I get manic often and I can control most everything from being a big problem outside of hypersexuality.I have an issue with attracting and getting sexual with both sexes. (Though that's not the point of this, just illustrates how bad it gets)I'm avoiding stating my biological sex just because it changes how people see things socially SO much, I don't want to deal with it.Also just because I hypothetically could have sex with people doesn't mean they'll stick around or be good for me.I would say I'm a virgin, but I struggle with EXTREME porn addiction.I feel disgusting when I'm done being manic, is there a way to stop being sexual permanently?Personality wise I'm shy outside of mood episodes, potentially schizoaffective or shizo spectrum+ bipolar.When I'm depressed I feel gross for being sexual in any way.Church has helped a lot, but it makes me feel guilty.What do I do to stop it from ruining me worse?
either say if you're a girl or a dude or fuck off
>>33690284you are really mean, the more I talk the more obvious it would become.I'm a woman but I hate discussing it, for the purposes of this thread all I'm saying is I never went on testosterone and that's all anyone needs to know.
anyways op hereI can only cope by masturbating a lotit's a sin though my boobs feel so good just to the touch, it takes so much self control to not act like most manic people but it's not possible for me to stop toughing myself to bed every night.I miss being touched by a woman, even though that might be considered an issue by someit's too often im doing it
>>33690255I think finding someone you can have a healthy sexual relationship with probably would help you. my outlook on sex changed a lot when I had some, to the point where I no longer jerk off as much. Also go cold turkey on porn, jerking off is fine but porn can become a weak addiction in my experience, kinda like sugary drinks.
>>33690342im trying so hard to find a partner without being desperateit's in my mind constantly and I can't stop thinking about my exmy mind is so bad, i'm just really mentally ill and I can't maintain composure.most of the other bipolar women i know at the very least use a vibrator
i was hit so much growing up people like me for my body and I think i need to look good to get by in lifeim getting rambly fuck but it is such a problem i dont know where else to go for therapy rn and im a neet fuck
>>33690365>>33690387I also had/have a lot of issues with sex post-breakup, I totally understand that. It can be hard to not reminisce about sex when you have nobody but your hand. Previous generations actually had much more access to the opposite sex than more current ones. I personally blame phones and the internet. I try to use hobbies to keep my mind off of that stuff unless I have had a productive day or havent done it in a few days, then I will let myself orgasm. I dont have a rule of thumb or anything like that unfortunately, but when I was really going through it I used to jerk off a bunch and I eventually did it so often in such a short period of time that I rubbed my dick kinda raw and it was sore. I am not usually the type to feel guilty about jerking off but it made me stop for a few days, and that helped me get back to normal. I dont know if the same applies to females but you could try and think negative thoughts whenever you feel yourself getting horny to try and counteract it. Or again, just do something else you find addicting.
>>33690255I am a man. If you are a woman then you have nothing to worry about. Sadly, you are most likely a man and therefore need to subdue your urges. You need to pray, brother. If female I will give different advice (I didn't read thread, only the op
>>33690440I've seen so many bipolar women get knocked up what are you on about lmao get out of here
>>33690255>is there a way to stop being sexual permanently?Become a nun and let time pass. You seem to be halfway thereNot that it should matter to you but what I'm really worried about is this>I feel gross for being sexual in any way.And not that you would listen but I would try therapy instead of church
Imagine all the ways I'll take you. Rough and forceful. Breaking you.
>>33690255Stop giving into the temptation. I know it's strong but there's no actual force being applied to you. Reject it. You also sound like you need order in your life. You are not your sin by the way. Don't think you are. Make a resolve to eradicate lust from your life. Pray to God, have faith, repent. Despair is tempting, but don't listen to it.
>>33692052It feels like a force is possessing my body if I was born way back when I would be considered possessed for all extenta and purposes Im possessed and I've been possessed by a whoreIts such a bad urge
As a man you remind me of what I was like up until last month, it's good that you've recognised that what you are doing is sinful as that is the first step to escaping this addiction, in order to quit make sure you always have something that makes you happy to do, if you get a sexual temptation pray to god to rebuke it, go on a walk, or do anything that gets you away from the screen. Also here's one other thing, you likely wont succeed on your first attempt to quit, it took me 8 months to kick it fully, but you have to keep trying when you relapse, pray to god for forgiveness sincerely and he will forgive, and your determination will pay off, the times you relapse will get less and less, until you realise that you finally quit porn and are finally truly free to enjoy god's creation, I sincerely hoped this helped I pray you may escape your lust
>>33692328Possession doesn't have to be permanant. One thing which is very good is that you have a knolwedge of your bad spiritual state. Sometimes getting a demon out of your life will take time. Self denial, prayer, confession, and struggles will be your best friend in this. I think I might have once been possessed, and was in a very bad way. I used to be basically enslaved to porn, things I won't mention just for your sake, but very degenerate, not terribly unlike you, though I'm a man. In that time, the Orthodox Church is what helped me most. There are a number of youtube channels of preists, namely Father Spyridon, and Orthodox Wisdom, who's videos I found truly helpful. You may feel a spiritual dryness, or deadness. I've felt something like that myself, but it doesn't have to be permanent.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nAsuZPP-AW8
