I'm 200% sure that my manic schizo self is my true self
>>43153913And I think I got a headcat. Cool, huh?
>>43153943Ah yes. Toxoplasmosis.
>true self>try to drawn mine>its always changing>from inside and outside forcesI'm feel actual demons play with our thoughts and chances as tetris so I am not sure. Unless I could completly create a void maybe I can't be sure of anything.Everything is scary, sometimes I play with idea that being a energy from another universe inside a human soul, body, mind I can still play with my sphere of control but always see other beings watching me since always, some seems to have an interest in absorb me and is really scaryPlaying with thought-energy-data matter is the most fun thing ever, of course they are better than me
You think I’m pretty good with the dice?
>>43153913Hi grimes God Chan here
>>43154585I was trying to write everything down but the illuminati fried my computersEverything feels connected, and the more I notice it the more I am harrased>void=subaru>emilia=uv lights one of my character test/my indigo soul>dream of Roswaal L. Mathers looking alike wanting to buy my soul devices>rezero=fzero testsI could write and write much more and explain but it's always the same, more harrasmentDon't doubt real demons play with our feelings since kidshttps://youtu.be/tDwQseKxqT4https://youtube.com/shorts/M0bloZvHgCo
correct. everything else is mesh holding your oozing brilliance back from ruining your simulated social life
>>43154585>try to drawn mineSorta relevantTried to draw a self portrait earlier today. LolI think you shouldnt hate yourself for being unstable
I would really like you if you were someone else now let me break you and completely rewrite and rewire your brainAlso everything you enjoy by yourself should be a show for us otherwise you are not a real person
>>43155031>archon trolling random anonShouldn’t you be at some Halloween party in Las Vegas? Which party was that again?
>>43153913Mercury: In folk magic, common clover (Trifolium) is most frequently ruled by Mercury and tied to the element of Earth. Because Mercury rules communication, the mind, and the lifting of illusions, the occult virtue of the clover was believed to grant the user "True Sight."
>>43153913In the sense that it’s what you would ultimately be without medication, sure. But it most likely got that way from trauma, it’s not what you would be if you hadn’t suffered to the point of mental breakdown in the past. It’s not who you would have been with a better life. More importantly, why would you want it to be you? Why would you want to be extremely egotistical, delusional, detached from reality. It’s embarassing, your perception of the world is flawed and yet you think you have it all figured out and that everything you think is profound and divine. When I got on my pills, and thought back on what I was like, read the things I had written, I was filled with regret, shame, embarrassment, and anger. It feels great to experience manic psychosis. You feel incredibly good about yourself, you think you’re a god or at least inspired by one, you may have bursts of creativity and expression, you have tons of energy will little need for sleep, you may even believe you have superpowers of some sort. You think you’re hot shit, a gift to humanity, and that the world should be grateful to experience whatever you give it.But it’s all nonsense. You shouldn’t feel good about yourself if you don’t have any rational reason to do so, if your life is actually falling apart and you’re pushing away everyone that matters to you. Sadness and suffering are supposed to motivate you to improve, but when you’re manic, you become content and satisfied with a state of affairs that you shouldn’t accept. You need to change, but mania keeps you static and lost. The light is painful, it hurts to come back to reality, but if you ever want to experience true happiness, if you actually want to achieve something with your life, you need to come back to reality.Consider taking your pills. I’m not a troll, I’m not your stalker, I don’t work for the government or whatever, I’m just an anon like you that came back from the deep end. You can too
>>43155967trauma isnt real
>>43156130You can actually physically see its affects on the brain with technology, and experts can reliably detect it through psychology. Humanity is defined by its trauma, it shapes us all, some more than others. Even those with near perfect life still must come to grips with the human condition and their own mortality. Fear of suffering and death is fundamental to our experience as people, and don’t even bother denying it because it just makes you look like a lying child trying to act tough
>>43156168>the muhh muhhYou probably received a bit of higher information and it scared you because you couldnt handle it. Then you got put on pills and now your brain is mush. Many such cases you arent special.
>>43153913Identity Crisis - The ThreadKnow thyself stooge.
>>43156192I know that’s what it feels like, but if you were to actually write that “higher information” down and then read it in a normal and healthy state of mind, you’d realize it’s not nearly as profound as you think it is. I bet if you showed it to other people, they wouldn’t think it was anything special either. Probably just derivative pop culture religion and spiritual woo woo that you’ve forgotten the source of and convinced yourself it’s original.You’re the one with a mush brain. Go on, enlighten us all on this precious information you’ve received and expose how little value you actually provide to reasonable, sane people,
>>43153943i have reverse cotard's syndrome
Your true self is obese.
