How do I explain I imagine myself as a 12-year-old shotamoder pooner in bed with my boyfriend? To my boyfriend / normie Discord queer friends? ... What is the general copium for oneself / others and how do I explain it when people ask (it is so annoying, they always assume you have daddy issues and you never know what to say)?
I suppose sometimes it's better to accept that you're sick and that's it, to accept that you only like children or the idea of children with adults and leave it at that. It's better to enjoy something on your own than for someone to find out and want to have you committed.