>Be me>Anon in his 20s>I am clinically diagnosed with Autism and ADHD, smell bad due to my poor hygiene practices, underweight, I am unathletic and have a small penis>Go to work>Encounter a few females along the way>Most of the times I avoid eye contact with women or even looking at their direction, because I don't want to arouse myself on accident >I get boners when girls sit next to me, luckily thanks to the small penis the bulge is easier to hide>Being autistic I naturally have no rizz so I have no chance of getting a girl friend>I am afraid I will somehow manage butt fumbling my way into getting a girl to like me, it's happened at least once>I have no desire to maintain a long term relationship as my brain wouldn't handle it. and I find putting on a mask everyday tiring >But worst of all when a chick with really hot features gets even in my peripheral vision, if I am walking behind a chick with wide hips or have to interact with a woman with exposed cleavage, I have to concentrate all my will power into not getting a boner. >I remind myself these chicks could be in a relationship already, but the mind still slips into lust>One time a male friend invited me out to eat dinner with his female mate>Started having massive doubts last minute and feared that his girl would crush on me>I literally forgot how to act natural and was moving my eyes like a spastic making eye contacting and looking away in frequent intervals >I literally said to myself never again and ghosted him
