to keep track. I suspect I'm just misjudging time, and that these events are actually far less frequent or unusual than I had thought.
>>42699478This is interesting to me because I feel I 've had a sort of similar situation. Is the woman local to the area you're living from or from somewhere else? And has at least one of your parents been an alcoholic?
>>42699478kk retard, I will start keeping a journal of every claim you rewrite or forgwt about
>>42695079> it's about a woman.Lol. You’re so far in the closet you’re in Narnia.
Assume your tongue is buried deep in her anus and it will happen.
>>42694891>>42699605This poster is right OP, (you) are GAY. The only way to reverse course now is to have LOTS of ANAL SEX with MEN.
>>42699599what? I'm not sure what you mean>>42699570i mean those are both fairly common, no?
>>42699690Well, pick something less common then, because I'm comparing similarities. So far the timeline in the OP post sounds very familiar.
>>42699709what? you're the one who asked the question? are you both of the posts im responding to?familiar in what way? As a trope? I've never posted my specific story here but I can imagine other people experiencing the same thing.
>>42699605>>42699613>>42699665of course, everyone on here has to be a faggot, especially op. I am bisexual, but I've never felt crush like feelings for men, only sexual. I've been sexually and romantically interested in women to a much greater degree. maybe 70/30?
>>42699747No I'm not the schizo spamming about this being gay or whatever, I just asked the situational questions. Not familiar as a trope, I mean the lengths of time and general situation also very similarly match up to someone I have not spoken to in about an equal length of time. I just want more information on your circumstances to compare. Obviously not anything doxable though. Hell, give me yours or the other persons initials.
>>42699777she's a local. I'm pretty sure my mother was an alcoholic, though she doesn't talk about it much. I'm curious about your situation too. Can you expand a little?
>>42699777another strange question for you: what was the last book you bought at a physical bookstore?
>>42699837Art of war kek. My situation has some creepy similarities to yours but a few differences too I guess.
>>42699846like what? did she move away too? what is she studying?
>>42699858Mine's from the opposite perspective. I've had a weird sense for the same length of time as in the OP that this guy was trying to reach out to me. Met in middle school also, and it's been 15-16 yrs since then as well.
>>42699866as in he liked you? did you ever return his feelings? I know mine didn't. This isn't an attempt to contact anyone. I know I can't reach her, i wouldn't even if i could. I just wish I had been nicer all those years, that i wasn't.... t he way I was. I probably made her feel terrible, awkward, confused..... I feel horrible guilt even though I know she doesn't even think of me.how are you doing now? have you ever tried to contact him? or do you feel trapped?
>>42699903What did you do that made your person feel so bad?>how are you doing now? have you ever tried to contact him? or do you feel trapped?No, but he did try to contact me at least at one point that I know of, on an account that was not linked to any of my other ones so he must have gone out of his way to find it, saying I was his best friend which was kinda bizarre to me. I don't feel trapped but it's just unsettling when I can sense someone has me on their mind
>>42699929jeez that is weird. I think I tried to add her on one of my real accounts once. she declined the request LOLI was just a creepy 12 year old who didnt know how to express myself, and I was just generally really, really, really embarrassing.I feel horrible for still thinking about her.>for still feeling guilt>for being creepy>feeling guilt about thinking about it therefore feeling creepyI think I have OCD unironicallyIt's a shame, while we do have different personalities, we have quite a few mutual friends even still. I think it would have been for the best if I had contained myself and not let it get awkward. I drove her away after she gave me a second and even third chance.It would be at least nice to not feel this way anymore. I fear it wont be resolved. do you remember what you spoke about last? or has he even been able to speak?
>>42699954and when I say it's bad, I dropped electives in highschool to avoid being in the same class as her, especially ones where I felt more 'out of place' or like it'd be weird/creepy for me to be there as well, despite having a legit interest in the subject. I also had plans to attend the same college as her (coincidence) but realized I wouldn't be able to avoid running into her so I decided not to go and take a gap year to make sure we were staggered. I never ended up going to college. It's not entirely because of her of course, but it was a major part. I hope she never finds this out. I always admired her because she was kind and intelligent, not like memorizing books smart, but the type of person who actually seemed interested in learning and knowledge itself. I remember it seemed like we really connected on an intellectual level. And she was kind to me at probably one the worst points in my life, when imo i was not deserving of even half of it.
>>42699954>It would be at least nice to not feel this way anymore. I fear it wont be resolved.Do a cordcutting ritual, maybe even do it a couple of times. It's basically an exercise in imagination so you dont need supplies for it>do you remember what you spoke about last? or has he even been able to speak?No idea, it was too long ago.
>>42700003can i ask what your education is? anything in a science field, at least partially?
>>42700013don't worry, if somehow this is C, I will not attempt to contact you. Do not even try to contact me electronically. If we are to see each other you will initiate in person. I will avoid you openly however.
ok i realize my questions might be too exact. Any else you'd like to share? I'm going to try doing the ritual you spoke about, I've tried similar things in the past but i don't really believe in magic much.For the record, this is 100% NOT the type of person who would ever be on 4chan, let alone /x/. She's in law school and probably doesn't have time.
I was living in TX and hooked up with a hippie girl when I was in CA. Had a random dream about her and texted her. She happened to be in TX at the time.Dreams are weird and you gotta listen to them.
>>427001731. I am not interested in starting contact with her. If she wants to speak to me she can drive back and stop me some time. 2. I don't even know what the dreams are telling me, besides that she occupies too much of my mind at times. I might even be mind fucking myself into thinking more about it by even giving it attention3. I'm never going to move upstate and she's not going to come back down to bumfuckville to be a lawyer lmao. We're probably never going to see each other again outside of maybe a highschool reunion (which I will likely not even attend) next year. By the time either of us are married or have kids it'll go away. I just hope I didn't do anything that permanently scarred her.
if the woman who said she had a similar situation is still here lurking.1. I'm pretty sure you're not her. Trust me. I just know.2. If you are, my negative feelings here are not your fault. >>42700000 You did not cause them. I have a family and personal history of mental illness. I would have spiraled out regardless. 3. Do not get sucked into thinking about the guy in your situation. If you're happy ignoring him, do so. Do not try to project my feelings on his and start to feel guilt over it.4. I do not feel this constantly. I stopped vaping recently and it's brought back a lot of mental stress in my life. This is just one of the straws. It's the most absurd but not the most painful. It's part of a whole series of angst and feelings of being a bad person.5. I really hope that you've healed from your experience and he has from his. If it's anything like mine, you're moreso the victim here. Don't forget that. Do not feel guilt over the feelings of silly men. Unless you are actually being a bitch.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vSRzCOEnY4Q"Not relived by thoughts of Shangri-LaNor enlightened by the lessons of ChristI'll never understand the meaning of the rightIgnorance lead me into the light"Hope this hasn't been scary or triggering in any way. Have a good life. :)
holy shit this dude might actually be crazy
