My entire life I’ve been extremely extremely calm, I NEVER lost my temperament. People can laugh at me insult me, defame me and I wouldn’t even react. I always realize I was just good at holding in it. I was always uncomfortable in my own house with my family (mom and dad from birth to 20 years old). Now that I have authority over someone (my wife) I have this internal anger and I just want to release it. My wife was talking to me and I was looking at her in the eye and I just want to grab a knife and stab her and get close to her and hear her scream and her begging me to stop. Idk why I’m so internally angry maybe because I never ever showed it on the surface? Everyday I just think about me killing my wife and it doesn’t leave my head. Picrel is her eye
>>33627206Therapy
>>33627281I don’t believe in therapy
>>33627285You're foolish if you talk your way out of this. You need therapy and you need medication.
>>33627285You have continuous thoughts about killing and hurting your wife, whatever is going on with you has a certain chance to devolve to domestic violence or worse, go get fucking therapy.
>>33627206Pick up a contact sport like boxing instead of spilling out your childhood trauma onto someone who wasn't apart of it. You're an adult, act like one.
>>33627293>>33627298Number 1 I can’t go to therapy or get medication because my work won’t allow that (they will find out) >>33627300We’re 23 and I’m not spilling anything on to her.
>>33627313>23Yeah getting hitched young can really fuck up some guys
>>33627206that's not healthy>>33627300boxing or another martial art would at least improve your discipline and control but do you really want another war machine on your hands?
>>33627317Hitched?
>>33627313>I can’t go to therapy or get medication because my work won’t allow that (they will find out)And there's a good reason for that restriction, but since you didn't come here for advice, but rather to collect high fives for wanting to be violent to a female I'll cut my losses here.
I mean, intrusive thoughts are pretty common, but honestly yours sound a bit more than normal. Every day you think about killing your wife? I don't know why man none of us fucking do, maybe it is becuase of your past built up anger, maybe something else who knows. You likely need therapy to find the root cause>I don't believe in therapyOkay anon, well, then godspeed hope you don't kill her.
>>33627376What? Im not collecting high fives >>33627400Im not going to kill hrr
>>336272064chan went from being an anime site to being a psycho central.
>>33627501Im not a psycho for thoughts I can’t control
>>33627514Uhu. And let me guess, it's the society's fault that you want to gouge your wife's eyes out?
>>33627521My wife is a good and honourable woman thanks to me. I convinced her to be a stay at home wife. I gave her this beautiful house on a beautiful farm like estate. Credit card debt and mortgages are a scam and everyone is an NPC loser who only cares about their own ego. We live in an individualistic type world and it’s disgusting
>>33627529Ok larper
>>33627533LARPER? You’re a losing and can’t handle the truth and you’re a gaslighter for saying I wanted to gouge her eyes out
>>33627543You are a fucking stupid pretender and an attention whore.
>>33627529ok, you convinced her to be a stay at home wifeand now you are mad at her for being ungrateful
>>33627543You already said that yourself verbatim in the opening post.
>>33627206You know how some people get thoughts about jumping from high places when they look down from huge heights? Same shit
this is why all women should opt out
>>33627543We get that okay. You're in the marines and it is your only job. However it is better to be honorably discharged rather than go through a psychotic episode being dishonorably discharged. If anything OP we assume you're trying to battle demons in your head and you feel like they have control over you because the pain your head gives off the thought. You need medication to let yourself know you aren't experiencing an intuitive signal, but instead an intrusive thought. And here's the thing no one is telling you everyone has intrusive thoughts, but when it gets overwhelming you have to seek a doctor. And again none of us here assumed you are doing that, because logically speaking you would have snapped earlier rather than freaking out in your bathroom with your girlfriend walking upstairs with her looking through the door and you rocking back and forth curled up afraid. Your fear is the biggest sign you won't do it. Now then, SO THAT YOU AREN'T A HARM TO YOURSELF AND SO THAT SATAN CAN FUCK OFF, please get medication, therapy, and go to church.
