>31 years old>male>have a loving gf>finished studies, 2 - 3 years ago, computer engineering>because of reasons, haven't graduated yet, but almost>work on dad's company, he pays like shit though>been trying to get a software job for 2 or maybe 3 years now>literally impossible>no motivation nor discipline to finish any fucking projects>resume is complete shit>highly in debt, at least compared to my income>bank charging me interests on two of my three credit cards>Have to save on everything including saturday nights off with my bro, an activity I love deeplyAny of you have that feeling that your life is not even that bad, and is actually kind of alright. But you can detect that you're at the very breaking point? I can tell that I'm very likely in a point of no return. That my life is starting to go downhill and I'll never recover. Like I will never fix this and I'm doomed for a life of shit.All I can see down the road is the software industry still going to the gutter, never getting a software job, continue playing games, barely pay my credit cards every month, still receive interest, never being able to go to Japan (a fucking dream), never be able to move out of my mom's, never stop depending on my father, my gf leaving me, etc...I don't want to kill myself but I feel so hopeless, so dumb and incapable. Maybe I should just become a monk or something.
