Self destructive behavior , inability to stay in functional state /relation/status quo

Have you ever experienced sexual abuse? Or some types of sexual deviancy

Have you ever cheated on your past gf's/bf's or did thy on you?

Pretty sure this is a troll post, but women like this really exist and they're called predators
if it's not a troll post, you are attracted to weakness

>>33718057
nah, I haven't cheated and no-one had cheated on me, no sexual abuse or that kind of stuff, I guess I'm just fucked up
>>33718061
I'm not trolling. Also I don't think I'm addicted to weakness per se, but to the social isolation (?) like I'm the first to discover the man and to show him the world, this type of thing

>>33718013
You just want to play with some nerds weiner? The one God gave him for himself?

>>33718077

early exposure to porn?

So you want someone to be dependent on you , and you achieve it through sexual intimacy? Why?

>>33718089
unfortunately yes
fucking zoomer generational curse, also some dude was constantly sending me dick pics when I was 14 just because he thought I was "based"

>>33718111

generational curse or not, probably has something to do with your situation.

Or maybe you don't want anyone to be attached and downplay the importance of relationship, and as a escapism you want someone to get attached and later on disembark?

What do you think?

What's your current relationship

>>33718132
it's alright, we've been together since highschool, now both getting our master's degrees, I wait for marriage but sometimes I think he'll never do it because his parents only married when he was 8 years old
Also I really want children but he is on the fence about it and... I can't wait all my life for him to finally make up his mind, one day my eggs will fucking run out

>>33718144
> I wait for marriage but sometimes I think he'll never do it
>I can't wait all my life for him to finally make up his mind,
Have you had a big serious conversation about this?

Your OP is really misleading. It doesn't sound like you're a psychotic slut. It sounds like you're stuck in a dissatisfying relationship that isn't going anywhere and you're stuck between wanting to get out or not.

>>33718151
I tried to initiate it, but he waved it off because "we're not living together yet and we are too young for that"
but our ex-classmates are already having children. in three years I'll be 25, and by that age my mother already had me. if we won't start working towards a family now hell knows when that'll be

>>33718161
...Wait, you're only 22? Jesus. Okay. In this situation your boyfriend actually has a point. Maybe it's not what you're used to, but the average age of marriage in the US is now 32. The youngest age of marriage is in Alabama at 27. Your eggs aren't going to run out for over a decade.

If you want to get married now, that's okay. But you probably need to dump the poor guy and search out a church type who wants to get shackled ASAP, or else you need to recognize that what you want isn't normal in 2025.

>>33718176
>Your eggs aren't going to run out for over a decade.
I wish so, I guess the talking points about hitting the wall at 30 and being basically infertile at that age did a number on me.

>>33718013
betray and get betrayed. you reap what you sow

>>33718161
my mom had me at 41 you'll be fine

Ye... Soooo we moved from the topic being a dysfunctional self harm or excessive sexuality thingy.. Also you're not in a avoidant dismissive attachment style.

Youre just anxious about settling down and being close enough to someone as i thought earlier , you want someone to be dependent on you but we'll.. your bf is not as anxious about that matter as you

Why?

Have you had some parental trauma or something?

Why do you want to settle down so fast so much?

>>33718229
>Why do you want to settle down so fast so much?
because stuff that I want to do in life has an expiration date, such as having children

Wouldn't settling down as quick as possible and making children make you sacrifice a loooot of time early on of your adult years? Unless you want to do something "family oriented" which brings the question of why is family such a important topic to you , not children but family

>>33718013
Have you just been accused of being the type to cheat then developed a guilty conscience? You probably just think you want to do things you don't want to do because of intrusive thoughts. And just a pinch of hopelessness like "oh shit. They said I'm this type of person or do these things. I can't fight the allegations. Better subconsciously gaslight myself". Like patrick star turning himself in for a crime he didn't do.

>>33718176
just because the average age of marriage is 32 now does not mean it should be.

>>33718266
NTA but the older you get, the less energy you have to spend on raising kids. Your body starts breaking down

>>33718013
Nerdy loser here. I don't think she wants sex but I have a female acquintance that is also committed to somebody else and it seems like she feels sorry for me. Her behavior changes a lot and it's unpredictable, so this is not always. It's like she woke up feeling sorry for me that day and treats me nicer, gets more considerate, praises me, touches me, keeps asking for my presence, gets physically closer, talk about private stuff she shouldn't be sharing, does things for me. Nobody likes knowing others feel sorry for you and Im worried that people around us notice how sometimes she treats me differently from everybody else. In the off chance that its because of some crazy intrusive sexual thoughts like in the op Im concerned because even though she is cute and a nice person I dont like her that way and i dont want to mess with anyone's relationships

>>33718013
Are you a Leo Venus?

>>33718013
Reverse rape is my fetish.

>>33718013
break up with him, you don't deserve him