Everything turns into algorithm slop. Has been for some time. But what if it always was this way?The more I learn about life, the more disconnected and numb I become. It's like I can see more clearly, to the detriment of my idiocy, which is essential to enjoying life.Clearly see how controlled and automatic it all is. The whole process from birth to death, in all aspects of existence.I think I'm starting to get the symbolism of OUROBOROS, the snake eating itself. Reality is eating itself, endlessly. But what will the result of this be? Endless recurrence? This is as much a heaven as it is hell.I can imagine all manner of life on earth as a human and at this point just think "fuck this."I can somewhat imagine being something else on earth and think, "no fucking way."Yet I can't kill myself, because there is a faint hope for MORE. Something OUT THERE; Outside this boring human mind.Yearning for the dreams, the visions, I want to grasp the otherworldly and escape this endless cycle of humanity. But life is like a sticky web of energy. Matter, emotion, energy, attachment.It really, really does suck once you see clearly. I want out. How do I get out?Tried talking to others about this, in a more careful and round-about way. Communication about it is impossible. It either starts weirding others out, or they have absolutely no clue what you are trying to get at. They are lucky and enjoy human life. They will continue eating, shitting, fucking and working until they die, good for them.Advice?
>>33730262It wasn't all that way. It took time for jews, a supremely uncreative people, to get their claws in it and make everything mediocre.
>>33730262Anon, I know exactly what you're saying and I feel the same way you do. It makes me want to kill myself. All I want to do is run away to the middle of nowhere and live like a hermit.
>>33730383When was it different? I think I’m hinting at the core loop of humanity.>>33730783I wanted something similar too, but I don’t think it’s a solution. The solution has to be something transcendental.
>>33730262Truth is the best thing you can get.Running away from the world like a hermit wont get you the freedom taking a step back from it all. Nor do I think emptying yourself through meditation will give you meaningful results. Death wont let you reap the reward for escaping the cycle either so its out of the question. Unless you can sleep while concious then finding out the truth in all things is the best alternative. Where did the first wind blow?What is right not by the metric of the law or god but in its rawest sense. Truth in all things will allow you to know the essense of your existense and how to rearrange it in a way that matters. Once you do that then its as simple as walking away from an event you're no longer part of. Does that make sense?
>>33732070>When was it different?Before 2016.
>>33730262Everyone on the planet is moving toward wholeness and completion on a soul level. Some will get there faster than others but ALL of us will get there. You're here to evolve, to grow, to observe. All manner of life is growing and experiencing itself, evolving. And when you're done here you'll go somewhere else. This physical human body is not you bro. This is an earth costume that we all have to wear. You chose this and now you're here, living it out. Enjoy it. It's very temporary and will be over before you know it so don't waste your time complaining about something you're gonna wish you could have back the literal moment you die, no matter how bad or shitty it is. When you come out of that body, you're gonna be thankful just for having the chance to live in it. You won't know how it feels until you're not in it anymore and wish you could get back into it and can't cause you're dead now an it's too late. Watch some Near Death Experience videos dude, learn about life before you complain about it so much. Don't be so pessimistic about your own existence when you could easily just buy a gun an off yourself.
