Ive been seeing this girl recently and i cant tell if im asexual or just stupid, when we kiss or makeout in the moment im really happy to do it but after its over i feel sort of empty. There are times i feel truly in love but others where im considering killing myself, that may be part of why because i struggle with depression but ive often found myself disgusted by the thought of sex but when its happening i cant help but indulge. And even when i do i dont seem to be enjoying it as much as my girlfriend does, she will be quivering and moaning and im kinda just doing whatever. This may also be because she is a masochist and i feel really gross doing some of the things she likes? I haven't had good experiences in the past and i usually end up getting hurt, so i'm considering just leaving her to avoid that, im slowly becoming conditioned to believe all women are degenerates. Im about 60/40 with how much i enjoy this relationship so im unsure if i should just cut it off.
Have you told her that some of the things she likes makes you uncomfortable? Also do you find her sexually attractive? Maybe try to get her to do things you would enjoy more. If sex drive is low maybe get your testosterone levels checked
>>33664515First off, don't confuse your depression with your sexuality. Feeling empty after intimacy, or having your mood swing between "in love" and "suicidal," is more about your mental health than about whether you're asexual. Depression kills your ability to feel pleasure and satisfaction, so no wonder you're conflicted.Second, you're clearly not into some of the kinks your girlfriend has. That's not her fault or yours, it just means you're not compatible there. Forcing yourself through stuff that grosses you out will only build resentment.>im slowly becoming conditioned to believe all women are degenerates. That's just you projecting your bad experiences. You're taking your personal discomfort and turning it into a blanket judgment, is just self-sabotaging your future relationships. There's nothing universal about the fact you choose to date freaks.>Im about 60/40 with how much i enjoy this relationship so im unsure if i should just cut it off.well is the 40% stuff you could work on (like your depression and communication), or is it fundamental incompatibility (different sexual needs, discomfort with her masochism)? If it's the latter, better to break it off now before you grow to resent her. If it's the former, maybe get your head straight first and see if things feel different.
>>33664515>im slowly becoming conditioned to believe all women are degenerates.You dumb fuck she's only like that to you.>Im about 60/40 with how much i enjoy this relationshipDo the math which is greater. You're doubting this shit.>i dont seem to be enjoying it as much as my girlfriend does>im unsure if i should just cut it offIf you're UNSURE then do NOTHING. You were so sure into agreeing to be mutually be couples together.Look, If you got NO REPLACEMENT girlfriend or until she gets tired of you, that's how this relationship will end.You fucker gonna cry how you'll lose your girlfriend later on because you're "UNSURE" with your incompetency how love works. You're gonna pay the price when this thing goes down and you'll lose her love and trust when you want it back in the future so the choice is hers to make for the finale but she never brought any issues with you.You incel fag who just lost his virginity now unsure what to do with life. Finish this relationship you started til the end of it as in BOTH you mutually wanting to end it together.
>>33664515Life ain't perfect, you feel shit. Just because you felt shit yourself and can't make her happy she didn't leave you behind.You lucky bastard and here you are wondering why she's still with you despite ups and downs and you see your girl as a slut? You should cut yourself off instead instead of your relationship you gay ass shit.Just because you feel terrible or exhausted the love between you are lost. Man the fuck up. Your problems are her problems too. Tell her what's making you depressed and suicidal. Obviously this isn't about her but your personal issues and skill issues. You may be mentally ill but these doctoraphist won't solve most of your problems except you alone.
