Or will I spend the rest of my life clueless about what's really going on in the shadows of the lives of ppl around me and my life and why it is the way it is. And what's going on on the other side. I hate this no I don't want secret knowledge or something just a explanation and how to fix everything would be fine. I don't know what to do. I'm scared and sad. I feel like something terrible happened and I was set up and deceived and others are having a hard time because of it and why did my dad make such a sad hopeless face while he was drinking his coffee recently. I don't know why I do certain things I just want to block out all the psychic energy and not have my will messed with, like spending years ldar on phone watching bad stuff, idk why I did that, that's not what I wanted to do, it felt like I was being oppressed and pushed. I just want an explanation and to block out the influences. I do not consent to any rules or agreements by using this site.
>>42742117We're just playing for fun, "you"'ll remember when "you" want to x)
>>42742117Have you tried asking them?
>>42742117Life can be hard. Some believe the struggles we face in life are a kind of education for the soul.The other side is not overly concerned with our development as individual souls. They intervene sporadically, at best, and with very little compassion to offer. Not because they are "bad" but because our lives do not facilitate a perfectly clean signal. You are being oppressed and pushed; many people are. The explanation would be that some entities and egregore are looking for human attention as some sort of resource. I don't always see it as an awful evil thing, but there are growing pains both physical and spiritual, for sure. Blocking out the influences can be difficult, since for the mind you are like a sponge in downpour. The water will moisten you eventually, but you have a great deal more say than the world would have you believe. My advice to go on a mission of reclaiming personal sovereignty, and that means not feeling the need to defined by others expectations nor bent to their will without proper discernment. Clean your living space, log off social media, and greatly curate the media you allow into your eye spheres.
>>42742178They just mock or gaslight or something else. Though biggest issue right now is to find some source of income that pays in cash that isn't touching ppl, so can at least afford an old ~$5000 car and a gym membership to not go around strange ppl at a shelter. It's funny I know I have lots of money in my spiritual bank but how am I supposed to access it, it would solve many problems. >>42742214I know my ancestors despise me because I'm not godly enough or whatever bc they're Christian. And that a few spirits have been messing with me or just watching me for years. I think my total lack of schedule and focus and dedication to something pissed everyone off but honestly sorry I got massive brain damage a few years ago and was prevented from getting help for it and have been mkulta'd and spiritually oppressed for years IDK how they expect me to get anything done with no protection or guidence or ability to have my own will not be yanked around. Yeah I don't go online much anymore and try to keep stuff clean. But at this point I have to leave soon because they're literally spiritually cannibalizing me everyday.
>>42742117Are you a follower of Lilith?
>>42742262>They just mock or gaslight or something else.Then it's not worth your attention or worry.>I have to leave soon because they're literally spiritually cannibalizing me everyday.No one can do that without your express permission, dead or alive, our world or other world. Contemplate how you've offered that permission, and revoke it. Direct your energy towards a goal like improving your surroundings. Cleaning's a great way to accomplish that, as the other anon stated. Even a little bit will still add up over time. Stick with it.
>>42742290No. I want to believe in Jesus or some other good or neutral being. But ik some female perv demon has been looshing me for years now and I just want her to leave me alone I even stopped doing all inappropriate things. I got exposed to porn as a child and that either makes you repulsed or obsessed with it, and I just watched too much inappropriate things maybe that's why it latched onto me. I stopped watching all bad things in my late 20s. Naturally I am not really a sexual person, without the psychic influences of porn or modern music with strange spells in it. My libido tanked as soon as I stopped listening to music and watching porn and that just confirmed my theory that this sexual female energy was being forced on me all this time. I don't even like men I like women but never did anything with them bc I knew it was wrong. I even got a bf to try to be straight. Sorry I might stare at some big boobas from time to time irl but that's it. >>42742303I know how I offended it, some was my will and some was being forced to offer it, but I don't know how to stop it. I had a thought put in my head that I have to donate to multiple charities like Alzheimer's and was forced to want it somehow and donate, then oppressed to not ask for a refund until the past due date passed. Maybe that's why? Or when I was convinced to curse myself by lighting incense and saying some lines "eat but do not work take but do not give, what will I eat what will I wear" and using some crystals. I just know they convinced and forced me to do some ultra karma curse on myself. And I was puppeted to ask "help me manifest" when I made an altar to some Rhiannon goddess, how do I undo all of that? They mkultra mind control or use witchcraft or something on me for years to ruin my life. If I sleep at night it gets much worse. How do I revoke permission and get them to stop influencing me? And sorry but no I can't stay here anymore I'll be eaten up.
>>42742469Hmm yes yes sounds like you have a bad case of..... egoism! uhhhhnngg again?!
>>42742469You share a similar name, so I assumed you were familiar with her. I'm sorry. You can find some of your answers now with Lilith, but the good beings will reveal everything... in the end.
>>42742564Not interested in her. And let me guess those beings only reveal the truth in order to punish you for things you did in ignorance.
>>42742117I got answers. It was and is mostly pain. Focus on being a good person.
>>42742582Okay, no Lilith then.Yea, after the lecture, they'll tell you that you failed the test.I hope you find the answers you need soon.
>>42742632I was trying to but they were trying to invert me.>>42742670Great I love tests what was my test, don't get revenge, learn hard work and patience? Am I allowed to know what terrible things I may or may not have done in ignorance or forced?
>>42742670Am I allowed to kill myself now then.
>>42742469>I don't even like men I like women but never did anything with them bc I knew it was wrong. I even got a bf to try to be straight. Sorry I might stare at some big boobas from time to time irl but that's it.Lol, a lesbian femanon.
>>42742899No.Killing yourself only repeats the cycle until you either descend or ascend.You must figure it out or be forever lost.You can do it.We are waiting for you.
>>42742875You love tests? You passed that part of the test then. The test is usually "were you a good person for yourself or the collective", and your past mistakes will be revisited in your dreams; however, this still has shadows covering the truth, so be careful.>>42742899You have to stare at big boobs for saying this.
>>42744252What's funny about that?
>>42744537Idk, seems like a meme.
Firstly you have to stop having fear talk to yourself with your voice and repeat loud enough for you to hear "I am not afraid" this is a battle against your mind you have to do it for some days, start the day you feel better with yourself and try to cling on that feeling do your best to not back up, remember to not back up not even once until you feel the real change.Fight your mind with courage and motivation.
>>42742303>>42742469>I don't know how to stop itMindfulness. You must find a quiet place to reflect where you feel safe and will not be bothered, whether that might be a quiet place in the park, a closet, or even a blanket fort will do. Mindfulness has some complexity due to the fact that you must allow your thoughts to surface while observing them without attachment. You have to let them go with the same ease as when they arrive to you. Slow, deep, methodical breathing is key here. If you find yourself straying, return to your breath. Ebb and flow.Try it for 5 minutes. If you're able to do five minutes, try 10. If you're able to do ten, do 15. When you think you have the hang of it, you are ready to reflect on where your energy is directed. Do you feel it leaving you, or is it still within you? What happens to that energy when you bring your attention to yourself? What else do you notice about the energy?
I'm not meditating to let them have more influence over me and not I'm not falling for the looshing demon worshipping grift. Leave me alone. You think this is ALL about good vs evil christian vs demoniacs, that's why I don't want to join any of your cults and don't like things like trannyism? It's not. I never had any issues with other religions as long as they didn't try to forcibly/deceptively convert me or kill me, and weren't totally objectively evil or bad for society as a whole (sterilizing children and making them lifelong med patients who probably will kms is bad for society, surprise, you cannot argue against this). I went after them because no one was doing anything about these people messing up society and hurting youth, I don't care that some graped ftm who just did it out of trauma, I care about groomers getting away with grooming. And I ranted about dudes to let go of some anger towards male family and to hold up a mirror to mens faces of how they treat women, by treating them how they treat women, because it seems like they needed that mirror. But some of you satanists did try to forcibly convert me to your religion, don't even lie and pretend you didn't, doing it coverty and scheming is even worse than just holding a gun up to someone and saying "convert or die" because you don't even give them a choice. You satanists are worse than any forcibly converting and invading muslim in that regard, for all your whinging of "I love free will let me do whatever I want".
>>42745581Meditation isn't satanic. On the contrary Jesus also meditated. In any case, I wish you well and hope you get the help you deserve.
>>42745581cont. This is why religions are more popular than your niche looshing demon worshipping cults. You don't offer anything of value other than personal power for personal gain and hurting innocents (or I guess you would call them not innocent according to your karma ideology, but if someone doesn't know what they did in a past life then how can they be held accountable for it in this life? Why do you think you have any authority or say in punishing people you deem as evil who may or may not be evil, according to some book you have? Especially if they personally don't believe in karma based ideology). You're almost all the same and this is why chrisitanity and judaism and islam is much more popular than your cults. I know you tried to invert me by harassing me into hating people, and to deceive me into trying to join you by surrounding me for years and asking me to help you. And when I found out you deceived me into cursing myself so that no one will help me by setting up situations where you trick me to help you in an incorrect way, and by trying to literally kill me or force me to forget your schemes. You disgust me. That's all. This has nothing to do with religion, you just disgust me with your tactics and what you've tried to do to me. The time for being kind and helpful is over, clearly being christlike only works if you're only surrounded by other christians and there's no racists and demoniacs around to abuse you and deceive you. Clearly abrahamic religions need to remind you people why we killed witches for 99% of history. It wasn't because of different religion, it was what most of you people get up to with that voodoo knowledge.
>>42745581Find a good place to meditate and clear your mind. If you are meditating near the demons, you'll end up worse than before.>>42745620>you deceived me into cursing myselfAre you still cursed?
>>42742117When I looked at the thumbnail of this image, I thought it was a gorilla wearing a white t-shirt.
>>42742117What goes on in the shadows doesn’t matter. What matters is how you treat people and how you help them.
>>42742290fucking cringe dude
>>42745896I'm done helping people time for extermination of pests, you can only help and build when there are no pests buzzing around distracting you and hurting you. No one came to save me from them even after 7 years and even when I was obedient and kind I was still being hurt and used. You don't get a kind helper.
>>42745896>how you treat people and how you help them.The first nigger or indian or middle easterner or native I'm coming across in an isolated dark place, I'm killing. It seems like violence is the only way to make non whites and demoniacs stop harassing whites, even when they invite them to immigrate to 1st world white countries they still hate and want to hurt whites. >>42745899These succubi need a good holy water smack to make them back off. How convenient they modified my internet results so I can't buy holy water and gangstalked me to church and made it so I can't get communion at my regular church. >>42745856>Are you still cursed?No I figured out how to mitigate it via normal actions just have to finish plan. >>42745856>and clear your mindYou demoniacs just want to make me as dumb as possible in case I go to heaven and report to God what you people did and you get punished. No, trying to make me follow the rules won't work I'll just leave illegally and kill non whites to make them back off and find some under the counter work. You used rules to hurt me all my life now deal with it. Call me a retarded animal all you like it's not going to change anything, any of you racists and demoniacs would have killed yourselves 5x faster in my shoes. You're the retarded animals for thinking you can get away with something like this.
>>42744590That doesn't make sense.Also it's hilarious how apparently I'm getting finger wagged for fighting, when I didn't know sh%tposting was wrong, and you sh&tskins and deomainiacs literally put in conscious effort for years to try to sabotage and hurt and use and invert me in real life, doing things in real life with real life consequences, not just yapping online. >erm sweetie we're forcibly scamming you out of the pocket money you have left on you, and hurting you and stealing energy and cannibalizing your brainpower now because you pirated books and shows and games, deal with itAlmost everyone pirates those things, I stopped a long while ago after I realized it was wrong, and even started leaving likes on yt vids I'd watch. If you want me to pay for them fair enough, I would, if you'd let me, and not literally try to cannibalize me and kill me. Which is it? Do you want to kill me or do you want to use me? You can't have both. And you can't steal my money either because my dad took it temporarily to ensure you can't steal it. Make up your mind already you disgust me you sh&tskins and demoniacs, not because of what you are, but because of what you personally done to me based on your ideology of race and/or religion. I never had issues with other races or religions, you wanted all of this dumb theatre and not let me live a normal life, not even as a hermit away from people, because you staged so many bad experiences for me, and because all those years I just stayed in bed I was being oppressed by something that make me feel like I wanted to die. And then later years where I was only given work opportunities where you weirdos forced your presence on me, and where the work environment triggered my sensory issues, and where was constantly sabotaged during work by you weirdos, and was made to help or serve you weirdos at those min wage jobs... really any opportunities you people give me is just to hurt and use me and you wonder why I don't like you.
>>42747278cont. My parents, my bosses, some of my teachers... lies hidden agendas pimping hurting sabotaging using - I never had any issues with authority or doing orders, you people did that to yourselves to make me mistrust authority. I have no issues following someone that pays me what I'm owed, doesn't hurt or yell or pimp me, and gives clear instructions and doesn't give me jobs where my sensory issues get in the way. Anyway you want to know why I did nothing much for years? You try being constantly bullied and sabotaged by invisible forces and not just wanting to ldar until you die. You want me to give up, ok, I'll leave the country and you'll never see me again and we can both pretend that I gave up and died and we can go on with our lives separately, happily ever after. I'm not your mary I'm not your jesus I'm not your hitler I'm not your sacrifice or your leader, stop trying to control and force or groom me. The bible says have a normal life and don't draw attention to yourself, and I'd like to do that, because that's good practical advice by wise people, not just because it's the Bible.
>>42747317And I'm not your whore or lion or beast or tranny or any other idol you try to force me to be. If you want something so bad go become or do it yourself. If you non physical beings just left me alone and no one hurt me or forced me to study things I didn't like or was bad at, I would have turned out to be a normal productive person who just became a artist or something. How about instead of forcing your wills on others and twisting their lives by going I WANT I WANT I WANT you look deep inside yourself and question why you can't just be content with a normal life and accept that some things in life are just off limits, and to stop getting in the way of people doing their duty or having a normal life.
Ah, humanity's need for meaning and our inability to find it. Beware of those who say they hold the answers you seek, for no one truly knows what this is all about. Yet you can still find your own truth, if you dare. Walk amongst the trees; maybe they will spill some secrets to you. Take care, my friend
>>42747123You should find a peaceful place so you can report me without any interruptions. You'll probably get a lead to what you're looking for by doing a good deed. You can sacrifice me.
>>42747419>Beware of those who say they hold the answers you seekI don't trust them anyways, they usually just lie to get what they want, unless it's something practical or from my experience or math why should I believe it? As if any actual secret knowledge is easily accessible, or accessible but doesn't take a decade or more to master? But at the end of the day maybe they should actually teach me right and wrong and what to do and not do, first, if they want to punish me for mistakes.
>>42747495You can't report me and you can't sacrifice me. Stfu and gtfo.
>>42747503Okay, let the "demoniac" speak. If you think getting rid of me is going to make your life better, go ahead and do it. You are more important than me.
>>42747513>speakYou've done enough to me where I don't want your "we're neutral watchers" spiel, bc I know it isn't true you're hardcore schemers and saboteurs for your demons. >If you think getting rid of me is going to make your life better, go ahead and do it. All you ppl have to do is leave me alone and stop trying to invert me and I wouldn't have to do that? You started this. >You are more important than me.Ok then I use that supposed importance to declare that all demoniacs and racists will stay away from me and my family and friends and coworkers and will not scheme against me/them or do spells on me/them. Also I renounce and cancel any consent or agreement I ever made with demoniacs or demons, and I reject demons, demoniacs, and satan. I renounce all the times I was ever tricked into helping a demoniac or racist and I reject and renounce any witchcraft I ever did. I reject all beings and people that try to forcibly influence my will through witchcraft and mkultra, and they can no longer use witchcraft or mkultra on me. No one can touch my body without my verbal agreement immediately beforehand. I reject and renounce everything evil I've ever written or said. I reject and banish all evil beings from my body and home. And I reject and renounce all the times I ever gave to charity, that wasn't my own will, and they should give that money back. And I ask God to please help me leave the country safely so they stop hurting my head, and to be able to do my supposed duty of marrying and having a child, and help undoing all the bad things I was tricked or forced into doing.
>>42747905I'll leave you alone then. Do you need me to remove any curses or demons from you before I go?Good night.Good luck.
>>42747956>Do you need me to...As if your types would ever do that in good faith, even when I wasn't christian your types just lied and hurt me and tried to use me. Your types just fight over whose demon gets to use my voice, not even permission asked. >good luckF off with your mockery. Trying to steal someones hand or heart or head isn't ok or funny.
>>42742117yes i will explainhitler was a plantour current century began in 1940god left earth because we made him no dwellingbut our continuity is promisedand our peoplehood will schoolin 15 years from now the century will turn againit is foretold bereshit derives to gods fire in the 59th tikkunimgods fire is collective justice for invadersgods fire sees scattering as evilgods fire will burn the serpents garments from adamthe luminous radiance isnt goneits hidden
