Why am I such a monkey?My main motivation for working nowadays seems to be solely for attracting women. I don't even do a good job. Customers complain about me, I get bad reviews from managers. I had an amazing job once that I was deemed redundant for (It was a job where I was given almost no direction and was an independent contractor). I could have easily embedded myself into the company to make myself un-firable, but instead I spent a lot of my free time finding a girlfriend, and once acquiring a girlfriend, finding another girlfriend. I would still go to the gym regularly, read great novels, sometimes make art, but that's how I spent most of my time. I could blame the death of my mother on it, but it was like this before, too. It is worse now, both the chasing of women and the attitude problem to where I have gotten in verbal arguments with customers, people on the street.A recent breakup led me to the streets where I went around insulting people, yelling, being very angry and crazy overall. There was a previous issue with her where I tore up the shirt I was wearing and walked around blindly running into things like a sperg. This was not the same me 2, 3, 5 years ago. At the same time, I do activities like go to the gym, independent business meetings, talk to a lot of different people, but all of this but it's largely contrasted to my behavior and attitude.What the fuck is wrong with me? Did I have a mental breakdown? Will a therapist unironically help? I made my last one cry.
>>33690062Unironically you might need to take meds or smth
>>33690116I feel legitimately crazy sometimes. my last gf called me unironically weird to the point she compared me to some schizo guy she knew. my gf before was sped so she had no idea. So I can't fucking function in normal society?
>>33690149Lots of people need meds to function in society, it's more normal than youd thinkIf she compared you to the schizo guy that means you're presenting similar symptoms. At the very least you sound bipolar. Seeing a doctor will help, if you can afford it
>>33690062Mark Twain: "Find a job you enjoy doing, and you will never have to work a day in your life".
>>33690171>If she compared you to the schizo guy that means you're presenting similar symptoms. At the very least you sound bipolar. Seeing a doctor will help, if you can afford itShe could have just been fucking with me or making her exit.I never really believed she loved me even after all the cooking and caring for mebipolar, idk. Sometimes its almost uncontrollable
>>33690184I found some things I like, did it as a gig and a bunch of "art galleries" and not only have I made 0 profit from it, I dont know if it wouldn't feel like work or not in the end.
