>>42916357
Have you ever been happy in your life?

>>42916357
>>42916374
I'm so mentally fucked at this point, I honestly don't know. The material world has always felt like it isn't real or a thousand miles away, even when I'm in it. Nothing conventional has helped me so far in my life, so here I am, looking for answers in this occult shit.

>>42916357
Find god

>>42916414
Well, to feel happy you need to start fixing your mental problems.
It's short-lasted, though, last time I was happy, it was for about 5 seconds.

>>42916357
Your chart implies that you should be an easy going person that might be more emotional than you'd like to be. A light hearted person that probably needs to refind the joy in simple things. The occult knowledge you seek could be that you've been trying to see so far and read so much into your life that you are missing the happiness that is right in front of you. Gemini, pisces, water and a Capricorn moon that probably makes you feel guilty for not analyzing everything to death when you do allow yourself to have fun. You can keep your eyes on the deeper things while enjoying more mundane pleasures if you allow it to just happen as it comes.

>>42916357
Joy and relief are often conflated and only one is truly nourishment for your soul.
However, someone suffering as much as you could benefit from either so listen up.

Relief is a brief reprieve from self-discipline. A dessert is only truly bliss when breaking up the mundanity of a healthy diet.
Going to the freezer for ice cream everyday begets diminished returns and no relief because there is nothing to relieve yourself from any longer.
If you struggle finding relief, it may be that you've abused your usual avenues of relief such that they've become baseline and thus cease to function as relief.

Joy ought to be the goal but let's make it a stretch goal for the truly weary.
These are the things that move you beyond mere escapism or relief.
The things that gain your attention with rewards that lie outside the material.
The warm feeling you get from what is, rather than the relief of escaping what once was.

>>42916357
Your Gemini Sun wants to be free and happy but your Capricorn moon will not be satisfied unless you accomplish things. Escapism will not help you. This includes drugs and alcohol. You need to find the correct level of assertiveness in life. Control your temper. Socially/verbally attacking people is unhelpful

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>>42918337
Thank you