27 year old male. Tech worker.Ever since I was a kid I was very autistic. Like, 4chan autistic. I checked for it at one point, but I've never been diagnosed with anything.Some evidences I am willing to share:-Every time a woman I don't know talks to me, my IQ drops below zero. If I am asked a question, I am only capable of uttering "uh" until they are suficiently freaked out and leave.-I go about my day normally but each time I see some dude I compare everything about him and myself: height, muscle, looks, is he better etc-Sometimes my brain plays back an awkward situation I've experienced, and I recall all the cringe as if it was the first time again.Maybe as some sort of coping mechanism, I yell out screeches involuntarily. The problem is the content of the screeches. They can be random noises; meows, "WOWs!", or with words like "KIIILL MEEEE". The worse ones are swear words, which can "FUCK" or the n-word. Stay with me here. These can happen anywhere, anytime. However, if I am outside my house they tend to be quieter, but not always.Sometimes I contain my wierdness, other times I can't. This time I didn't and it hurt.Long story short, I was doing groceries, passed by a gentleman who was black, and my brain picked the best time to remind me of one time I went turbo autistic in front of the highschool class. Then, of course, I screeched the n-word. It was definently within hearing range of the aforementioned fellow, since he turned around, said "What did you just say?"and punched my face before I could say sorry and explain my life story. I grabbed my deservingly bleeding nose and just ran straight to my house. I 1000% deserved that and I'm very sorry. It obviously wasn't on purpose. I know every life is precious regardless of colour, i am not racist, I just say the word because it IS a bad word, not because I agree with the how it was used in history.Please tell how to make it stop. I've tried meditation.. It didn't do much..
Sounds like tics.... you should see a professional about that
>>33605951Nope. Also checked, completely normal. It's a bad habit i picked up but can't shake off
>>33605925I honestly feel the same way. I like to imagine different scenarios playing out in my mind while I'm at work. I've had sexual fantasies about my penguin plushie ever since I was 4. I got her when I was 10 months old and I loved to get naked and rub my penis all over her. I also personally blame the Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer movie for making me attracted to the girl deer.I saw Carrot in One Piece and my dick got hard from watching her. I bought a dakimakura of Lopunny that I hope comes in the mail soon. Hell, I JUST MIGHT bite the bullet and get the Carrot one from cuddly octopus. I can also remember my dick tingling from seeing the White Bengal tiger. In that one Wonder Pets episode. Don't worry about what the normies think. Just focus on yourself bro.
If you're not mentally ill then it's just low impulse control.Spend a day on the edge of a roof, everything will be sorted by sundown one way or another
>>33605974... did something happen to you? That sounds concerning
>>33605974OP here. I'm sorry how is that fetish related?? Also you arent hurting anyone you shouldnt feel bad about it
>>33605987roofs near me arent that tall, but I apreciate the fucked up advice
>>33605988I've always had a thing for Penguins, ever since I got my Penguin plushie when I was a baby. I never had a room until when I was an older teen/adult so I aways just slept with my grandfather.
>>33606008Hope your grandpa wasn't weird
>>33606027No but he did like to sit on me and watched me while I used the bathroom.
>>33606031Explains where it came from .....
OP hereI am never returning to this site because all of you are doodo heads. Maybe that will actually help with
>>33606043Well I'm not like those furfags you see on Tumblr and shit. I just find some animal girls attractive is all. Just like the deer in Bambi.
>>33606050>well Im not a furry>sexually attracted to animals with fur
>>33605925no autism = no probems(yes I read what you wrote)
