6am: Wake up, feeling like you've been in a car crash. Drag yourself out of bed to possibly force a shit out too early in the morning, shower and get dressed. If you're extra tired you just get dressed and leave after starring into the abyss and pondering life for an hour.7am: Commute to work. If you're lucky it will be a 20 minute walk or drive. That's probably not the case. You probably enter the rat race with fellow wagies on the road, foot paths, public transport for 30-40 minutes8am: Enter the building wanting to die. Manager smiling from ear to ear, hello happy campers, team meeting !1pm: You've got a choice. Sit in the work canteen with people you can't stand, or walk back to your car that takes time out of your lunch break, but gives you time to reflect on how you hate your life3pm: You want to go home, but you've got 2 more hours5pm: You leave work, enter the rat race again, do it all over again6pm: If you're lucky, you walk in through the door. You're unsure if you want to wank, shit, eat, sleep or cry.7pm: After pondering for an hour, you force yourself to eat, household chores are on your mind, you do some, leave others8pm: You're tired as fuck at this point. You shit post, scroll some shit on social media. You start to have a good time, but then oh shit time flies when you're having fun and its10pm: I need to go sleep, need to be up at 6am. Now I've got a choice, cry myself to sleep or stay awake for a 2-3 hours more and wake up even more exhausted. You rotate those options over 5 days.11:30pm: You've been in bed for 40 minutes exhausted and unable to sleep, but then go to sleep6am: Alarm goes off
living the dream, are we anon?same boat + taking care of the kids
God loves you and cares about you, he wants to have a relationship with you and wants to help through this tough time, and through believeing Christs death and resurrection you can receive a purpose, eternal life and meaning, god really does care about you anon, you just have to open your heart to him
>>33701606This will be my life soon. Im unsure what to do about it. I know i cant give up because giving up means ending up on the street but i cant keep going any longer. I need some sort of sign or something. Anything that can break me out of this perpetual loop. I need... i need hope...
I wish I got to sleep in until 6am, by then I’ve already been at work for an hour
>>33701606That has been my life for the past 8 years. I even work 1 and half hours more.It's terrible.I really want to kill myself. It's a deep misery that is not visible like a large bloody wound, but hurts your soul the same.I don't know what to do. No family, no friends. Just this loop of misery. And to top it all of, the money I get only allows me to rent a shitty please, full of mold, falling paint, noise and a mice infestation I'm battling.I would shoot myself in the head 100% if I could get a firearm.
This demoralization does not work on me, I love my job
>>33701606I like how this is supposed to be a criticism of capitalism, but really it's just you literally crying for 4 hours a day.
>>33702912I go to work. I drive my delivery truck. I come straight home, and sit alone, in my room. I've been doing this for years. I have no one and nothing. Years and years of parental abuse and bullying ruined me, and once I was an adult I was too broken to attempt a normal life. I'm 40 years old. I don't want to live like this anymore but I don't know what to do. I want love, I want to feel what it's like to have someone who cares for you, but even the idea of trying to approach other people paralyzes me and makes me feel like I can't breathe. I was able to stave off these thoughts and feelings for a long time with endless media consumption but the emptiness of my life has finally caught up with me. I'm going to die alone and miserable in this apartment without anyone understanding what happened to me or why I lived my life the way I did.
>just have to make it until friday>just have to make it until friday>just have to make it until friday>just have to make it until friday
>>33701606I won't read stream of consciousness, minutia threads. Get to the point next time.
>>33701742Find a girlfriend. It is infinitely more tolerable with someone swallowing your cum.
