Hi /adv/Need adv on a psychological issue that I'm having rn.Quick context>got dumped almost 10 Years ago, never let the thought of her go>life still goes on, manage to find a girlfriend. We have been together for the past 8 Years, 4 living together, life is good even though there are things that are "off">still miss my ex though. Sexually, mentally. Stuff like that.>for some reason I don't like my life. Years ago I start hoarding social media from girls that I like in my area, my ex included.>Sometimes I use pictures to jerk off, Others just because I like the look.>find out multiple times from multiple girls that I could've had a chanceIf by this time you're asking yourself "why don't you see a therapist?", I have been for the past 2 Years. Things are getting slowly better.>Yesterday I find out that I could run some of the AI image generation stuff on my PC>I think about my ex. Grab a picture and then run through the AI to take her dress off.>delete it immediatelly afterwards. It's still in the recycling bin>my girlfriend comes home. As we talk I remember that thing it's still in there. Instead of right clicking on the bin's icon, I left click and for a split second the window comes out and I close immediatelly. She notices.>She asks who that was, I make an excuse saying "I don't know, I've been cleaning backups and stuff so it's probably from some group that I'm in">She jokes around to make me feel guilty.>In the meantime, I delete the bin from the terminal.>Manage to make her think about something else.>I broke out in a cold sweat, but she doesn't notice.I start thinking about all of the years I hoarded stuff and for the first time, I got scared.I got scared of her finding out.I've been thinking about deleting all of it. It's literally no use to me now but I'm conflicted.I've had thoughts about leaving her lately (since we moved in together).What should I do? I will talk about this to my therapist tomorrow.
>>33661783What the fuck bruh
