I was bullied over being 'weird' and 'ugly' growing up so I ended up chasing this conventional idea of beauty and normalcy Obviously I can't reach it. The only girls who have shown me any interest are alt girls but they pretty much represent this mirror I resfuse to stare atI don't want to be a 'weirdo' I wish I could just fit in and be normal but I can't Do you guys have similar experiences?
>>42810033eat until youre 300 lbs and jump off a bridge
>>42810033By accepting harder I guess? You literally have girls willing to love you but you are judging them by projection, for the very same traits you self judge and hate yourself for. But these girls, did you truly hate them? Or were some of them nice people just with a different style. Some girls dress in Japanese or K styles, do you judge them too? Does a style of clothing really have anything to do with being weird? And lots of people pull weird off. You've just associated an alt style with being ugly and being bullied. Lots of people who dress like that have never been bullied. So work on your feels around thinking you are ugly, what ugly even has to do with weird, who told you they were ugly, and were they just cunts putting people down to feel better? Sometimes we give too much attention to the bad things people tell us and not enough on the compliments. Focus on the good aspects of yourself. And I suppose find something cool or respectable about being weird, so that even if you believe you are that label you don't have a judgement about it.
I’m a girl btw.
>>42810273Thank you, that's true. As for the girls themselves they were nice and really kind to me and thoughtful. The issue would be they had a lot of emotional problems and trauma, one of them was bullied and treated as a misfit by her peers too. She did accept herself way more than I did, even her therapist asked her if she dressed like a vampire for a specific reason. She wasn't really afraid of expressing herself through fashionI think I did see that as a negative, when it really wasn't, it was my own judgement because I don't seem to be able to accept myself. One of those girls told me that my self-hatred is what pushes people away, that the more they love me the more I hate myself and I agree with itI am really sorry for causing that much harm, I really hope I can accept this side of myself one day>>42810087Good image
>>42810352>Waiter, my lobster is too buttery and my steak is too juicy!
your not ugly just fat. werid?alt girl being normal. very big doubt. embrace your self and be you but don';t act hostile but caution and softness carefully with only people you want in your circle and those people you are soft with DO NOT PRAY ON the. life it self will get better
Lean in to being a weirdo. The world does not need more "normal" bland people, there are enough of those soulless wage slave creatures.
Most young people are a bit ugly until they hit their mid 20s and their face fully forms and body. Which is why women generally go for older men. Get a few prostitutes.Casual sex is basically crack to good looking people.
