Listen, I'm a simple person, I just want a state of existence with which I am voluntarily content with, there have been records of people doing magical shit like Grant Morrison's probability manipulation or those explorers who meet teleporting monks in east asia that have some influence on physical phenomenon and I just want to participate in the supernatural, actually do something that doesn't require too much materialistic actions from me that exhaust me (like chanting words until I run out of air, cumming on scribbles and doing some meditation rituals that are basically self-induced hallucinations), hell I even tried taking a medicine every week and I failed immediately on the first week even tho taking the medicine was the only consistent routine I set myself for>This isn't some new age slop! Just trust the spirit/soul/mind/true self/meta-narrative/belief/ideal/process!See this is what I hear the most, it's always someone trying to force their notion of truth without actually contributing to anyone and if I'm noticing it isn't practical or has no results for me than I'm getting labeled as evil, dumb, selfish, oppressive or childish for just not trusting someone who is supposed to promise me help but just keeps exploiting me with promises for my input. >Quit being selfish! Desire is the root of all suffering! Just hopemaxx!This selfishness doesn't just apply to me, it also applies to those in need, it's like child abuse when you think about it. Besides, isn't in every waking moment where you exist in motion with the intent of achieving a result, you are driven by desire towards a result?
>>43079308>This interpretation of these ancient text says otherwise! Suffering is the root of all greatness! One must imagine Sisyphus happy!There are so many interpretations of all those ancient woo-woo texts that you end up wasting time just to be informed of their contents only to enter another room in a neverending labyrinth searching for an answer, no human mind can read and fully understand every book written in civilization. This applies to stuff like Qigong, you keep searching for the right position, motion and breathing to feel something inside of you but there's nothing so you keep correcting it until you find something but there's just so many actions to choose from which are all wrong/impractical. I find it baffling that people keep asking me when I usually wake up or go to sleep because how am I supposed to know? The time is always gonna be different, I can't control when I wake up or go to sleep, what am I supposed to do if I can't do anything about it? By admitting that children aren't innocent or innocence doesn't matter one admits their denial (or failure) of ethics>Kys lolAll roads that lead to physical death involve suffering of not just me but others as well, besides you never know if you will be punished for it by some unknowable force governing existence that made you live to begin with
>>43079310With that being said, say that there is some transcendental force that shapes reality, nobody really controls it or knows it to it's fullest, matter of fact I'd say that a lot of spiritual phenomenon is purely cognitive perception and if you do see something like in the DMT trips (or dreams cuz DMT causes those too), it's very likely that it's an illusion to play you like a puppet in their cosmic play, hell in dreams I get robbed of my freedom of choice and when I am conscious I reflect back on the scenery and realize how moronic and disturbing it is (even symbolically), it also explains why God conceptually is a mystery who can't be truly expressed or described and that includes it's ineffability which is a conception which furthers the idea that God is truly a mystery. It's like a character in a tale trying to reach out to the storyteller, the storyteller may put themselves in the tale with the character but the character and tale will never truly interact.I want a solution, not to be the bottom of some eldritch horror's fractal humiliation ritual.You may now begin the "ermmm... Acktually you are illiterate OP so quit being a faggot" thread
Oh I should also mention solipsists are massive retards lmao, you made me to call you a retard yet you are the only god that thinks of reality where anything bad happened to you, sure buddy.
>>43079312>I want a solutionWell...there isnt one. Not for you, sorry.This stuff takes ambition, sincerity, and dedication.You cant even regulate and control yourself to have a steady time when you sleep.Just...the best for you is to not bother with any of it and go about your day.It's like you are complaining that you want to have a career in professional sports, but not - you know - have to do any exercise.you're not illiterate or bad. you just dont have what it takes.that's fine.Why do you want to mess with this stuff?
>>43079944>Why do you want to mess with this stuff?Because I am sick of aimlessly wandering through the mundane without significantly entertaining myself, hell even shit like therapy has done nothing but fail me, I can't even fucking kill myself because morons with power insist that I must needlessly suffer even more to have a chance at growing to become a functioning individual despite the fact I never could with the open environment they conditioned me to and my own desires to do something simple like entertain myself or Just try to lock me up in an incompatible environment that all these shitty neoliberal institutions offer with their CBT that leads nowhere but to receiving the short end of a stick.What benevolent god does this? Why make me notice and conceive all these wonders just to send me to the cuckchair and starve? It's not fair. Why could I never have blossomed or been conditioned to be raised by something like an environment or caretaker to make me compatible with the cruelty and adversity of nature?Shorter answer: Imagine being strapped on a conveyor belt that is headed towards guaranteed oblivion and every action and inaction just leads towards it, and the closer you get the more painful it will get with everything you see and know surrounding you being desirable yet ultimately unobtainable.
>>43080347>I am sick of aimlessly wandering through the mundaneYour responses do not show this. You very much look like you want to bring mundanity into everything.>What benevolent god does this?One that gives you what you desired, despite knowing how you will not like it.>Why make me notice and conceive all these wondersNo one is making you. You can shut your brain off if you want.>Why could I never have blossomed or been conditioned to be raised by something like an environment or caretaker to make me compatible with the cruelty and adversity of nature?Previous events did not make that happen.Why didnt you work for such compatibility like the successful people who went through adversity did?
>>43080502>You want to bring the mundaneTrust me, it feels quite extraordinary when you do some art, I used to but I just couldn't handle it>God gave you what you desiredWhy would I desire to live a life desiring only to realize suffering and oblivion are the best for me.>No one is making you sufferI don't want to lobotomize myself, I fear I may still be conscious and aware on some level, I doubt there's a method to turn off my brain that's accessible to me>Why didn't you work?Because I never could, It was just too exhausting for me to manage, the conflict grinds me out and I never achieved itI was aware of this like 5-6 years ago and still I couldn't prevent it, there's just no evidence that God is truly benevolent, not to me at least. God hates and his hate manifests through the friction I cannot endure and adapt to.
