Is it normal? its been like 1 year i dont feel shit, and that makes me not want to interact with people because i hurt them, i alienate myself, I seclude myself i dont go out because of this. Its like I have a hole in my heart, i feel a void. What should I do? My therapist doesnt understands it, its even hard to talk and communicatte about it with her, damn its even hard to have sessions wuth her without hurting her, should I talk to a priest? it may sound weird but i think maybe is something spiritual, idk. I dont know what to do. I work as a uber and its even affecting my relations with passengers, i can notice they feel insecure with me, like they notice something is off with me.I dont wanna keep living like this. Im about start a new carreer in cinema, and im struggling to project myself with this condition or limitance whatever it is.
>>43181300Find the pain you are suppressing and face it directly. Cry like you've never cried so that you can reacquire hope and find happiness. Your state of not feeling is suppression.
>>43181300love is self sacrifice, who wants to do that?the world is for children and for men to gatherfor themselves a soul and do good work.selfishness isnt a disease its a choicea choice to live like those who are subordinatein understanding and in all ways.
>>43181446How to trigger crying? It's very difficult
I was exactly like this before I found my inner child/spark again. Now I feel stagnant since I'm having issues finding a job and meeting a partner after a bad breakup and ongoing health issues.I have no family either.. But I feel better overall. I went from questioning the meaning of everything, existence, constant intrusive thoughts which still occur but a lot less frequently about death and the unknown. I spent months in isolating seeking occult/esoteric knowledge. Glad to know more but most of it didn't provide me any genuine insight or wisdom. I began thinking back to the time as a kid when I was curious, imaginative, and wanted to explore/experience so much, also how humorous and silly I used to be.. healing from childhood trauma, accepting grief/loss and processing it in a healthy manner, self-mastery helped me immensely. Learning to not fear or control the future too.''Grief is love with nowhere to go''The downside to having more empathy is that you can feel and absorb people's pain wherever you go and it's hard to cope with. I actually believed I was an alien for a bit because no way could I be from here. Time heals. Listen to Todd. And yes, it is spiritual. A lot, a LOT of others feel the same as you
>>43181300You, in fact. Are teaching your therapist with every session. You are the perfect person to be in therapy. I know because I’m the same way. I’m just older and know how this works, and know how to maneuver through life like this. It’s not your fault. But you’re right. You do have bad energy, and you do hurt people, without even trying, but so what? If people are hurt, then good. This teaches people how to be kind. How to be supportive, even when it doesn’t feel good, or comfortable. This is the reason we come here. This is why we’re human. You didn’t come down here to be comfy and cozy and sweet and soft to everyone. Because that isn’t what earth is. What you have to do is make a commitment to be positive. To help people instead of hurting them. You’re a strong person. You can do it. Find subtle ways to be of service to someone or something that needs it. Practice Grace and mercy towards earth and other people. And if you don’t agree with this cool, don’t reply with some lame ass post. Just ignore it.
>>43181934https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7y9aU9_O7GkIf you're bleedingThen everyone can see you're bleedingThey can call for the doctorHe'll provide with the diagnosis that you're needingAnd he'll take away your painBut if your heartYour heart has been brokenAnd you don't wear it on your sleeveNo one can tellYour hell goes unspokenBut there's one thing you must believeTime heals the wounds no one can seeTime heals the wounds that no one can seeTime heals the wounds no one can seeDon't you know time heals the wounds that no one can seeIf you're cryingThen everyone can see you're cryingAnd they all sympathizeBut it just doesn't matterThough they may be tryingThey can't feel the hurt insideYou can't go onYou've gone to the limitAnd your life seems to slip awayYou're on your ownAlone you must face itAnd tomorrow's so far away
