>Parents are abusive, friends think of me as an afterthought, love doesn't real.>No community to speak of, closest is this place and I want you all dead.>Being altruistic doesn't actually help because I've come to realize people in need do nothing to actually better their own lives.>Improving yourself is actually just shaping yourself to be a zombie society wants you to be.>Artistic expression does not fulfill me in any way, if anything it makes me more angry.>Seeking and advancing knowledge is actually frowned upon and has only faint benefits overall.>Standing up for your own ideals makes you a freak, "the nail that stands out gets hammered".>Work and career are just slavery.>Working on a legacy by definition will give you no returns in your life.>Religion is a powerful cope, but it is just a cope.I am 24 and I feel like I have tried it all. Am I allowed to kill myself now? Or did I miss something?
>>33702056You sound like an edgy teenage nihilistYeah just end it all
>>33702068It's funny that you think I'm a teenage-like when in reality I have achieved every major "adult-life milestone", unlike some people around here.It's pathetically dismissive, it doesn't address anything.I won't deny that I have become an "edgy nihilist", unfortunately.
>>33702056Please consult with the DSM-V on the topic of schizoaffective personality disorder and paranoid personality disorder. If you resonate with the symptoms listed for either I highly suggest taking the information to your most convenient mental health professional for the appropriate care.
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>>33702056People who are raised without love grow up assuming that the rest of society is like that, so they distrust everyone and never make bonds or participate in anything. They end with no friends or career.People raised with love think the opposite. They understand that the world have trustworthy people as well as untrustworthy people and they actively seek out the good people. They participate in society and form bonds and they have friends and careers.There’s no physical difference between the two. It’s just a matter of thinking differently. I’m not saying it will be easy for you, but it is possible.
>>33702498Love this, well said
>>33702498Not OP but my mom specifically treated me like trash so I'm like what was described in the first paragraph. How do I get out of this
>>33702524Get loved
>>33702535I'm ugly that's not happening
>>33702553Damn. I mean there’s always plastic surgery, no?
>>33702056youre talking to a bunch of chatbots or retards who are functionally equivalent to chatbots so they're just going to call you edgy or whatever.
Yo, I heard this one story of a guy dying because a homeless man coughed in his mouth and he tried to take a bath with isopropyl alcohol to clean himself. Apparently it absorbed through his skin and the vapor through his lungs, he got the most hammered you could possibly get, then lost consciousness and died from alcohol poisoning. I was thinking that'd probably be a decently painless just uncomfortable process to go. You can get gallons of isopropyl alcohol, probably want 99%, from Costco or Sam's club. But also, if you think you might have moments of fun in the future, personally that's enough for me to keep living. Knowing I'll have fun sometimes, yk? And if you're only living for fun it's easy to brush off people who get in the way of your fun. No drugs except for weed though, as those are only fun for a bit before they suck.
