I've been hesitant to fully let go during deep meditation. During seated silent practice, or lying down in a sound bath or reiki session, both in person and listening to YouTube videos at home, the same thing happens:>feel very relaxed>in a dreamlike state>body starts to feel very heavy>but at the same time I feel very light>sense of expanding with no boundaries>may see golden light and veel vibrations>heart chakra center exploding with energy>feel very excited like something big is going to happen>then get nervous and open my eyes, aborting takeoff>againSo I would like advice and first and experiences from those of who have crossed this threshold, ideally without any drugs/plant medicine catalysts. What has been helpful in my own reframing of the resistance is to recognize it as overwhelming excitement, rather than being afraid, because I think I know now that this process is nothing to fear, I want to let go and allow, but time and time again end up "noping out" instead of surrendering to the metamorphoses.
>>33719540>>feel very relaxed>>in a dreamlike stateThat's enough and that's all the benefit, 20 or so minutes a day. Everything else is escapist bullshit, people running away from issues they should address irl.Buddhism is nihilism dressed up as divine metaphysics. It might have served peasants 2500 years ago with no other escape from their arduous lives but we have many more options. It certainly didn't do the Buddhists in South Asia any good when the muslims wiped them out.
>>33719540>>sense of expanding with no boundariesCould be 4th Jhana
>>33719540On a similar note, I have a hard time relaxing and reaching a dream like state, when I do it tends to devolve into horror imagery almost immediately.Any idea of what might be causing this besides self perpetuating fear or something along those lines. I would like to elaborate on this but I'm not sure how.
>>33720446>we have many more optionsall the drugs and sugar one can want, pixels in the shape of tits and pussies, fake human communication and even faker with chatbotsNo wonder everybody is trying to resucitate GodAgree on the scapism bullshit
>>33719540>>33720446Just let go anon, don't be afraid
>>33720955>No wonder everybody is trying to resucitate GodYou don’t believe in God?
