As someone with a fucked up childhood where I had to deal with physical abuse, an extremely dysfunctional family, and also we were poor as fuck, I honestly would never want anyone to suffer what I had to deal with. I don't feel I am entitled to what other people have, my life happened to be this way and I just never felt it was unfair it wasn't in other way. At the end it made me who I am right now. Some people get luckier and others don't, it's not their fault they had it better.
Instead of feeling envy of them, you could use your energy to try and find other ways to make it up. There is always a chance, you just have to find it.

>>33588134
But don't you think that you're just being weak? That other people have it better because they are inherently better? Even if it is for the wrong reasons? Like those who inherit wealth but not intelligence? I cannot stand the fact that others have what they have without earning it through blood and suffering, and to think that others will think I am inferior because of it drives me wild. I will forever be relegated to an inferior caste of schools while those who didn't go through what I did are rewarded for it.

I can only wish for them to suffer. I would be so happy to find out that something terrible happened to them, and I don't care who it hurts. I don't care if their families die, or get cancer, or if they get violently assaulted, all I care is that they are in pain, and pay a price for the life they live. NOthing more. I don't want them dead, just in pain.

>>33588134
>At the end it made me who I am right now.
I am not PROUD to be what I am right now. I'm still suffering from PTSD related ot the shit I dealt with. I would give anything for this pain to be erased but it can't be. I have to live with these scars forever.
>Some people get luckier and others don't, it's not their fault they had it better.
I want them to suffer. Why did I have to go through it all?
>I honestly would never want anyone to suffer what I had to deal with
I'm the opposite. I want them to go through what I did and so much worse. They should be punished for their success.

>>33588119
Let's go through your list.
>strong supportive family
>girlfriend
>college (finished a little ahead of the actual national average of time)
>can afford multiple med school applications
>gets into med school
>future secured

Poor baby.

>>33588166
>But don't you think that you're just being weak?
No, it's the opposite, being weak is letting yourself submit to that type of energy draining emotions (envy, jealousy, inferiority).
For me, the suffering I had to endure for practically half of my life made me an introspective person; I've been told by many other people who had it better that I'm a strong individual and I know they respect me. People recognize my worth and they want me on their lives.
It's not like my value is measured on what other think of me, anyway, but it gives me a general vision of how I am perceived by those 'who had it better' (which is the majority of people I have meet btw, I had a really shitty upbringing).

>That other people have it better because they are inherently better?
The thing is that having wealth doesn't make them better than me (or anyone), they just were lucky enough to be born in a safe and stable family. I never thought as someone with that condition as 'better than me'.

>I can only wish for them to suffer
In my opinion, wishing someone to suffer is the weakest method to deal with your negative emotions.
I have never wanted that for anyone, not even people who I know that are bad people. I just don't have the mental energy to feel bad for other people situations, I just care about myself and use my thoughts on my objectives and future plans. Feeling miserable over other people luck won't take you anywhere.

>>33588119
You've been studying to get into this field for five years now. You should be fully aware of the fact that America intentionally limits the number of med school graduates by making the process for undergrad and postgrad studies as mentally and physically taxing as possible. And that's on top of the absolutely ridiculous financial investment required.
They don't want you. They don't want more people in the profession. We have for profit hospitals. You WILL suffer. You WILL go nearly half a million in debt. You WILL have to fight tooth and nail in a never ending uphill battle against their intentional and by-design attempts to weed you out and cull you from the herd of graduates.
The very fact that you can even consider going through this shitshow of a degree path shows that you have more than damn near everyone else in this country. It's fully and totally unobtainable to most Americans due to the financial investment required. You're in a good spot in life even if it seems like hell. Stop pinning all of this bullshit on other people when you're making the conscious decision to make the next six years of your life as miserable as humanly possible.

>>33588119
>I just want this girl to be raped.
And I want you to stay out of med school; you need a backbone of empathy and a sense of humanity for that. Stop being a piteous whining faggot. Bait probably

>>33588119
>>Had to start college late because of dying family member
>>Dying family member literally whithered away leaving me hollow inside
>>Girlfriend attempted suicide worsening depression
>>Takes me 5 years to finish undergrad bc of this shit
cope

>>33588343
>For me, the suffering I had to endure for practically half of my life made me an introspective person; I've been told by many other people who had it better that I'm a strong individual and I know they respect me.
You haven't suffered enough then. You need to be broken. People like you disgust me. You sound like the person who's into getting cucked; the sicko who enjoys having life fuck them up the ass. Nothing you said has any value. Kill yourself.