I'm 27 and I’m depressed because my life is currently being on some kind of “survival” mode. My job as a physics and electronics teacher in vocational school is stable and provides me with some money, but at the same time is deeply uninteresting and time-and-energy-draining for me. My real interests are history and fantasy, which I engage with through reading, watching movies, series and Youtube channels, playing and sometimes mastering TTRPG game sessions, and writing (which is what I’ve started doing only like month or two ago, and I didn’t finished shit, but that’s not the point). However, in my shithole country (the biggest one) these are considered as mere hobbies and/or time-wasters that worth nothing by themselves, while STEM and related fields like IT are few of the viable career paths. I chose practicality over my own interests while finishing school and deciding where and what major I had to go to just to get some kind of a providing job. And I went for it fully, killing 6 years to get a degree just to find the job by pure chance and doing this job for 3 full years, the current one being fourth.This has resulted in a debilitating depression, which now prevents me from learning and doing new stuff as well as from genuinely enjoying even the smallest things that I have for now. It feels like I’m stuck in the state of “survival”, disconnected emotionally from “useless” stuff while only working, resting and doing really nothing in-between in terms of interests, hobbies and so on. I had been seen by a specialist about it, and he diagnosed me with a mild depressive episode (F32.0), but for now, he’s only providing me with meds prescriptions just to see if anything would change physically. So, what can I do about it? How do I exit or at least cope with this current life mode?
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>>33717326my advice would be to walk through it. Go through the depression. You can do whatever you want but you continually wake up and choose that life. At some point you will wake up.
>>33718204You mean I can just "outgrow" it or get used to?
Fuck you teach i hope you die
>>33717326Feed your soul.I don't mean religion, though that is one possibility. I mean anything that gives you joy. Reading, art, music, philosophy, exercise, good deeds, whatever. Something that enjoy doing, that you can look forward to doing, that you can bask in the memory of doing. You can put up with all sorts of crap in life if you know you have that island of happiness to visit whenever you want.
>>33720208> Reading, art, music, philosophy, exercise, good deeds, whatever. Something that enjoy doing, that you can look forward to doing, that you can bask in the memory of doing.Well, I was and still am kinda doing this same stuff, but it feels like it's not enough,
>>33717326i feel like i'm gonna be just like you when i graduate lol. M20, getting my bachelor of engineering. i mean i really force myself and i don't really have any other option. gonna follow this thread, thanks for sharing!
>>33717326Im kinda in a similar place as you are. I was always big on history, but knew I wouldn't make money off it so went for electrical engineering. I'm not that interested in it so I'm just coasting through the least involving jobs I can find. It pays better than anything I'd get after doing history so I guess I shouldn't complain.
>>33720447>>33720868How are you two holding up?
